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I did dancing and shopping at the usual times
and got home and made two egg sandwiches (though I still have not got the hang of eggs, they're better tasting when cooked elsewhere)

and the I sat down to catch up on tumblr
and it got to be now in the usual pleasant way.

astolat has made new Witcher fic.
You know those writers where you end up reading fandoms you've got no clue about, because it will rock?
yeah.

a lot of fic though seems pretty cool with the basic concept of monarchy and conquering people for their own good. I mean I'm British, I have grown up surrounded by stories that are pretty much yaay monarchy lets conquer stuff and make it civilized, and that means that I both adore a well written Arthur and wince every time it comes up. I mean, we were kind of bastards, for much of history. I feel the tendency to conquer everything in sight in the name of someone with a shiny hat did not in fact enrich the world per se.

... does make bloody good fiction though.

... so how does one get something just as viscerally satisfying about democracy and generally getting people to agree to laws and things?

preferably involving swords and dragons.

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Civilisation is the anti drama, really. Civilisation is the mechanism by which we minimise drama.

Kings have some excellent potential to be just the opposite, as the centuries of talking about that one guy brought down by his bastard will attest.

So I'm not even really sure what sort of stories I'd want, let alone how to write them.

But I feel almost as weird cheering on a good king as I do being a fan of a good villain...
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https://archiveofourown.org/series/816333

season with 22 episodes, 19 writers, and fanart drawn covers for each ep.
variable quality but i liked a lot of it. even where it could do with some proofreading it had interesting ideas. much more varied and interesting settings. and the character arcs seemed much more satisfying to me, definitely tried to pay off what they set up. the ending left me :-D

good to read.
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This one is a full cast audio adventure starring David Tennant and Catherine Tate.
Just from that I was grinning start to finish.

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I'm really trying to think of things to say about it but mostly just hearing these two again made me :-D and any finer criticism is sort of :-D shaped too.

Ten and Donna!
:-D
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whenever one of my computers breaks
I feel horrible about it
like I, personally, have screwed up like no sensible mortal should ever.

rather than the whole thing where entropy is and sooner or later you have to deal.

in related news, new laptop has gone from nice to have to actual necessity
since this book size tablet can barely internet, and don't reach complicated things.
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Today I went through one complete magazine file of homes magazines, tore out the pages I want, and set the rest aside for someone who wants slightly torn three year old homes magazines.
I did not think there were such people, but I actually have two people who might want, so that's nice.

Then I put the torn out pages into a file with others of that sort, so I had an empty magazine file, which I filled with stuff from the front room shelves that I'm trying to empty.

I am trying to feel all accomplished at completing this small task, but, it very small.

Still, it is done now.

Tomorrow - or technically today part the second - it is Cleaner Day and I shall have many things to achieve just to make things stay roughly the same.

Life is frustrating like that.

But so it goes.
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I have half a shelf of unlistened doctor who audios to get through and decided to do so while sorting stuff in the living room.

I tried to put a USB thingy into my tv to listen my musics, but nothing happened. And I don't know how to troubleshoot when the starting point is nothing happened. So I don't think that plan works.

But I can still play CDs.

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Adventure had good features.

I think it's just my mood putting me off.
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I had the weirdest most convoluted stress dream
where I was an independent MP
trying to get to a vote
on something I hadn't read and couldn't get a clear idea of
that was nevertheless on a knife edge balance to pass and Very Important.

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So now I've woken up with a vague sense of things not done
and an underlying reservoir of feeling entirely inadequate to the tasks.
Who would want a representative and choose me?
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I keep on getting stuck with writing or just imagining
because on some level whatever I want to do I want a story with more me in it
and me in any of these situations would probably just annoy people and then die.

I did not like HR's storyline on the Flash.
It felt kind of familiar and plausible.

I want a better story.
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Soooo... *big sigh*

This was weird because I like the solution they stated out loud, but I didn't like pretty much any of the steps they took to get there, and don't feel like their ending matched their statement.

Two episodes though, so, start with
Snart.
And heist movies.

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HR and Savitar and The End.

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Very busy last episodes, some clever bits but some bits I found confusing all year.
I'm going to find bits to like but it takes more work than I'd like.
I hope they simplify next year and have the heroes regularly do heroics.
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Barry gets a mindwipe and Iris actually thinks about leaving him that way.
People in this show worry me.

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So, I think they've got some weird ideas of how humans work and what the important bits are.

