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2023-06-09 07:58 pm
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Torchwood Dead Line

Said I should probably do something else, didn't.
Listened to Dead Line.
It is still good.
Ianto's speech is sad but good.
And Jack tells him he'll never be just a blip in time.

Thing is though I saw on tumblr someone calling Jack/Ianto an example of a healthy relationship, and I have to wonder about their criteria. I mean Ianto canonically and sadly spent their whole relationship thinking Jack would kite off to see the universe without him and Ianto's one mortal life would never be enough time to really matter. And Jack gets a relationship made of immortality angst, survivor guilt, and stacks of guilt over doing his duty in ways that hurt people. And they're still compelling and beautiful, but, you just want to shake canon until you can get them one day of actually understanding what they mean to each other *and* both being alive at the time.

I mean, there's words I'd pick for them, but...

I do keep reading fixits.

So much audio and so little chance it'll ever change the status on that one.




Also having listened to Jack in the something Among Us audios from Big Finish I feel like he needs a long conversation and a good cry, and possibly a talking to. Like, I get the impression he's genuinely grieving, but he's also rejecting new relationships because they're not from the get go what it was like on the best days of a relationship that lasted years, so, that's a bit not good.

But he's like that because audios have to put the toys back the way they found them, and they found them very sad.



I like the ones where they're both alive but
I know where it's going.
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2023-06-09 03:11 pm
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Torchwood

Listened to Torchwood Golden Age
which is absolutely vicious about the British Empire and people who want to turn the clock back
and that is never me
but now I am feeling vaguely got at
because the idea there was a Best Day and the only thing you can do is live in reruns
when I have been relistening Torchwood for a While now
feels sort of
personal.

I, however, would not kill people to hit rewind
and have never needed the incentive of not ageing
just to stay indoors for years.

I wasnt impressed with Ianto and Gwen getting surprised by the creepy people being danger
but it was kind of funny hearing Ianto complain that if he wanted to get knocked out and murdered he could have stayed at home.



In the hypothetical situation one could intervene in Torchwood to make an AU where Ianto didnt die the way he did
you would still need to change *this* day as well
because this is the day that ate all his time.

It didnt make him old, it ate his possibilities.

Other Doctor Who audios have had similar things happen so I reckon that's what the screaming part did.



Thing is though that Gwen was right there getting chewed on as well, so hypothetically her getting to old age seems unlikely.

Jack must be so depressed realising the ending would have been the same with only him in there.



It's a good audio
but makes me feel like I should think of something else to do.
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2023-06-05 05:49 pm
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Torchwood: Lost Souls, Asylum

I listened two Torchwood radio dramas, the not Big Finish ones so I had them on a different app.

I have a headache so I do not have big thoughts
but
they're set after Owen and Toshiko die, and the team are down to Jack, Ianto and Gwen.

... my first thought on Lost Souls is that everyone has got so much better at audio acting since then, but they were given a lot of technobabble to get through, so, fair enough.

I dont much relisten to Lost Souls so I hadnt lately thought of how it makes House of the Dead look.
There's some bits about grief and guilt and how the whole team are putting on a brave face for the whole team.
I feel like it doesnt fit well with the monster of the week though. Like there's something about grief draining you and making you vulnerable, yeah, but a tragedy of false hope just sort of sits there.
Until HotD I guess.


Asylum has a good speech from Andy about alienation, how it's part of feeling human to feel alien sometimes. I remembered that, that was good.
I hadnt remembered this seems to be when he finds out what Torchwood is about.
Like, Gwen is trying to hide it from him, but tada, aliens.

Not sure that fits with Big Finish writing a friendship between him and Owen... unless someone retconned Andy after it, which was threatened often enough in Asylum.

Alternatives are that Andy lies convincingly (really?) or that he'd been through all that spooky with Owen and just still remained surprised by aliens.

The Owen and Andy audios are great btw, I'm just turning the stories around in my head a bit and not sure the edges match.




I'll do more thinking when the headache makes space.



Had a nice day.
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2023-05-23 09:19 pm
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Ianto as Pathfinder

Another reason I don't write much: these daydreams are Very Specific.

Like, this one started as doing protective magic tattoos on an appreciative Ianto Jones
but now it developed a plot wherein we are on Golarion and we get accused of worshipping an evil god of pain
and therefor he has to strip and show his tattoos in a crowded temple court
and go through trials
to determine if all that is evidence of worshipping The Midnight Lord, or Calistria, or Shelyn.
... pain or sex or beauty&love, basically, but with elaborate backstory and lore etc.

