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Am reading a long thing about how historical fact and the stories that get told don't match up in very many places
http://aidanmoher.com/blog/featured-article/2013/05/we-have-always-fought-challenging-the-women-cattle-and-slaves-narrative-by-kameron-hurley/

which linked to another thing I'll read in a bit
http://fozmeadows.wordpress.com/2012/12/08/psa-your-default-narrative-settings-are-not-apolitical/

both are about how women actually did exist in history. women did all the things. but the stories that we're soaking in try and tell us different.


A lot of it is also about the difference between casual perception and actually counting. Read more... )



We need better stories, and I think getting stubborn about parity is baseline necessity towards that.
Thinking of what all them women should do really ought to diversify the storylines, as long as they exist in the first place.
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The Iron Man and War Machine armours seem to translate real easy to historical AU, being visually reminiscent of traditional plate armour, so fitting in with the 13th through 16th century. But I'm having trouble translating their role on the battlefield, especially their weapons. The mobility seems like mounted troops, except if you put mounted knights vs longbows they are not going to stand there looking invincible, and then there's the rise of gunpowder, and basically in the long running battle of tanks vs weapons, the weapons spent many centuries winning.

Actually even now the Iron Man armour seems to spend most of the time getting blown to bits or having holes knocked in it or falling apart so Tony can stick out looking vulnerable. Armour is not invincibility.

So say there's AU Tony and Rhodey in full plate armour (and AU historical Rhodey can be a black guy in many eras, there were black people all through history, I know this, I've read about Arthurian black people and all sorts). They're vulnerable, but not as much as the guy next to them, so they're up front protecting people.

So, what weapons are they using?

Read more... )

Weapons are important. Tell you so much about how someone approaches a problem. Snipers and tanks just don't think the same way.

How I invent characters: Shoes and sword. Read more... )

It's still a big decision though. What tools to give a character, and how they stand.
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sometimes I get bored and try and find clothes for my characters.
this sometimes involves using the dollmaker sites, but other times I'll browse catalogues.
I have a whole folder full of things from goth websites that'll do for my dystopic futures, including some very sharp pseudo militaria that'll suit for uniforms for starfleets.

it'd be fun to do this sort of thing as a collaborative challenge, but DW isn't really the platform for pictures. I don't know where is because I'm rarely in a picture mood.

it's weird thinking about how much detail we can get out of small changes in costume. like today I'm looking at workwear websites, checking out tunics. The distinctions between a chef's tunic and a dentist's are small yet easily read. http://www.matrixuniforms.co.uk/index.php was where I was looking. they've got some tunics in the Beauty section that'll do lovely for SF uniforms. http://www.matrixuniforms.co.uk/Beauty.51/Ladies_Beauty_Tunics.146/ , particularly http://www.matrixuniforms.co.uk/Beauty.51/Ladies_Beauty_Tunics.146/Jasmine_Long_Sleeve_Tunic__BZ35_.1129.html . The Gents versions don't have half the variety though, and you can't make them match. *sulks*

Other clothes it's more fun to wonder who exactly would wear those. Voluntarily. I do have a character who'd love the Unisex Harlequin pants but ze also wears a patchwork tale coat and makes a living out of being the centre of attention. There's matching hats and neckerchiefs. I have visions of rooms full of chefs wearing these things and just wonder what they'd be cooking.

I reckon I can make my post apocalyptic people wear this stuff because if it's polyester then it'll be around forever. Non-biodegradable. They'd have to grow their own cotton or wool or whatever, but some of these synthetics they could dig out of landfills in later centuries and just scrub up a bit. If it was a sudden apocalypse there'd be warehouses full of such things. Future people wearing a lot of cheap supermarket uniforms because those things will never rot isn't a vision I've read elsewhere, but really, it makes sense.

Really, what is it that makes a bold trim healthcare tunic visually distinct from the tunics of other disciplines? Or the other sorts that are less scifi on account of having collars. I don't understand collars. I mean, why? I know some of them are for ties, but we're back to why very swiftly. If they function as slings or garottes then that at least makes some sense but mostly they just sit there or possibly flash and sing christmas tunes. How many futures still wear ties? But if they don't wear ties, that's a whole source of subtle coding gone.

Humans. We make signals out of all sorts. Considering it's all basically variations on being the monkey with the brightest backside it's ridiculously complex.

The fun with the sci fi challenge is to retain as much of the complexity we've already learned to read as possible, whilst making it recognisably SF. Doing fancy design stuff that you'd have to get a costume department to sew up is one way to do that, but having to buy all the parts from high street stores would be another. I keep seeing stuff that strikes me as perfect for B7 cosplay without technically being something ever seen on B7. So the trick to SF costuming would be to take the easily available but combine it in a way you get a coherent look that is just unfamiliar enough.

And then preferably do it in a mix and match way that works for multiple extras, in a slightly more nuanced way for guest characters, and in ways with depth and range for the core characters.

Costume design is hard, and I don't think I'd get the hang of it even if I studied more.
Is fun though.
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I have seen a lot of argue about IM3 on a topic that didn't even ping me, despite being relevant to my interests
spoilers go under the cut
Read more... )



this is an important topic and I want to go over this and make it make proper sense.
but it's five in the morning, so this is the best sense available right now.
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Sometimes I miss when all the web had to be text only.

I get nostalgic for when fancy gifs with four whole frames were something you had to seriously consider the load times on. Sure, you ended up with pages full of blinky shit and dancing monkeys that nobody needed, but there was sort of general agreement nobody needed them, and you didn't get all the conversation happening in the middle of them.

... tumblr is blinky shit central and I cannot be having with it. If I had the brain spare for that much movement I'd be watching a video.

