Ugh

Today was cancelled on account of I maybe might have a cold.
As in I used up most of the tissues last night, I'm coughing a bit, and I feel all flat to the point I got an extra afternoon's sleep in.
But I cannot have a cold this week. This is the week there's an Expedition planned that I have been planning for literal months. Rearranging all the people so the Expedition is possible takes aaages, and budgets need sorted, and besides it's only Expedition season for a few weeks between Too Many Children and Too Much Cold/Rain.


... huh, Cold/Rayne, now there's an image...

I have read all the fanfic above a couple thousand words. Or possibly above a thousand words even. And most of it is episode responses that are no longer relevant by the end of the season.

Also, why do people be fans of bad guys and then make them all cuddly and, you know, not bad?
I mean these two beat the crap out of each other in canon and on screen, and say it isn't the first time, so why is so much fic all made of food and snuggles?
... actually that answers itself, but, you know what I mean.

I feel about much of this fic rather the same way I did when fic about Giles had him gain a sudden interest in bodybuilding and cut his hair and somehow look younger. Or just straight up youth him. Older is the point, antagonistic is the point, why are all the edges smoothed off without even the work going in?


... actually I'm just cranky today cause my nose aches and the plans for the week seem likely to be messed up and now I've run out of reading and must return to my regular Marked to Read list which is full of pairings now relegated to second place in my obsessions list.


It's frustrating though, reading fic and it all being domestic snuggly stuff, when canon leaves so many meaty philosophical issues. I mean, dating anyone involved with SHIELD (in some eras) or the Arrowverse means dating people who are putting people in prison with no records and no possibility of parole. Ignoring that because they're cute is kind of a problem.

Frustrating also that Steve/Tony fic seems to have ground to a halt, partly because Bucky, but quite a lot because how depressing is where they were left? And putting the work in to make them work as a couple means fixing their universe and coming up with workable legal compromises. Or, you know, ignoring everything. But the needs work must fix is why they were interesting in the first place. Instead all is AUs or threesomes and *sigh*

I mean a lot of that is we don't want what canon is serving, but, *sigh*



Is nobody else into fanfic for the philosophy?



I should eat a food and go do something other than whine.

But hey, I have found a new set of canon which makes me want to read all the fic and whine!

... new to me. The other other thing about reading through all of it is finding this whole fandom chatting amongst themselves who were getting the episodes as they aired (and feeling left out). Only getting them once they're on DVD is going to be a bugger even if I only follow fic.



Eh, I'm going to grab something and go back to bed, this feeling blah is annoying.