Torchwood

Listened to Torchwood Golden Age
which is absolutely vicious about the British Empire and people who want to turn the clock back
and that is never me
but now I am feeling vaguely got at
because the idea there was a Best Day and the only thing you can do is live in reruns
when I have been relistening Torchwood for a While now
feels sort of
personal.

I, however, would not kill people to hit rewind
and have never needed the incentive of not ageing
just to stay indoors for years.

I wasnt impressed with Ianto and Gwen getting surprised by the creepy people being danger
but it was kind of funny hearing Ianto complain that if he wanted to get knocked out and murdered he could have stayed at home.



In the hypothetical situation one could intervene in Torchwood to make an AU where Ianto didnt die the way he did
you would still need to change *this* day as well
because this is the day that ate all his time.

It didnt make him old, it ate his possibilities.

Other Doctor Who audios have had similar things happen so I reckon that's what the screaming part did.



Thing is though that Gwen was right there getting chewed on as well, so hypothetically her getting to old age seems unlikely.

Jack must be so depressed realising the ending would have been the same with only him in there.



It's a good audio
but makes me feel like I should think of something else to do.

Torchwood Dead Line

Said I should probably do something else, didn't.
Listened to Dead Line.
It is still good.
Ianto's speech is sad but good.
And Jack tells him he'll never be just a blip in time.

Thing is though I saw on tumblr someone calling Jack/Ianto an example of a healthy relationship, and I have to wonder about their criteria. I mean Ianto canonically and sadly spent their whole relationship thinking Jack would kite off to see the universe without him and Ianto's one mortal life would never be enough time to really matter. And Jack gets a relationship made of immortality angst, survivor guilt, and stacks of guilt over doing his duty in ways that hurt people. And they're still compelling and beautiful, but, you just want to shake canon until you can get them one day of actually understanding what they mean to each other *and* both being alive at the time.

I mean, there's words I'd pick for them, but...

I do keep reading fixits.

So much audio and so little chance it'll ever change the status on that one.




Also having listened to Jack in the something Among Us audios from Big Finish I feel like he needs a long conversation and a good cry, and possibly a talking to. Like, I get the impression he's genuinely grieving, but he's also rejecting new relationships because they're not from the get go what it was like on the best days of a relationship that lasted years, so, that's a bit not good.

But he's like that because audios have to put the toys back the way they found them, and they found them very sad.



I like the ones where they're both alive but
I know where it's going.