And speaking of videos, why so many untranscribed videos? Sometimes people are saying like three paragraphs of thing, but because they're neurotypical socials or whatever they think it's important to have facial expressions with it, so they pour it into this multi channel input form with visuals and sounds and movement and no freaking subtitles when really it'd work as plain text.

I miss plain text being the universal default. I mean, okay, people are doing lovely beautiful things with the art forms the net can now carry, but... *big sigh*

Every increase in complexity, every time visuals got easier, or could move now, or sound got simple, or everyone assumed they're pouring it all in broadband so let's pour it all in at once... it just takes things further away from usable for me. I mean there's newspaper websites now that regularly put interesting stuff in their podcast or video sections and not in that strange boring medium that you might associate with newspapers, the written word. I want data! In forms I can handle! And in more useful forms anyway. Video and sound is slow, you can't skim read it, why does anyone want to present data in such a form? Be social in it, yeah, I suppose, but present information? You can't skip back up the page to double check something. You can't fit more than a single moment on the screen at once. Why do they want that?

And I know that visually impaired people are probably going 'hey, sound on the internet! woohoo!' but that's just one of the awkward things about accessability, needs clash. Except screen readers can handle plain text too now so it seems like the most accessable version to me.

And I know it looks like I'm just being whiny, and I know there's a lot more of the web now so you can argue there's at least as much plain text space as there ever was, but it used to be the whole conversation was in text and now it is at best sprawled out between text and a bunch of blinky *rudeword* gifs on a different service where I can't see how they have conversations anyway because really comment threads are kind of useful why don't we stick with the site that has them? ... and yeah, this complain can read like an extended *shakes fist at tumblr*, but that's just a symptom. There's a ton of sites where I click a link and find whatever the hell they wanted me to read is in a form I just can't be having with today. Not to mention it gunks up my computer. Not everyone has a cutting edge bit of equipment, mine is the one I got on a grant for doing my degree with seven years ago. Lovely thing, I hope it keeps working.

Anyway.

I'm lucky, when I have my brain in and a bit of spare energy, I can access whatever. Sound, video, text, I've got the sensory equipment for all of it. I just find it distracting, exhausting, and a bit of a pain really. I've tried with tumblr but there's nothing fun about the experience. It's like trying to do meta with a strobe light in your face. I'm always at the disco at cons but I'm there to dance, trying to talk in there is pretty pointless.

What I miss is when the level playing field, the tech everyone was using, was something that worked really well for me. And I'm not asking everyone to go backwards, clearly they were waiting for all these other channels, fair enough for them. But it leaves me ever closer to the same position socialising online that I am in 3D spaces: sitting in the corner, trying to sort data fast enough to keep up with even one conversation, drowned out by all the other signals and noise.

Sad face. Woe. Sulk.


... which is a bit pointless as a sulk really, because it's not like I'm much good socialising in either space, I can never think of anything to say. Different problem, kind of a bigger one.


Also, march of tech has its own antidotes. I have buttons to zap colors and readability. I can get rid of all the blinky and make things black on white :-D
... except then I can't see what people were trying to convey, because blinky is the message nowadays.
So, sometimes, I miss it.
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I was reading an actor interview thing and he was making noises about not doing another sequel to his really popular thing. "How many sequels can you really do and make them fun?" he asked, or something like that.

My first thought was, that is a movie actor. That is really not a television guy.

How many stories can you do? Aim for a minimum of 100.
Read more... )

Television is hard. But just by virtue of series length and preference for continuation it says something very different about the nature of Important. Every week is important. All your life is important. Your daily grind is our weekly viewing. And how many of that story can stay fun?

Aim for at least 100. Sometimes hit half a century.
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I read a Britpick meta about getting degrees, which was called University Education. I realised my education was an exception to basically ever part.

I study at College, not University. Read more... )

Er, I started off talking about Me At University, and have ended up with the educational equivalent of What's It All About Anyway, Really, When You Get Right Down To It?.
Read more... )


Okay then, I have a goal for the next... rest of my life: Actually start writing the things that will change the world again. Design some utopias and put them out there. Write the SF that extrapolates into the near future and see how we cope. Write the fantasy that I'm fairly convinced is what Sufficiently Advanced Technology is going to make of the future if we don't kill ourselves first. Or possibly even if we do. Just, in general, write. Make the heroes we want to see. Stop complaining and start trying to change things.

Well, complain in a different form, that'll be a big part of it.

But write.



and maybe if the scripts seem workable the new models of funding and production will provide a venue for finished work, even if I can't fit in the old boxes.




... next I need to decide what to write first. starting with which bit of F&SF I'll be playing in.


... also to learn how to ignore that I'm not, in fact, very good at it at all.
everyone's rubbish to start with. I might have 70 years to practice.
Write.
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I have been trying to get to sleep for two hours and ended up in my head talking to TV execs about an Avengers TV series which they had made a pilot for and were totally messing up. They'd cast me as a 25 year old skinny person who made eye contact, it was horrible. ... my insomniac ramblings, they quickly become epic rants on cultural studies topics such as representations of disability in heroic fiction, even when my mary sue self could be spending those hours daydreaming on being awesome kick arse Avenger dating the whole team except Thor.

ANYway, I don't think the whole internet would be interested in much of that.

But we're going to have a SHIELD TV series, which will be kin to an Avengers series but distinctly different, so it's interesting to me at least to wonder: what will be the central question to explore in such a show?

Read more... )

The show that I would make would maybe not so much be the show that's likely to happen.

But there's interesting opportunities for asking who are the good guys and what their relation to structures of power is or should be.





I'd kind of like to be a better writer so I could answer such questions in the form of kick arse fiction, but at best for that I would require much practice.