But I know next episode has some added interest, so I can look forwards to that.
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HR and Tracy
Joe and Cecile
and Barry finally figures it out.

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This season is telling a story about dark sides and disconnection but without putting the capacity for choice where it belongs, and it's leaving me feeling like I have to take the story apart and jiggle it before it's any good at all.

Which is annoying.

Right now I'm looking forwards to this season being over and next season doing something different.
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The time travel to 2024?
Ugh.
I mean, I know what they're going for. This is the hero at his darkest. He gave up so now everything is awful. That's what happens when the protagonist gives up.

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So I'm just annoyed, because it's all very well telling a story about team Flash making a difference, but it winds me right up if they're saying they have to have Flash around to do it. Everyone can make a difference.

Except not when their name is not in the title.
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Abra Kadabra shows up yet somehow it's still all about Savitar.
I think I'd be bored of that even if I didn't know the ending.
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I'm not liking several layers of what they're doing.
At the moment I'm looking forwards to the end of the season.

Tired now

Sep. 21st, 2017 09:16 pm
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Attempt to go to board games night at Waterstones unsuccessful. No board games, no dude that runs board games night, no noticeable board game night by ten past when it started, an the lady at the desk thought the guy was at the other shop today so it wouldn't happen. If it happened after quarter past starting I'll be vaguely annoyed, but, couldn't see a group identifiably hanging around waiting for games either. The knitting was there again though. Maybe I should try social knitting.

The mobile phones place in the mall made money go in my phone again. I know many people can make this happen without going to a phone shop but I heard the phone tell the guy to put in a sixteen digit number and honestly I'm fine leaving it to them twice a year. Mall wasn't otherwise very interesting.

Went to The Range to try and buy a tablecloth but there were only a couple sorts, on sale, either the color I wanted or the pattern I wanted but not both at once, or a lot of runners which are nice but not the thing. Christmas was only half unpacked, and Halloween didn't take half the space of christmas. It is very very shiny though. I didn't buy things because then they just stay in the box but if I'm still thinking of specific things next week I could pop in again.

Sainsburys had moneys off clothing but none clothes I wanted. One very soft sleep shirt I might get later but don't really need. Slippers either my size or my color. And a watch with a too big strap. But none things I wanted from the sale.

But they did have a season set of Arrow, so now I'll have all the things and can in theory get caught up :-)

Also the foods were there and the drinks and the cleaning supplies
and I remembered to check my shopping list before we left so I could go back for the laundry whatsits.

Basically a success.

Well I did my half, anyways.

Now I'm very tired and looking forwards to staying home for a week.
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Went to the Ribs of Beef again for first and third Wednesday science fiction group.
We actually talked science fiction for the whole evening, helped along by an argument about AI and self driving cars and the ethics of trolley problems and so forth.

Also I complained about the shows I've been watching. ... I should find something to yaay about.

Also also I had not watched what the others said was just on TV. But neither had two out of three of them. Electric dreams? Googling says it's on channel 4 and I can probably get it on the catch up. But it's PKD and I'm not sure that's a promising start.

There's so much to watch and read and listen that we seldom have much overlap. Makes conversation interesting but difficult.

I'm always like a year behind because of waiting for DVDs. I'm getting ever more tempted to subscribe to one of the paid ways to get things quicker. Don't know though, it's not like I watch all my DVDs fast enough to get through the To Watch pile as is, having stuff to watch every week seems unlikely to very work.

But the talking worked good, so, yaays.
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Watched the musical episode.
That was bad.
The songs were just plunked in there. Running home to you was cute but sounded weird. Everything else was only there because it was designated musical episode.
If the songs donot show you things the characters couldn't speak, don't bother.
And if the elseworld is supposed to be generated by their brain then the characters alternate selves should tell you something about how the dreamers see them, or what's the point?
So, no point.
Very boring.

... to be fair I watched it mostly on fast forward and am not a fan of sound so you could guess I'm not the target audience here
but I loved the Buffy musical and have the soundtrack
so it's not like I always hate things like this.

I just don't think they bothered using their conceit, let alone for the things it does uniquely well.
Boring.
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Barry goes into the speed force to get Wally out.
Aka yet another not-Snart, why do they do this to us?

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Lots of interesting story parts. I'm annoyed at Barry, not the writers.

... though Barry doing hero stuff again would be quite nice too.

as good as

Sep. 20th, 2017 02:58 pm
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I was reading a couple news items about a survey that reckoned it revealed depression in a quarter of teenagers
and one thing that stuck in my mind to bother me
was they took a statement something like "I will never be as good as other kids"
to be a sign of depression.
Actually I double checked and it's “I thought I could never be as good as other kids.”

