Some things are too much Memory to see as new

I have been reading through the last three Analog in my subscription.

It's been weird. I find stories I quite like and then feel bad I didn't renew my subscription, but then I find things I dislike and remember why I'm not going to, and EVERYthing makes me have Feelings because Analog was what Dad read. Like, liking or disliking seems like an argument with him.

But I think he's still the target audience.
Which, you know, means I am not.

The reader is assumed to be 'getting up there' in age. I think the book reviews said it that way? Anyways, there's a lot of stories that are about elders and how everyone will miss them when they're gone.

And there's things like the book recs section being like 'If you're buying a present for an LGBTQ person', which is at once kind of encouraging (helpful recs for diverse persons), and kind of assuming a lot about the readers, and who they are not.
I mean it was in a set of recs for holiday buying, so it was about gifts, so maybe it don't mean anything. But.

It don't seem like a fit for me.

So I decided to stop reading it.


But then Feelings.


I mean if I started at the beginning (long before I was born) and read through to the end (shortly before dad died) I have enough Analog to last me a really long time already. I read many years of them growing up. Plus the last couple of years of me subscribing.

But dad isn't here to discuss them with and it's just weird.