Fanfic answers such questions while galloping past them looking at the pretty white guys shagging. I mean, not so often does fanfic get stuck in on questions other than will they won't they, but somewhere in the background is an implied answer. And sometimes it makes me tad bit uncomfortable, reading happy snuggly romantic fiction about an assassin and the guy who aims him at (exactly what kind of) enemies.

... mostly though I just like the epic trust oasis effect and carry on reading until the Happily Ever After.

Or, in this case, I go back to trying to get to sleep.
... is possibly slight bit metaphoric right there...
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Okay, there's other stuff in there, but I keep poking River's story a lot.
... despite choosing to focus on the one episode where she appears mostly as a very small baby. :eyeroll:

So: there must be meta around about River Song. And arguments. And wank.
And it has now become relevant to my degree to wade into that lot and see what people think of her and why they've got a problem with her.

... I'm probably going to regret this.

Anyone know where to find some good arguments about River?
Good in any sense you like, good as in convincing or good as in they've been rolling on for years now and show no signs of stopping.

I know what I think about her after reading all these theory books, but I'd like to see what other people think, and there's a weird shortage of academic essays about women in Doctor Who.



... if anyone knows any academic essays about women in Doctor Who, please to link those too, for they are very relevant.




Today I am not having a tantrum yet. Is good.
... #xfingers#


Now I must go and think of an introduction to explain why I am writing about these things that is not 'the Doctor told me to' because academic discourse doesn't think that's a proper good reason.
(I know proper good reasons but I've got to go line them up and write them down)
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I decided to focus on A Good Man Goes to War. Because. I don't know, it seemed like a good idea at the time.
I've been rewatching the Amy and Rory and 11 and River episodes. I'm up to A Christmas Carol. There's a lot of very upsetting themes in these things. It's not just Daleks and Cybermens and Silurians, it's suicide and child abuse and... well, more suicide and scared children. I'm used to things having more of a cloak on, but here the monsters are, mostly human looking and frightened of plausible things.

And then there's the time travel stuff, and trying to sort it out in your head. Which is a bit less plausible. But still really about things like losing a child or not really knowing the important things about someone you love.

Read more... )


I was going to write something more proper lit theory ish though.

Things I have been reading lately... were not as useful as I might have hoped.

Read more... )

So: theory things
weave Trasker and Mulvey and that TARDIS thingy together better
find more to say about the military bits


... feel a horrible sinking sensation as one becomes convinced this wouldn't fill an essay, much less a dissertation.



I don't know what I'm doing.

I don't know what I'm handing in tomorrow, this is my best shot thus far, I have nothing.

Balls.
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Been reading a lot about gender and action heroes and also Doctor Who and how they designed identification figures for a loyalty program for a family audience.

One of the essays suggests that companions are identification figures for children because of the screaming bits. The parts where they're powerless are parts children can identify with. And then the parts where they're having adventures in time and space are the attractive fantasy parts.

So I was thinking, there's a lot of grump about screaming women that need rescuing. It is sometimes even well aimed grump. It's annoying when the only thing women do is scream and need rescuing. But I hadn't thought before about the powerless parts being about making them someone to identify with. Cause we all start out screaming. If it was powerless = women identify I'd be annoyed and it would be a stupid idea. But it's the child part. Every kid knows the monsters are real because every kid starts out stranded ignorant among giants, totally dependent on others for rescue. Everyone can understand that bit.

So I reckon it's only a problem if one person only gets that bit. Because then there's no attractive fantasy, or no role model to look at it from another point of view. The planning thingies for inventing Doctor Who point out that children aren't interested in the adventures of kids the same age or younger, but they don't say why that I recall. I speculate they're interested in people who can do more than them. Because once you know monsters exist, you want to know how monsters can be defeated.

Yelling for help is one pretty good way when you're a kid. Again, it's annoying if one person yells and someone else comes to help every single time. And it's annoying if it's always women screaming. But I've been grumpy previously about the screams-and-dies combination so popular in movies. And before the credits in certain TV shows. Screaming should be socially useful, serving as an alert to others who can help or protect themselves according to their resources. And in Doctor Who it does work that way. Yelling 'Doctor' happens a lot - a lot a lot - but it has the cardinal virtue of actually working. Yell for help, get help. Get by with a little help from your friends.

It's like how the Doctor consistently reckons running, fear, even being a coward, as good things. Because then you haven't slaughtered billions, and fear keeps you fast so you have a better chance of surviving. It's very anti action movie in that respect. Run away and figure things out, do lots of talking, bring friends along because they keep things interesting but also because then they protect you while you figure things out.

So being powerless and screaming aren't necessarily annoying, because they have their place. It's just they tend to be unbalanced, especially because gender. There are imbalances of knowledge and power, and since the Doctor is a bloke who knows everything and can do almost everything, it tends to be the blokes who are ahead on points. Which is why we need a female Doctor as soon as possible. A female person of color Doctor. Because otherwise this imbalance is built in. But the other way to balance things out is to introduce someone who knows things, sometimes more than the Doctor, and can do things, sometimes more than the Doctor, and is not a white bloke.

Hello River Song.

It was annoying she was black that one time because she was also kind of evil and criminal and stuff. She turned white for her redemption arc. That's a bit of a problem. But it's kind of cool that River was black that one time because (a) Time Lords can just change, it's a silly category for Time Lords, the Doctor could be black later (which I think he said in a Sarah Jane Adventures bit but can't remember for sure) and (b) River is cooler than the Doctor and River was black and is a woman.

River isn't always cooler than the Doctor, they take turns. And they rescue each other. And when the Doctor rescues River it's generally because she's whistled him up like a cab, so he's part of her plan.

I like it.