And I think at some point that daydream has an audience of one
because the fantasy world theology and deep lore from like three foot of setting books
is integral to the outcome.

... Ianto with tattoos is going to be slightly more popular, but mostly when paired with Jack, who is the most difficult one to get to Planet Where True Resurrection Is A Thing.



I also want to write Lisa as a Paladin who everyone thinks used to be a graveknight because when she tried to explain her experiences it sounded a lot like undeath to them.

And Ianto should date a nonbinary tiefling. As part of his ongoing What Would Jack Harkness Do lifestyle. ... Read more... )

I like dropping Torchwood into Pathfinder because a lot of the creepier things they do ie anything with retcon is no longer relevant, or effective. There's too many antidotes and a closer to level playing field. So they might read this as the kind of chaos that happens if they dont defend those conceptual borders as hard as they defended the rift. Or they might have to change their minds a bit. Or, obviously, with a team around, both.

... hmmm, also, have had an idea bout current location of Torchwood Four. That would be all OCs though.

Anyone from our time would have to take one of the variants from the Technology Guide, because all the other rules assume you grow up with magic, not tech. Another way to put Torchwood at sea.

Unless they drop in near Numeria, where their superior technological knowledge would threaten the Technic League, but the League's magic would keep them dangerous.

And the Worldwound is up around there, so there's a hole between dimensions handy to fall out of.

Most things that fall out of it are demons from the Abyss though. If post House of the Dead Ianto comes in through that door, he is going to have some Questions.

Dating a tiefling might be part of answering those questions. Every Tiefling has had to deal with the whole So You Might Be A Bit Of A Demon, Now What? Embracing difference is always a good answer to Now What.



My plot bunnies are always too far from source to make good AUs but too close to make sense without canon. Extensive tie in canon at that.

Ah well.
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2023-05-21 03:00 am

Torchwood audios

I am now caught up with Torchwood again, all the audio ranges, so the only ones I havent listened to dont have Torchwood in the title ie Captain Jack and Captain John.

Despite the fact the Among Us story continues ranges arent giving me what I want from Torchwood, I am not pleased with the idea of running out of Torchwood.

The Among Us set I just listened to, though, did not annoy me. They did some good interesting stuff. Didnt love them, still not attached to the new in audio characters, but I can see what they're doing, and they're doing it pretty well.

I just want something else entirely, is all.
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2023-05-18 09:06 pm

Torchwood God Among Us

Finished listening to these sets.

I like Tyler a little better, Colchester a little less, and Andy so much worse.

Ng and Orr almost developed personalities, but mostly seemed trapped in a nightmare of other people's demands, and trying to be someone they're not. Not awesome.

Jack ... has some character moments but I feel like the story has stepped back from him. We never know the cunning plan as he's running it, just from where it bumps into other people. But I dont feel like it ended on outright character assassination so that's an improvement.

Didn't much enjoy these, but, didnt hate them, had some good bits, strong bits, bits that seemed human.

Still feel uncomfortable with some of the sexuality and gender stuff I feel it makes messes, but, also still feel like it's conspiracy board and string time when I try and pick out specifically why.

Can't give it an honest star rating because it still boils down to
whatever it is trying to do isn't what I wanted to be listening.
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2023-05-16 03:51 pm
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Torchwood left the fun in another box

Been listening to Torchwood God Among Us. Have listened to two out of three boxes so far.

It has some interesting going on but it's still pretty bleak.
Read more... )



I keep deleting these as soon as listened to them, because plots dark, but, I'm wanting to go back and collect Jack moments this season, which I didnt want from Aliens Among Us. So that's something.


I dont think these are fun to listen to though.

Dont know what I'm looking for but these arent it.
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2023-05-06 06:30 pm
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Twilight Streets

Today I reread Torchwood The Twilight Streets.
I had forgotten it, and that turns out to be because it was boring and pointless.
No one was in character for most of the book, and that turns out to be because Read more... )

Messy mythology, boring 'motivations', makes me annoyed I spent the time rereading it.



I think at this point I should just remember to search up my own earlier opinions.
... aaaand my earlier opinions were unalloyed approval... wtf earlier self?
https://beccaelizabeth.dreamwidth.org/1359866.html

Okay, you know what, I can see why it is interesting if you take it as a near miss of possibly in character bits, but, on this reread I... don't.



