Summer sucks
Sep. 2nd, 2011 03:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethExhaustion, headaches, no schedule, and I dropped doing all my regular doing things. Meditation and dancing were working. Yet I stopped. For what seemed like separate good reasons every week. Twice every week. Is annoying. I don't know why that happened, but I've turned into a lump. :-p
I am not going to quit college. Possibly ever. I am going to finish my degree over the next two years. And then - and I shudder even to say this - I will find out where I can do More Studying. It's not that I like it that well, it's that I turn out to really hate the way I go when I don't have at least that tiny little part time structure.
I have spent this summer Being A Writer. This involves a lot of not writing, as it turns out. And I reached my word goal without finishing my story. But the point is, if I spend all the rest of my time Being A Writer, it will suck. Not least because I'm pretty sure I can't make a living at it. But also just because that particular set of parameters for Being seems to make me more nuts. :-p *2
So I will find out when lessons start and go do them.
For years.
... my life needs more life in it.
I am not going to quit college. Possibly ever. I am going to finish my degree over the next two years. And then - and I shudder even to say this - I will find out where I can do More Studying. It's not that I like it that well, it's that I turn out to really hate the way I go when I don't have at least that tiny little part time structure.
I have spent this summer Being A Writer. This involves a lot of not writing, as it turns out. And I reached my word goal without finishing my story. But the point is, if I spend all the rest of my time Being A Writer, it will suck. Not least because I'm pretty sure I can't make a living at it. But also just because that particular set of parameters for Being seems to make me more nuts. :-p *2
So I will find out when lessons start and go do them.
For years.
... my life needs more life in it.