So, why, if these are to me the important parts of River Song, did I say I would write about A Good Man Goes to War?
... because there's Rory and nursing stuff in there that's easier to get at than anything Rory related elsewhere. Though I did just get four pages of notes out of rewatching Vampires of Venice when I only have that notepad to keep track of who screams for help, who rescues who, and what cool stuff does Amy get to do. Because again I picked a bad episode for Amy getting to do cool stuff.

River is older looking than the others except for when she's the same age or a baby. As identification strategies go this is afaik unique. She's a one person team TARDIS.

Team TARDIS has changed a lot since the beginning though. The different ages were meant to be three different age bands for three different segments of the audience, like grandparent, parent, child, but a teenager because of that children don't like younger children bit. The teenager kept getting older, the Doctor kept getting younger, and now instead of being someone's Grandfather he's usually being referred to as a parent, were you a dad, I could be your dad, no you look about nine, or calling him Uncle Doctor. They all got closer together. It's like there's only one interesting age now.

I want to fix it back to being lots of ages because I find people younger than me increasingly less interesting (sorry). Which is what the first inventing them people thought was true about audiences. So it's probably not just me.
Also it's depressing when only people younger than me get to have interesting stuff happen to them.

But you can tell more stories with more variety of people.

But they've managed to have the oldest, the couple in the middle, and the baby, while at the same time making everyone kind of the same, and making the baby also be the one who knows most and bosses everyone around.

... I think I've seen a diagram of that family in some self help books...





I need to turn my random meanderings into something worth handing in for a progression point, and I have a week to do it.
... I really, really miss that semester I was ill. I'd quite like that much extra time back now. But even then I'd be coming up on the first progression point and I'd still have a bunch of nothing so basically I'm just being a bit rubbish.



Also I forgot breakfast today and only turned my computer on to check the date for sell bys purposes so I'll go see to that now.

sleeps

Aug. 28th, 2012 11:46 am
beccaelizabeth: Asleep; comic book Giles with his glasses off, asleep on a book (Giles sleepy)
Dreamed about Loki. First his greens turned into all black stuff, then he turned into a black guy with dreadlocks, then some of those turned gold, then the gold ones turned out to be snakes and bit me a lot. He expected me to die but when I didn't he kept me around for a while. Those snakes could do a lot of interesting things.

It sometimes worries me when I make deals with deities in my sleep. Getting the attention of Trickster in my sleep though... oh dear.






Was reading a fic where everyone went sort of meta and protective of woobie Tony and went on about how everyone blames him for everything but he expects everyone to leave him so he wouldn't be the break up force so they went and threatened Steve because in that relationship everyone knows Tony is the more broken.

I'm not convinced.

Steve Rogers, movie version: Read more... )

Tony expects to be left? Steve doesn't expect to be picked in the first place. And when he is, he loses them, always.

They both need all the hugs.

Steve's younger and has less to hold on to, really very lost, doesn't think he's anything special.

And then they meet in Avengers and say all that stuff, Read more... ) And that seemed like a very mutual reaction, not one you can pick sides on.

Tony expects to be left? Yes. So he's an utter dick to people to find where they'll go away. He destruct tests his best friends, we've seen him do it. Read more... )

So if they were in a relationship, you can see the failure modes, Read more... ) Their failure modes are obvious and explosive. And very clearly mutual, both directions, boom available from everywhere.

But we haven't seen Steve screw up his relationships on purpose, and we have seen Tony.

If anyone needs the talking to, they both do.
And a hurt him and I'll hurt you speech from the whole team? Well where does that leave them when they have perfectly normal people bump each other wrong sometimes hurts? Feeling like the world ended again is where.


The good in their hypothetical relationships, any loving relationship, is they'll find someone they like and respect loves them and conclude maybe they're actually worth loving and then get that warm glow of happy and possibly try slightly harder to stay alive and generally see themselves more as the audience sees them. So I like that, I like reading that, people who don't like themselves much get over it with warm snugglies, it's all good.

But the bad is potentially spectacular.



I haven't read the comics, I'm just working from the movies, and that's what I see. There's a bunch of other ways to read anything.


All this relationship stuff is where I spend most of my brain space, and it's useful for writing, but useless for college. For college I'd have to tie it all to ideology and isms and stuff. I don't even know. Is not so useful for writings. And more boring.
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Reading fic about (former?) assassins has some major problems.
Like, finding stories that send assets out to eliminate America's enemies and think that's A-okay and shiny.
Killing people? Not a good thing. Sneaking around killing people without even trials or any of that useful civilisation stuff? Very not a good thing. Even when the people doing it are very cute.

Also, torture doesn't work.
Seriously, it doesn't work, the argument doesn't have to get as far as ethical issues on that one, because it doesn't fucking work. It is not an effective means of data gathering. It's an echo chamber, torturers just hurt people until they tell them what they want to hear, all their hopes and fears amplified. Human history has proved this over and over and over.

Torture is what the bad guys do because they don't care about truth. They don't care about truth so they can just use fear as a means to power and hurt whoever seems handy just to encourage the others. That's what makes them bad guys.

Some people are writing about bad guys in good guy uniforms, and yet still cheering them on.



How do I write stories effective enough to counter that bullshit?

The simple stories with the bad guy and the winning are so much easier to sell.



When the bad guys do torture and assassination and use fear then that's why the good guys rise up and do rebellion and stuff. Because when the powerful set themselves up as the thing to be feared they set themselves up as the major problem of their own people, and then boom, their turn to be targets. The more you tighten your grip, the more star systems slip through your fingers.

Why think that works different with a different flag on it?



But in fiction it does. Good guys get tortured? They hold out grimly and await rescue, never giving anything away. Possibly they lie and fool their captors. Bad guys get tortured? They fold. Instantly. And say true things.
Fiction is telling very big lies.


Don't know how to fix this one.
Can avoid doing it myself, but don't know how to convince people of true things.