Oh, also, there's a paragraph Ianto says that even Gwen on the page blames on mysterious outside influences, but it's just so biphobic I don't understand why anyone thinks it belongs in a story.
https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/1017820-oh-come-on-smile-lisa-jack-being-bisexual-is-hardly
It doesnt even make sense.

... it might have vaguely pissed me off for the rest of the book actually.



Okay, my opinion on this book changed quite a lot.

Onwards to something else to do.
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2023-05-01 03:41 pm
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Torchwood: The Men Who Sold The World

So I sat down to read this and then got the this is familiar feeling and searched up my previous review
https://beccaelizabeth.dreamwidth.org/2982519.html

and yet I finished reading it anyway.
... bit of a waste of time I reckon.

It is a story that cares very much about showing us vehicles crashing and weapons in detail and gruesome child deaths, but not very much about... I don't know, painting a survivable world at the end of the day? It is an unrelieved pit of human misery.

Which is boring and pointless.

Also, usually I would complain because in 400 on my ereader pages there were... only three named women if you count a nickname? I think one survived the story. And you got more sentences about one man's silly name than you ever got sentences from all but one woman. Thing is though, adding anyone else would have just added to the body count, so they're better off out of it.

It did not strike me as a book featuring people, it was just a whole lot of murders strung together, with a dash of paradox.



Maybe this time I will remember having read it and not read it again.
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2023-04-30 06:21 pm
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Torchwood First Born

Another Torchwood book, this time one I haven't read before.
ETA after searching my journal: https://beccaelizabeth.dreamwidth.org/2956277.html
I had in fact read it before, so, you know, that tells you what an impact it made. I just didnt buy it then. /ETA


It is set after CoE and after Jack leaves, which seemed to me likely to be just a bit sad.
Also Gwen is not my favourite, mostly for the times she is the show's favourite.

But, this was quite good.
Depressing of course, Torchwood being Torchwood, but quite good.
It's mostly set after Gwen's baby arrives, with Rhys and Gwen at the end of their tether as new parents, and it's like the author stirred up a cocktail of worry about screwing up your kids and or losing yourself when the baby arrives and suddenly you realise you've left all your old life behind, but then added Torchwood.

Read more... )

So many layers of failure to parent.

The ending was striking but also really depressing.

Torchwood turns a mirror on the world from a very particular angle, but now I'm going to feel a bit grim until I find something entirely unlike this to read.

So, effective Torchwood story.
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2023-04-25 02:01 pm

Torchwood: Launch Date

Today so far I relistened to Big Finish Iceberg and Gooseberry, then listened to Launch Date for the first time.

I think the compare contrast gave me hopes that were not fulfilled, and now I'm cranky about it.

With Owen on the cover I got two stories that give you a lot of Owen minutes and new insights into Owen's character, as well as dragging you through some devastating emotional territory with varying amounts of reaching a hand out to help each other through. They're excellent and involving stories. Strong stuff.

Launch Date was a sort of nice sort of rom com for the characters it followed around, but Ianto was a bit peripheral. There was a Torchwood story happening but the main characters mostly didnt know it. And it was clever and made of people and all that, but not what I wanted from an audio today.

We do learn a little more about Ianto: Read more... ) But I wasn't left feeling I'd spent a whole cd with Ianto and it turns out that's what I wanted today.

This story would probably be appreciated better if I were in the mood for it.

But right now I'm a bit cranky instead.



The chatty bits at the end had a couple nice comments worth a listen though.
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2023-04-23 03:43 am
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Torchwood in Golarion

Have been thinking about Owen's story if he got True Resurrected in Pathfinder's setting Golarion.

As a former undead he would get some very judgemental people as soon as they knew. Wouldnt matter he hadnt done it on purpose, too many people are in too much danger from undead.
Read more... )



Bouncing plot bunnies around is fun because you pull up themes and hold compare contrasts up to each other, but the chances of me putting words in a row properly are... slim.


And since this is the hardest setup to make Jack/Ianto, despite me thinking about Jack/Ianto pretty much all the time, it's probably not the most fun place to start.

ah well. onwards...
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2023-04-21 09:46 am

Torchwood Thirst Trap

Big Finish audio again. Andy and Rhys and a new killer app. Speed dating gone wrong. Slight but fun, kind of doesnt feel like Torchwood because it doesnt suddenly plunge you into Horrible Implications or deep psychological trauma, you have to think of those bits yourself when the story stops.