Thing is, when you're in school, everyone being graded all the time, you get a pretty good idea of if you're getting top grades or not, and what your range is, and how well your best is going to be received. And you know if you are actually as good as other kids. Because half of people are below average, and not as good... at things they're asked to do and be assessed on.

So, like, the phrasing is so broad it doesn't invite a nuanced answer, and it's trying to pick up on low self worth, but it's got nothing they mentioned to check how realistic they're being if they're interpreting it in grades A-C or other quantifiables.

And it shouldn't be that you hate yourself as a person for low grades, but if acknowledging you have low grades is taken as a sign of mental illness, that is a whole different problem. Like, realism isn't illness.

And maybe some people are good at some things and not others, and maybe some people are good at some socially or financially valuable things and not others, and it's a whole stack of assumptions to say some people are below average at everything they've tried, but, I suspect, some people are below average at everything they've tried, and noticing that isn't ill.

Though it's probably depressing.

I feel like society has lost the balance between striving to be your best and acknowledging that only one person is the best. Like, all this best rhetoric doesn't leave many places for the rest of us to stand, even though we're the vast majority.

And that's what that one survey question made me think of, even though it only had meaning in context added together with questions about miserable crying and hating themselves.



In related thoughts, thinking that the future is not going to get better may be a symptom, but it may also be a consequence of just reading the headlines...
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squick of the day: when reading old (old) meta and they start trying to fit Team TARDIS into a sedoretu without knowing who River is...

... canon was awkward, but not that awkward.

Sedoretu

Sep. 19th, 2017 08:20 pm
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I was reading some sedoretu fic
and it just seems, like, really practical and useful and stuff.
Like, those relationships staying together seems solid.

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It might be nice to live somewhere that the neighbours were not three in the morning people
or you didn't have to play 'bottle or window - smash noise identification'
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with a very fast engagement, Wally's mom, and a bit of an oops.

also the point where I'm pretty sure me knowing the ending means I'm not getting the same experience of watching this. so spoilers for later episodes below.

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Why is Barry having a big argument about killing Grodd
and nobody is mentioning
Al Rothstein, Eddie Slick and Griffin Grey.

Were there others? I honestly can't remember right now.

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I am also bored by mind control, so that's a blah.

But Grodd stories, especially one where the first half had Barry win by doing a Reverse Flash, are about how they're both shaped by how they were raised, and what that man Grodd calls father gave them. So there's three of Wells in this story, the two live bodies and the influence of the murderer. Which is cool. Barry deciding whether or not to kill is absolutely a story to explore with this kind of comparison.

But it really needs to remember he already did.
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Gorilla City, Grodd, and at least three versions of Harry.

I hate it when the characters are stupid. It gets boring.

... that's actually like 90% of my reaction to this one.

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I was just thinking an aspect of why I get interested in Reverse Flash:
because of paradox and going backwards, he has a whole story telling him who to be. And you can write him as striving to have an individual identity in the face of that imposed story. And that's usually a woman's arc, like struggling to break free of a spy training facility or whatever, the story tells her to be evil and powerful and she just wants room to exist.
That's not the main supported story that Reverse Flash is trying to tell
but I just realised where it fits in my pattern of interests.

He got told who he would grow up to be, and he'll break the universe if he doesn't become that.
Like it or not.


Of course Flash is told who he's going to be, but he keeps phrasing it in terms of future events to happen or not, not straight up identity.

Reverse Flash had his identity defined by his relationship to a guy. Hate hate relationship, at the simplest reading, but still. Usually that happens to characters getting called Lady Whatever because they're standing next to Lord Whatever.


And then to empower Barry - who he hates - Thawne sets aside his names, personal and family, and again lives another man's story. And yeah, saving Barry's destiny is the only way to save his own life, he props Barry up so he can use him, but. It's the story of someone setting aside their own name and career to support someone else, who is going to be seen as greater than them.

When Eobard got his wish in Doomworld he was still running a lab, but as himself, getting awards and recognition in his own name. That's his wish, but he can't have it, because Flash.



Of course all of this is way murdery. He loses his own life because he did a murder. He gets to live in a fancy house and all that rich stuff, this isn't a story of his suffering.

I'm just identifying the trope hooks that make his half of the story more compelling to me.

If you want to tell it that way, there's some very familiar elements.

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