Why do they like the lies anyway?
beccaelizabeth: Tony Stark, working on Iron Man gauntlet, heart and hand shining (Tony brilliant)
briefly on Captain America AUs: I'm finding it actually somewhat disturbing when people update Steve just by changing which war he's been in. Because there's nothing in our lifetimes that's like World War II. Just changing the dates and going 'hmmm, what war are we up to now?' ignores the ethical complexities entirely. And it ignores them in a way I worry Captain America could, like using him as propaganda for all the wars ever, like trying to make every war out to be nazis and self defence. It's just wrong.


at great length on Iron Man movies: Watched both movies yesterday with mum.

Oh, Tony. *sighs*

I read a lot of fic, and a lot of fic is about how awesome and wonderful and giving and generous and fun he is, and, well, yeah, but... dude is also a dick. Read more... )


Tony and his friends are a big tangle and they're only just starting to sort themselves out.

If 'generous and supportive friend' turns out to be one of Tony's good qualities, then yaays. And I can see that happening. He's already a self sacrificing team mate. He donates and gives stuff away. And he designs stuff for the team. So, yeah, he'll become that.

But he hasn't been entirely good to his friends up until now.

Maybe Pepper can get the best of the new and improved him... Read more... )




My fic preferences are pretty consistent, soldier/scientist m/m saving the world. So possibly I'm reading everything only in the ways that set up my favourite pairings. Buuuuut... that's what I'm seeing.




If I applied this much brain to college I'd believe I'd actually pass this year.
:eyeroll:
beccaelizabeth: Giles, corporeal, reaches out to touch Ethan, ghostly.  Caption, 'Haunted' (Haunted)
I'm having a problem with writing. Sort of in general, in that words are not hitting the page at all at all, but also in specific. I'm having a problem with bad guys, because I can't think of any.

Bad guys seem like a lie.

I mean, Stargate sets up these galaxy spanning civilisations that exist for the sole purpose of being so evil we can cheer when they get blown up. Even if logically that was genocide. They're exterminated? Well they were evil! Cheer now!

And it's not even that I cannot cheer. It's that I cheer, and then feel really awful about it and obsess on it later. Because (in universe) that was a whole civilisation, a culture, a set of minds that couldn't have been made anywhere else. That was a whole lot of lives. Easy to destroy, but impossible to bring back. (Yes, some of them are like yoyos, that too is part of the problem, it's morally bankrupt to erase ones consequences so damn often.)

Movies are the worst, because they're meant to resolve things in one easy step. Bad guy exists? Bad guy go boom.

Television has room to do more complex things, but, on the whole, doesn't.

Babylon 5 went there big time, spent years making things twisty complicated. Who were the bad guys on B5? The Shadows? Even they had their reasons, they were the careful what you wish for guys, they were trying so hard to help everyone be strong. Everyone that survived, obviously. The Shadows were a problem, but they weren't bad guys in the same sense, they were hanging around trying to help, just really really messed up about it.

So when I write, I want to make complex epics where everyone has their motives and together they have to find common ground and resolve things peacefully, because hitting things until they fall down never actually works.

The trouble is I only really know how to do plots where there's a bad thing and then it gets killed.

I feel like I'm not a good enough writer to think things up I can agree with.



I have a bunch of bunnies for ghost stories. I like ghost stories, because blowing shit up is the start of your problems, as it should be. They're all about how history never goes away, how memory shapes the survivors and their world.
Read more... )



I also have a pretty tight plot that is about vampires Read more... ) Basically I can see exactly how it goes, but it's too creepy in the mundane ways for me to spend that long in it to write it.

*shakes off that idea*


I have one whole episode idea for that Rhodri in space thing I'd fully intended to spend my summer doing before I spent my summer doing sod all. Maaaaaaybe two episodes. But not, unfortunately, three. Characters, yes, what happens to them in a general sense, sure, but a plot to take me through a bunch of scenes in a row and create drama? Apparently not.


The one with the possessing entity computer programs has three quest arcs, one to get into the city and get some anti agathics, one to realise they can never produce more of those drugs without micro gravity facilities so they have to get back into orbit, and one to reconnect with scattered humanity once they're in space with the drugs to survive the journey times again. I'm pretty sure I could write the city quest one. Except what I could write so far is look how shiny smart this guy is, as he conquers all before him. Not exactly a lot of complexity or, well, reasons to bother reading it. He wants to go, he goes, he wins, he goes home with the girl. As a movie it's still too shallow.

The bad guys in that one are easy though, because they're computer programs that decide that flesh is a lot more fun, so they wants to take it over and do all the things in it. Sensation without sticking around for the consequences. Sex tourism in suburban brains. They make perfect sense, and they're only doing to others what was done to them, since computers are used for all kinds of adventures now. Ethical subroutine fail due to no empathy and lack of understanding there's no backups, no save points, no reset. Completely different mode of being, makes difficulties for each other.
But only the humans can be actually killed.
And the computers are killing them.
So there we have a Bad Guy side. But the ways to be good guys can't include random large scale violence. For the same reason that the war against Skynet cannot be won even without time travel stuff, because you cannot eradicate the backups thoroughly enough that the other side will ever be dead.

The only way that 'verse can work is through enlightenment. You can never kill all the demons, so you have to turn them into angels.



The epic fantasy from the other day is hardest. I mean, if you really seriously ethically refuse to write Evil Orcs who are Evil because Evil, then you don't have anything that makes it funny when people have a killing competition. It's just grotesque. And then your epic heroes are killing people and killing a lot of them.
It makes it easier to write about assassins, because at least they're more targeted.
If there aren't any bad guys, if there's actually two kingdoms full of actual people, then 'heroics' is messy and brutal and nasty.

Making it a story about someone negotiating peace would be much better.


