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Jun. 11th, 2022 09:14 pmToday has been aimless. Not really starting things, not deciding what to do.
I like Wingspan but the remaining achievements are the ones I've been trying and not succeeding at for Some Time, and the luck factor seems to me to be the deciding one. A perfect set of cards could do what they're asking for, I guess, but not the cards I been getting.
Youtube is basically unuseable. It wants to show me repugnant videos about topics I have never shown any interest in, and makes it really hard to find the things I watched literally every time I put the app on. It being my TV doesnt count as signed in, so it forgets things when it feels like it. And it shows me advertising approximately every two minutes. I only put it on again because it used to work and I want the old stuff back, but much fiddling about doing searches with sub optimal input equipment fails to find it. Just garbage machine now.
The fic I was reading went in a direction I didnt like so now I've got, like, fic hungry for the thing it wasn't, but still not for canon, so just... a thing that doesnt exist. Boo. And not in a fandom I'd write for. Probably shouldnt have started reading it, my likes in that fandom are so specific, but finding any fic that holds my attention is Tricky for some time now.
Picked up the Pathfinder rules to read again. The non core races have, like, themes and challenges built in, like tieflings have to grapple with their dark side and changelings have to avoid turning into their mothers. But the reincarnate spell just changes your race? So do you end up with tiefling woe and an elf face, or changeling tendency to turn into a hag but starting from being a gnome gnow?
It seems like story, but it also seems like racism sucks, game mechanical or otherwise.
And I think the gender issues built into the entire concept of hags and changelings are the far side of unfortunate, so it's only suitable for taking apart and putting together very different.
Still, I've got a character it could fit in with, might give it a whirl.
Just not feeling very focused.
I think objectively the whole thing where I havent done much of anything since march 2020 is a fairly good reason for feeling discontent.
I just don't know how to fix it when *gestures vaguely at everything*.
I like Wingspan but the remaining achievements are the ones I've been trying and not succeeding at for Some Time, and the luck factor seems to me to be the deciding one. A perfect set of cards could do what they're asking for, I guess, but not the cards I been getting.
Youtube is basically unuseable. It wants to show me repugnant videos about topics I have never shown any interest in, and makes it really hard to find the things I watched literally every time I put the app on. It being my TV doesnt count as signed in, so it forgets things when it feels like it. And it shows me advertising approximately every two minutes. I only put it on again because it used to work and I want the old stuff back, but much fiddling about doing searches with sub optimal input equipment fails to find it. Just garbage machine now.
The fic I was reading went in a direction I didnt like so now I've got, like, fic hungry for the thing it wasn't, but still not for canon, so just... a thing that doesnt exist. Boo. And not in a fandom I'd write for. Probably shouldnt have started reading it, my likes in that fandom are so specific, but finding any fic that holds my attention is Tricky for some time now.
Picked up the Pathfinder rules to read again. The non core races have, like, themes and challenges built in, like tieflings have to grapple with their dark side and changelings have to avoid turning into their mothers. But the reincarnate spell just changes your race? So do you end up with tiefling woe and an elf face, or changeling tendency to turn into a hag but starting from being a gnome gnow?
It seems like story, but it also seems like racism sucks, game mechanical or otherwise.
And I think the gender issues built into the entire concept of hags and changelings are the far side of unfortunate, so it's only suitable for taking apart and putting together very different.
Still, I've got a character it could fit in with, might give it a whirl.
Just not feeling very focused.
I think objectively the whole thing where I havent done much of anything since march 2020 is a fairly good reason for feeling discontent.
I just don't know how to fix it when *gestures vaguely at everything*.