beccaelizabeth: my Watcher tattoo in blue, plus Be in red Buffy style font (Default)
beccaelizabeth ([personal profile] beccaelizabeth) wrote2008-10-30 12:26 pm

grey and cold and rainy

I'm having an utter lack of motivation.
Which is daft, because I like studying Greek tragedy.
I just... I seem to have run out of energy entirely. I'm just blah. I look at my bag full of books and think thoughts entirely unrelated to reading them.
I keep circling back to the idea that I just can't seem to care if I get this degree or not.
I've got another three years to go, I can't just not-care for three years.
I like the subjects this year. I like the texts. It's all interesting.
And still, I'm just blah.

I want to write. And write some more. And send it to people who might show it to people who might like it.
I can get really passionate about some of my story ideas.

But I'm supposed to be passing exams and writing essays and turning up for college.
Even though college has been really useful, opened my eyes to a lot of stuff, continues to be full of shiny ideas...
I just can't seem to care.

Post a comment in response:

This account has disabled anonymous posting.
If you don't have an account you can create one now.
HTML doesn't work in the subject.
More info about formatting

If you are unable to use this captcha for any reason, please contact us by email at support@dreamwidth.org