Also, you cannot Mount Doom anything real. People know how to make things again. And they were never just following the one evil mind in the first place, due to that free will thing where people just decide to be killers for reasons that seem good and sufficient at the time.


So I'm fed up with the 'and they were all blown up' ending.

And I don't think I know how to write the one where everyone gets enlightened instead.
beccaelizabeth: Tony Stark, working on Iron Man gauntlet, heart and hand shining (Tony brilliant)
I decided I like this icon because you can see Tony, he's working, he's creating something, and all his brilliance is showing. The whole glowy heart thing is an easy metaphor but it works. And with his hand glowing too it looks like he's catching hold of something, like when he's working on the hologram displays, like he's got an idea in his hand ready to be made real. But it's also ready to blow shit up. So, all the parts.


I've been thinking about what I'm looking for in Avengers fic and something I read for college about how a lot of stories are about making us look for solutions in the idea of the good master. Like, if there are bad masters, we don't look for systemic wrongs, we don't think hey maybe we should get rid of masters, we just invent the ideal master, and then write romance about them to make it all kinds of desirable. I don't know, I read it a bunch of time ago, I can't find it now, but that's how I remember it.

So, what is it about the Avengers that is desirable? Read more... )
beccaelizabeth: my Watcher tattoo in blue, plus Be in red Buffy style font (Default)
I am reading a 'turned into a dog' story.
Fuzzy amusement seemed like the thing for the day.
But I find myself getting wound up instead.

Everyone is treating him like a dog.
He's even getting wound up that everyone is treating him like a dog.
Even the one person who can translate for him is treating him like a dog.

This is Avengers fic, so Thor has the Allspeak and it should be simples, but thus far he's only used it to confirm this dog is in fact their team mate.
But then the story doesn't do anything with the others reacting.

They are in a house with a JARVIS. JARVIS could certainly open doors, but could also learn consistent vocalisations or body language and act as another translator, plus would have no particular preconceptions about how to treat a dog. JARVIS should be the most awesome assistant a newly disabled person could wish for. Well, JARVIS plus some bots to do the lifting parts.

Because I keep reading it as new disability. He has lost speech and hands and a lot of mobility, plus his senses have gone different, like color blind and new priorities. These are all components with available assistive tech. Stark should be building switches and arranging interfaces that let him keep doing as much of his usual as possible. And, granted, building weapon systems that can be operated by a puppy might be considered somewhere between insane and a bit of a problem should any other dogs access them, but biometric locks are no biggie around that much high tech. And even if they don't feel like doing the serious stuff, can you imagine new puppy Avengers trying to use the Wii? They would totally try. If Avengers games night are hilarious, add being dog shaped and you have whole new levels of amusing.

But no, the dog dude is getting incredibly bored because everyone treats him like a dog.

How does that even make sense?

At the very least, set up some audio books, make big buttons on an e reader, either prop it where he can read it or set it to speaking or just get JARVIS to read stuff out. It's not hard. No hands does not mean no working.

... and I'm not criticising the story, someone wants to write a story about snuggling up with the team in fur form, that's fine, that's their thing.

But I apparently cannot unwind to the story's level.

I just... It's not even just this. So often one of these magic things happens, like when Spike was a ghost, and I just get so frustrated, because disability doesn't mean stopping.
Even though I know the writer clearly wouldn't have thought of it in terms of disability.

Once you do though, apparently it needs an off switch.
beccaelizabeth: my Watcher tattoo in blue, plus Be in red Buffy style font (Default)
Impression I got from watching Iron Man films: Tony Stark has three friends, two of them his employees. Happy, Rhodey and Pepper. They talk different amounts about different things, but they're there, in his life, having conversations, sparring with him, and intermittently yelling at him when he has done something legitimately deeply stupid. Which, lets face it, is a not inconsiderable amount of time. Tony is shiny, but he is not wise.

Impression from Avengers fic?
Well, there's some of it that also has Pepper in. A tiny bit of Rhodey. And little to none of Happy, to the point he's pretty much just a taxi. Not even a taxi driver, they talk more.

I realise it's a side effect of the kind of fic I read that it usually gets rid of The Girlfriend (though, really, there should be more poly fic, there's all kinds of awesome possibilities), but getting rid of all his friends? For why?

JARVIS and the bots feature more than Happy. And while bots are indeed awesome, it's kind of bugging me.

New friends do not mean old friends are stinky.

Read more... )

Basically, Avengers fic: The more the merrier.

(And I say this as someone who only reads the ones where Tony ends up with Steve.)
beccaelizabeth: my Watcher tattoo in blue, plus Be in red Buffy style font (Default)
Having read a ton of fanfic (all the fanfic) I have read a really really lot of fanfic featuring Darcy and Coulson. And the thing is, neither Darcy nor Coulson are what you could call a fully rounded out character in the source canon. In the movies, Darcy has an iPod, Coulson has a fanboy crush, that's... pretty much it. And yet, all the fanfic. These two all over it.
I noticed I was almost embarrassed to read Darcy fic because college student who gets to be best friends with the superhero is, you know, my awesome insomnia daydream me. Hi, MarySue of snark and attainable weaponry.
Coulson though, he's SHIELD, so he seems more superhero world already. But I seen comments saying they can't see the point of him because he's just another dude in a suit. And, yes, that's the point of him. Do you know how many dudes in a suit there are? Fanboy dudes in a suit even. With huge fanboy crushes on Captain America. This is a man who has epic superpower of paperwork management, being really trustworthy, and again attainable weaponry. Also persistence and being unflappable. Office workers of the world unite, you know?
And, yes, there's the short thing where he kicks all the arse as well, but that makes it the fun kind of dream.
So there they are, these people that at least look ordinary next to all the flashy superhero types, and here we are writing all the fic about them.
And while the audience can identify with them enough they're arguably a self insert Mary Sue, they're not distorting the whole story around themselves so they're not the arrgh arrgh make it stop kind. In canon.
I think the writers made some characters that fully attained their function, there.
So, the writers are winning.
beccaelizabeth: my Watcher tattoo in blue, plus Be in red Buffy style font (Default)
So far today I have watched Spider-Man and Spider-man 2. 3 is in the machine doing the annoying DVD menu thing.

