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I went to meditation at the Buddhist centre. We did the metta practice. It's about wishing everyone is happy and well, so you think :-) thoughts at the world for an hour. I'm not very good at thinking that stays still, but I can think happy thoughts at very many people. I got stuck for people when we were supposed to think of someone we dislike, because I don't, in general. I get annoyed at their creative choices, for some people, or I find their teaching a bit wearying, but I don't think of it as disliking people, at least not when I'm not already wound up. I ended up thinking of politicians. Wishing them happy and well seems a bit counterproductive, but if they were then they wouldn't mess people around so much. Also the other wish is may all beings make progress or get closer to enlightenment or have more wisdom, and that I can wish politicians most wholeheartedly. So there was sitting and thinking happy thoughts at people.
Honestly the sitting part is the hardest. I am not a sitting still sort of person. I did notice this time when I couldn't feel my feet any more and moved so they came back. I need more practice at the sitting positions bit.
We did start with lying down on our backs to do breathing awareness. I discovered that was Very Not Cool. I looked in my head for reasons and all I could come up with was bits of Doctor Who, so clearly that is not helpful reasons. I am not going to end up in a relaxed and happy state that way though. Even in my nice corner with a wall at my back next to the door I'm not about to close my eyes, adding some lie down is just not worky.
But that was the start. By the end I was all happy and thinking happy thoughts at the world.
Then we went to the Forum library, by way of the Book Hive (we looked up Neil Gaiman's new 'author's preferred' edition, but it seems to be American), and the shop with the incense and the goddess statues (today's incense did not agree with me. sneezy.), and the games shop (trades magic cards but mostly recent ones, runs games of many types on many days of the week, everyone in there (a) male and (b) half my age), and then the cafe above Rainbow Wholefoods.
I had pizza. I had vegan not technically cheese but tastes yummy pizza. And, okay, it tasted kind of more like cheese on toast, and it cost £8 but we had half each, but still, pizza! It has been a tiny bit of a while. And they sell the cheese stuff downstairs, and I appear to be able to digest it, though I didn't buy any today to give the digestion thing time to prove. It didn't taste like last time I experimented with vegan cheese, there wasn't any cardboard in the recipe. So I had good eatings and I know a place I can go eat at in Norwich and that it is usually open. Lots of places I've been eating at either closed or changed their menu so the food went away. Now I have a new one.
The library was good. I went hunting books again. And once again I couldn't find it. I did discover the HOR section is not a section any more, which is why I couldn't find it. I found the Doctor Who spinner. It's a whole spinner of only Doctor Who books. The adult sort, not just the new series sort. I shall explore later. But I couldn't find the trashy vampire book I wanted next, and I looked on all the shelves, and asked the librarian, and they looked on all the shelves, and kept bringing me books that were trashy elf books instead but almost correct, and then the librarian said they'd reserve it for me, and then, again, of course, we found the book. It was in the just-returned shelf, and also hiding. Always the hiding. Also the library is very warm and hunting books makes me overheated. But we won, so is yaay.
Now I am home.
Sanity day: win!
Honestly the sitting part is the hardest. I am not a sitting still sort of person. I did notice this time when I couldn't feel my feet any more and moved so they came back. I need more practice at the sitting positions bit.
We did start with lying down on our backs to do breathing awareness. I discovered that was Very Not Cool. I looked in my head for reasons and all I could come up with was bits of Doctor Who, so clearly that is not helpful reasons. I am not going to end up in a relaxed and happy state that way though. Even in my nice corner with a wall at my back next to the door I'm not about to close my eyes, adding some lie down is just not worky.
But that was the start. By the end I was all happy and thinking happy thoughts at the world.
Then we went to the Forum library, by way of the Book Hive (we looked up Neil Gaiman's new 'author's preferred' edition, but it seems to be American), and the shop with the incense and the goddess statues (today's incense did not agree with me. sneezy.), and the games shop (trades magic cards but mostly recent ones, runs games of many types on many days of the week, everyone in there (a) male and (b) half my age), and then the cafe above Rainbow Wholefoods.
I had pizza. I had vegan not technically cheese but tastes yummy pizza. And, okay, it tasted kind of more like cheese on toast, and it cost £8 but we had half each, but still, pizza! It has been a tiny bit of a while. And they sell the cheese stuff downstairs, and I appear to be able to digest it, though I didn't buy any today to give the digestion thing time to prove. It didn't taste like last time I experimented with vegan cheese, there wasn't any cardboard in the recipe. So I had good eatings and I know a place I can go eat at in Norwich and that it is usually open. Lots of places I've been eating at either closed or changed their menu so the food went away. Now I have a new one.
The library was good. I went hunting books again. And once again I couldn't find it. I did discover the HOR section is not a section any more, which is why I couldn't find it. I found the Doctor Who spinner. It's a whole spinner of only Doctor Who books. The adult sort, not just the new series sort. I shall explore later. But I couldn't find the trashy vampire book I wanted next, and I looked on all the shelves, and asked the librarian, and they looked on all the shelves, and kept bringing me books that were trashy elf books instead but almost correct, and then the librarian said they'd reserve it for me, and then, again, of course, we found the book. It was in the just-returned shelf, and also hiding. Always the hiding. Also the library is very warm and hunting books makes me overheated. But we won, so is yaay.
Now I am home.
Sanity day: win!