I liked it, but I dont anticipate relistening much.
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2023-04-21 03:55 am

Torchwood The Last Love Song of Suzie Costello

This big finish audio was okay to listen to but I deleted it off my phone because it's mostly good at showing why Suzie ended up breaking down. Sure it's an adventure and she gets to do stuff and have plans and be her dark and creative self, but Read more... ) you can see why she'd end up in episode one despair. Torchwood happened, as Torchwood always happens, and it cuts off all her hopes. Which is well written but not somewhere I personally want to revisit enough to keep it on my phone.

Very good at humanising Suzie while keeping her sharp. Adds more depth to the character.

It's just depths of despair, so, on the whole, not my speed.
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2023-04-15 10:14 pm
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Representation

I have been thinking
about Torchwood

the first time I watched and read, I noticed that there were actual queer people in actual queer relationships, and they saved the world a lot.

This was not a thing that happened. So it was shiny. And I liked it.

(and I nearly stopped watching at Greeks Bearing Gifts, because I noticed this other bit too...)

This time I watch and read and listen, and I mostly notice that there is a lot of misery and a lot of death, and it gets connected to the sexuality in a way that... might be processing trauma through horror, but, also makes me want to read a different genre.

One where we save the world a lot
and get to be happy.



So, back to fanfic I go.



... that said, it is starting to creep me out how many Children of Earth fanfics focus on saving *Ianto*. Like, there was very much another problem in that story. We could fix that one more often? Even in the Ianto tag.

I have read some very good and subtle minimum intervention fixes, I have read some excellent and emotional Day Five with Ianto still in it, but I... would fix more. Than some of these.




I mean, we're authors, we can just be like, hmmm, needs a child? remember when the TARDIS youthed that Slitheen? And the TARDIS loves Jack, see every time he dies. Deus Ex big blue Machina...

granted it's not very satisfying that way but if I found CoE satisfying I wouldnt be reading through the fixit tag.
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2023-04-13 04:30 am
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Torchwood books

Went quiet because I've been reading Torchwood books. I have read

The House that Jack Built
includes some very vivid deaths, domestic violence, and a reflection on Jack's love life that... didn't feel to me like it was written by someone that likes Jack.
Detail and spoilers under the cut: Read more... )
I liked it in a way, strong horror story, but... I wouldn't write it that way. It feels like it's saying something about Jack being destructive and it ties that to his sexuality in a way I don't like. Even if it's not about his violence, it ends up implying he's a destructive influence, specifically for loving many people. Not right.


The Undertaker's Gift
Honestly don't have much to say about this one. That's a lot of horror, even for Torchwood.
Also it took the opportunity to hurt the team in many and varied ways.
Not my sort of thing.


Consequences
This book is a series of short stories that hand off to each other, ending with one that wraps threads you probably didnt even notice scattered through earlier books.
Read more... )

Good book, but as usual dark.
So I end up mostly thinking about the cool Jack/Ianto bits.



The thing is, I know with fanfic we're not playing the same game, we don't have to color inside the lines, and resolving the romantic relationships in a satisfying way is often what we're there for, but
what the books are doing made me miss fanfic
especially the fics that take 51st century definitions of love seriously.

I feel like more often than not the tie in writers have a subtext that Jack is wrong, that how he loves, dates, shags, is wrong, especially when compared and contrasted so often with Gwen and Rhys having a happily perfect marriage.

And that's a choice, and not the only one they could make. Read more... )

I keep on being surprised by the plots in these books because I don't remember much from them. I remember Ianto expressing jealousy of tentacles, but I don't remember him saying a few pages earlier that he's just a shag to Jack. And I don't remember the plot at all. So the books aren't giving me the good stuff, whatever it is that keeps me interested in Torchwood.

But it's not because they're coloring outside the lines.

So I end up vaguely dissatisfied but feeling like I shouldnt be.



Also though, I dont think most of them are good at balancing which characters get something to do. Several think Jack is The Hero, and the others exist to get in danger. Or today Owen is The Hero. Or for one short Ianto was The Hero, but only when he was literally the only one left conscious. I feel like the books aren't good at utilising the whole cast at once even after the cast is down to three.

The audios are so much more focused, they can do so much better.

Reckon I'll go back to them for a bit.
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2023-04-11 12:02 am
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Torchwood Risk Assessment

The thing with this reread is, I know I read these when they first came out, but I appear to have retained almost nothing, so it is all once again a surprise. I found this plot to be twisty. Which is either vaguely embarrassing, or neat.