I am not much enthralled by Peter Parker's dilemmas. Read more... )

On the other hand in both movies there are moments that I really, really like, specifically the ones where Peter is not the only hero. The rest of the city is dealing with the same stuff, right alongside him. The firemen and police are responding, just his webs get him there faster or give him an edge against the stranger sorts. And there's the moments, like on the bridge with the cable car in the first movie or on the train in the second one, where the crowd just steps up and says you mess with him, you mess with all of us, or you want him, you go through us. And, yeah, the bad guy demonstrates the ability to go through all of them, but those ordinary people are right there trying. It doesn't make him uniquely heroic. And then Aunt May has a speech about how there's a hero in all of us. So that's solid, that's right, that's people working together and the only difference about this one guy is he's got more of a chance.

Back to things that irritate me: of all those background people, it's always guys having those moments. Read more... )

Screaming is annoying me lately. Not that women in movies do it, but that only women do it, and that it never, ever turns out well. Read more... ) There's a function and purpose to screaming, and it's not just about the one woman in danger doing the screaming. A scream is both a call for help and an alert system, an alarm. Social groups of animals have individuals who hang out around the edges and watch for bad things and then make a big noise. Valuable role, allows everyone else to react appropriately. But in humans the ones making the big noise are somehow inappropriate, even though it is clearly good for the survival of others if they notice if a supervillain is about to do their thing. It is never considered valuable to alert others, to call for help, to get in multiple witnesses, to avoid handling it yourself in the dark. The loner who ends up with his word against a dead guys on why someone died? That's a hero. The screamer who would have had all actions known to a group? Well that's just a damsel in distress. It's stupid, it's not functioning correctly, it's a wrong way to value things. Kicking all the arse might be the fun part, but people who make all the judgements alone are scary. So it should be of the good to make a big noise and get a crowd to react appropriately, be that run toward or run away.

Read more... )


I know I forgot the story on the 3rd one after last time I watched it, and these characters don't live in my head between viewings. But they're okay films.



So now I'm trying to fit them all together with Avengers movies, even though I know they're slightly different 'verses. Read more... )

Next I shall watch all the X Men films. Except for First Class because the shop didn't have it.

Or possibly I shall sleep.
beccaelizabeth: TV studio audience turned into big white bunnies. (bunnies audience)
The trouble with me and writing is I find the inventing things stage interesting and the writing stories part hard work. I suspect this is common. Plus by the time I've invented a world in sufficient detail to know how the plots would work out, I know how the plots would work out. I mean, why explore more?
:eyeroll:

All of which is to say that despite me not having writ a single episode with Rhodri et al, after filling a folder full of world notes, I have another ever so slightly different world springing to mind.

I was thinking that my assorted insomniac mary sue adventures have departed from their madly crossed over canon sources to the point I could just slip the last few ties and have basically a whole new epic science fiction adventure. Which, granted, would be a tad bit familiar in places, but, genre.

But if I put it that way, nobody would ever read it.

Yet if it's all about awesome women running interstellar empires and kicking lots of arse, with bonus epic romances, some of them between expressive scientists and stoic military types, that's like a grab bag of everything cool.

All the women looking like clones of me would be somewhat of a problem for the cool factor though.

Read more... )

Would be an easy way to populate a 'verse though. Take all the spaceship shows and give them different planets, see how their politics crunches together. All those ready made characters and that political variety, even if you only bring the humans. And then what I would do is different again, so my people would be in the middle, clearly being right.
Or, you know, not, and then readers would still be interested because they could cheer the other teams.

Writing it as a crossover... it kind of happens sometimes, but it's always x visits y's world, small team stuff. There's never just, the Tau'ri discover the Federation, politics ensues. I mean, in Stargate there are so many planets and galaxies of humans, there's no particular reason to not just do that. Granted the history of the Federation would involve parallels of epic scope right up until the 1960s, but go lalala about that a very little and you've just got another set of neighbours. If the Earth all these space heroics start from is just one in a vast set of planets where people looked at the ground and named it Earth then everything fits like kaleidoscopes. And it's suddenly less obvious who The Good Guys are.

That could be interesting.

But now I should do essays.
beccaelizabeth: Blue Beetle, Ted Kord, cartoon style, bored, using one of those bats with the ball attached. (Blue Beetle)
I have been thinking about The Avengers
... I have still not been seeing it. I must finish essays first. Any day now...

I read a while back somewhere I can't currently find the link for
the theory that science fiction comedy western doesn't exactly work on television
because it sounds like you'd get all the people who like SF and all the comedy and all the Western,
but in fact you only get the people in the venn diagram overlap who like all three.

The Avengers is a gigantimous crossover.
And it's doing spectacularly well.

So is it that it's a crossover of all the same genre, so you just get a lot of comics superhero movie fans?
Probably helps
even though comics aren't all the same genre, even superhero comics, they have facets with different rules and conventions and stuff.

... okay, now I've written that, it seems sufficient. It's a xover but only between things that are already x.

But! Also, it is a crossover between different series, so is that helping the ratings?
You have all the Iron Man fans AND all the Thor fans AND all the Hulk AND all the Captain America AND everyone who just likes Nick Fury or SHIELD or Hawkeye or Black Widow.

