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beccaelizabethmy brain seems to have stalled. not even getting dial tone. i am awake yet not thinking of a single solitary thing to do, which is ridiculous given how many things to do exist.
fiddling with youtube keeps getting to three songs and stopping again.
people tagging Barrison and Eobarry as if they're the same are understandable, especially if it's early stuff, but, it's a tiny bit frustrating. I mean, Eobard Thawne pretended to be Harrison Wells, and this shapes Barry's relationship with both of them. "You are in my heart" was said at Harry, technically, but to Eobard. That particular mess of a tangle of feelings is an interesting key to explore. And it's not like anyone in the entire show just neatly deals with that dual natured mess.
But people tagging for Eobard and just mixing in Harrison, however much sense it might have made at the time, just... make it difficult to find what I'm looking for.
Also getting angsty enemy slash out of those two means ignoring a LOT by now. I mean, the nazi version makes him all boring gross all the time. You can't just throw in a crossover episode where nazi and then see the character the same way after. I like ambiguous people who could have chosen a better way, not... that.
... villains be villain and it is a problem how he goes around murdering people, obviously.
... it also ought to be a problem when Ollie does it, or that time Harrison did, or... you know, in general. But somehow it's mostly a problem when villain.
I should watch the canon again.
I mean it never will go where I want it to, but if all I so is sit here watching vids of it, I should probably rewatch and, like, realign my sense of moments in their original context.
or I should write something more to my liking unconstrained by other people's canon.
... I know which is more likely.
fiddling with youtube keeps getting to three songs and stopping again.
people tagging Barrison and Eobarry as if they're the same are understandable, especially if it's early stuff, but, it's a tiny bit frustrating. I mean, Eobard Thawne pretended to be Harrison Wells, and this shapes Barry's relationship with both of them. "You are in my heart" was said at Harry, technically, but to Eobard. That particular mess of a tangle of feelings is an interesting key to explore. And it's not like anyone in the entire show just neatly deals with that dual natured mess.
But people tagging for Eobard and just mixing in Harrison, however much sense it might have made at the time, just... make it difficult to find what I'm looking for.
Also getting angsty enemy slash out of those two means ignoring a LOT by now. I mean, the nazi version makes him all boring gross all the time. You can't just throw in a crossover episode where nazi and then see the character the same way after. I like ambiguous people who could have chosen a better way, not... that.
... villains be villain and it is a problem how he goes around murdering people, obviously.
... it also ought to be a problem when Ollie does it, or that time Harrison did, or... you know, in general. But somehow it's mostly a problem when villain.
I should watch the canon again.
I mean it never will go where I want it to, but if all I so is sit here watching vids of it, I should probably rewatch and, like, realign my sense of moments in their original context.
or I should write something more to my liking unconstrained by other people's canon.
... I know which is more likely.