Also it had me *cackling* with laughter at random lines.

It bounced along proper briskly, the new character was interesting and distinctive, Jack, Gwen and Rhys got plenty to do, Ianto got plenty of homophobic insults tossed at him in a vaguely Victorian idiom while being mistaken for the tea boy again.

... Ianto could have been used better.

Almost every scene Ianto is in is part of a running joke where he may make excellent coffee but he makes terrible tea. But in the end Read more... )



The thing that comes through the rift is a properly mounstrous big scary. It wrecks the Skypoint tower, which is a very unlucky building in Torchwood world.

Also there's a student thinking how a year ago when she moved to Cardiff she couldnt afford a flat anywhere, and now they'd probably even rent the Skypoint apartments to her, because recession, and, like Skypoint mentioned, so many flats had gone up so quickly already with no one thinking who wanted them.

Torchwood takes time to add local flavor to its alien invasions that way. It's distinctive. I like it.




Anyway, I have the kind of headache where I just caught myself knocking on my forehead to make it go away, so I think I'll stop trying to wring out any clever thoughts and just say I rather liked this one, on balance, but the books are still not doing the deep emotional stuff the audios can get into, even with the team down to three.

... time for a paracetamol and a lie down.
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2023-04-10 12:06 am
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Torchwood Skypoint

A reread again, but since I dont think I've read it since it came out, all news to me again.

If I think of this as an Owen story it has a solid character arc, a lot of action, and a satisfying conclusion.

The problem is it started out as a team book and just sort of dropped everyone else as it went.
Read more... )


I guess I feel like there's the parts for a better story here if it didnt have to cram the whole team in.

As an Owen story it's good.
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2023-04-09 04:51 am

More Torchwood

Today ish I reread Pack Animals and relistened Rhys and Ianto's Excellent Barbecue.
https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/torchwood-rhys-and-ianto-s-excellent-barbecue-2146

The book was quite good, did an adventure, had fun doing bigger fx and more kinds of monsters than an episode has a budget for, used each character in a distinctive way that connects to a particular moment in their story. Owen has triuble with physical aspects of his job because of his newly changed undead status. Toshiko is very competent when she has to deal with attacks that get really close, and how the story resolves kind of shows her channeling her fear into her work and using it to win. I like the Gwen and Rhys banter, it manages to sound very normal couple in the middle of the abnormal things. And Jack and Ianto go on a date.

... it is not a fun date. too much Torchwood. messy and painful.
Ianto does spend quite a lot of the book naked, but for plot reasons, which isn't the most interesting.



The thing is though the contrast between the style of the books, bouncing along flipping between so many characters having adventures full of messy death and never giving people time to truly connect, and the style of the audios, where you get just a couple of characters and it builds up to some emotional moment... I really do like the audios better for specific reasons. Character focused emotional moments are what I miss when the other sources try and do something bigger.


This one with the barbecue, trigger warning for discussion of suicide in the audio, but dealing with the grief after. So Read more... )

It's just got a lot of clever and emotional layers on, plus, it's Rhys and Ianto trying to get along at a party that Ianto had not precisely been invited to when Ianto doesn't know that. So it's relatable, then funny, then Torchwood, and sad, and touching, and if it doesn't make you cry at some point you're just not a crying at stories person.



With two main characters and another on the phone, and a whole disc to do a story, you can focus in real tight on the emotions.

And the books just aren't doing the same sort of thing.



I end up liking the audios much better.


Torchwood deals with some real difficult stuff, but it's not just shoving the story in the dark and leaving it there, it's showing people getting through it.

Together.


It's good stuff.
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2023-04-07 02:26 am
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Anti-Retcon

In the TW book Almost Perfect Ianto turns up with some missing memories so Jack gives him an anti-retcon pill meant to reverse memory loss
with the possible side effect of remembering Everything.

Okay but if Ianto gets All his memories back... in TV canon that includes Adam.
Which could be considered a problem.

But in Big Finish canon that includes... so many things. Like, all the things. Things Torchwood One did to him. Times he retconned himself. So. Many. Things.

The book just treats it as a handy time delay on Ianto remembering the answers
but
that would logically be huge.

And it might end up with him being a bit of a different person. Since he remembers a different tapestry.

Or he could get really, seriously, annoyed with Torchwood.
... less so with Jack. TW1 is the most retcon happy.

Still. Bunny turning point big time.