I was wondering if in movies it doesn't have to be a venn diagram.
On TV you don't just have to snag someone's attention, you have to keep them for a couple dozen episodes, or the ratings graph does that sinking thing and cancellation happens.
In a film, different rules. You just have to bring the shiny long enough to get butts on seats once.

The number of fans I've read who have seen it three times (when I haven't seen it even once *sulk*) is rather unusually high, but they're not the ones powering the box office records. Fans can make a Serenity size audience, not an Avengers size one. (hmmm, hypothesis, needs more study.)

So is maybe a way film and television don't have the same rules.
Like on TV you need characters that can stay the same yet have different aspects you can go play with and different ways they interact.
If the Marvel movie universe gets as long as even a half season of TV it would be the most epic cinema thing ever.
(yaays)
(huh, it probably will, even if just by everyone getting one sequel)
So movie characters can be a bit more bold print four color and not worry about the aspects.

However, comic characters are the definition of bold print four color, and they've been going for decades.

My theory needs work.

/random
beccaelizabeth: my Watcher tattoo in blue, plus Be in red Buffy style font (Default)
Okay, so I wrote a comment on someone's entry and then realised once again I'm so lurky on other people's blogs I'd just be popping up out of nowhere to tell them a really long comment on how, er, wrong they were, and so I hid again.

But I can post on my own place.

So: they couldn't think of a superhero plot because comics are just someone kicking someone else's arse.

Which strikes me as kind of like saying dance is just people moving their arms and legs around. I mean, yes, but...


I don't know as I think of comics plots being about the arse kicking.

They're sort of about a hero's relationship to power and to other powerful people.

Read more... )

Movie plots are kind of about power, but really substantially about being a teenager and relationships to your parental types.

Read more... )

I still haven't seen Avengers. I'm an essay, a research proposal, and an annotated bibliography away from seeing Avengers. I should be doing that instead of movie plots.

BUT anyways...

Saying the plot is all kicking someone is kind of missing the why of kicking, which is probably why boring. It's always about illuminating the hero, their moral choices, and their relationships.

Read more... )

The fight sequence is how they work out their problems, but there's a really varied ton of problems they could have in the first place.



Also? See previous post Tell us not that monsters exist but that they can be beaten

It's not just why are they fighting, it's why do we need them to?
And why do we need to read it?


And there's a Joss interview that I'd go look for but I'd bump into a bunch of Avenger's spoilers
he says something about the moment, for him, is all about where someone stands up and realises they have power

Because we all need that one, that clear moment where you see the problem, see the solution, and see that you can actually get it done.

And, yes, as a genre feature, that involves kicking, usually while wearing spandex.
But that's what makes it mythology, and not a day at the office... though come to think a bunch of it makes mythology *of* the day at the office. See: Daily Planet, etc.

There's the moment we take the camouflage off and turn out to be something more, the moment we take a step and fly, the moment we face our fears.

On the outside, okay, someone kicks someone's arse... but the outside is not the story.

So there's a bazillion comics plots.
beccaelizabeth: Lady Frankenstein plugs her brain in (net access)
I've been thinking on superhero comics again.

When I was a teenager I spent so much on comics I had to skip meals to afford them. And, granted, I was a crazy teenager, but that's not just want, that's need. Comics were providing me with something I desperately needed, a mythology that showed me how to fight, and a way out into a world where the battles were won not just already but always. They were hope and courage and escape in one brightly colored bit of paper. And I don't know if, in trying to reinvent themselves for a new audience, DC have realised what it is their audience needed them for.

Read more... )

I could keep going. And going. Superhero mythology, it does not end. There's layers and layers out there. And I know I've pretty much picked white people (Dick and Roy's complex ethnic identity notwithstanding, and come to think the stuff with Fire that was invisible to me, they all seemed white to me). Everyone's got a different cross section of people they need. People like them, only better at it. People who are making it through.

I look at the bits and pieces I've heard about DC since I stopped reading, or I look at the reasons I stopped reading, and I don't get the feeling the writers understand all this. I don't know what they think we need.

Or maybe I do. A bunch of people are power trip fantasies. A lot of rich white playboy guys. And a lot of the rest, I don't know who they imagine would wear those costumes. They're not there to be any more, just to be looked at.

It's like they've emptied out their world. About all it tells us now is there are monsters. And some of them wear fancy suits.


I don't know though, I stopped reading when it felt like they'd slapped me and my dreams around just one too many times.


But if they're having sales problems, if they can't get people to read any more - if they're blaming something other than the changing media landscape and how people maybe want more out of their stories than flat pretty pictures - maybe they should look at what they're offering, and what it is different people might need. Not just what their monsters are, but different ways to beat them. And stop being them.
beccaelizabeth: Seal of Rassilon with bi pride colors (Rassilon)
I think I have just realised one reason that I can watch Doctor Who and stay watching Doctor Who for a very long time.

I was trying to think of a theme group to watch Doctor Who in. Like, vampire shows are a theme. Spaceship shows are a theme. Military shows. But Doctor Who is either none of the themes or all of them.

Like, you can pick episodes that are military spaceships (half of UNIT era), or vampire spaceships (that one where the ship was a stake), or probably military vampire spaceships (Fenris? it wasn't very spaceship though.) If you feel like a themed viewing you can pick Evil Robot Doubles and watch a whole bunch of them. Or you can watch them in order and have All The Themes Ever.

So there is nothing quite like Doctor Who, but Doctor Who is like all the things. Only with extra added goodness. Usually in the form of intelligent women who help save the Doctor and the worlds.

Is there anything else that is like that? Not necessarily like Doctor Who, but like All The Themes?
Stargate had a go. Hence 200 episodes.



If I was going to do something useful for my dissertation I could watch a bunch of Doctor Who and count who is in it.
... why is it I forgot that making anything For College makes it automatically a bunch less fun?
:eyeroll:

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