Meditation
Sep. 26th, 2018 09:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethwent out for the evening.
Driver N had a cough and used a whole packet of tissues. I wanted to say they should go be ill at home but I am not assertive so when my first phrasing of concern and 'would you like to go home' did not work I just... went along and hope I not get ill.
N stayed in waiting room instead of meditate. Could still hear.
I have no stillness. Meditate leader guy kept mentioning stillness and I am just a squirmy rocking person. Also today could not find a sitting where nothing ached, could only move it around. Must do my back exercises and move around more.
but! I went! And attempted meditation. And as predicted feel better for it, even though I am not still.
so that was okay.
and the day has been achieved.
Driver N had a cough and used a whole packet of tissues. I wanted to say they should go be ill at home but I am not assertive so when my first phrasing of concern and 'would you like to go home' did not work I just... went along and hope I not get ill.
N stayed in waiting room instead of meditate. Could still hear.
I have no stillness. Meditate leader guy kept mentioning stillness and I am just a squirmy rocking person. Also today could not find a sitting where nothing ached, could only move it around. Must do my back exercises and move around more.
but! I went! And attempted meditation. And as predicted feel better for it, even though I am not still.
so that was okay.
and the day has been achieved.