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My writing is sort of screwed.
It's not that I'm stuck between plots. Though I am. And keep thinking of new ones that keep trying to wrap around old ones and twist.
It's that right now all my characters could run out of air, die in a transit accident, or discover that everything they ever believed in was wrong, and I wouldn't actually care.

That's sort of a bigger problem really.

A lot.


So I don't know if my problem is depression or a big dose of 'what's it all about really when you get right down to it'

but fiction is failing me.

Woe.

Productive morning

I have spent the morning mapping the Fighting Fantasy book City of Thieves with the Inspiration software that makes those little bubble diagrams.
... yes, clearly this is worth doing...
*facepalm*

Mostly I have spent the morning listening to Doctor Who audios but I was in a fiddly mood so I started copying numbers out and figuring how they connect to other numbers.

These FF books are the most thoroughly read books I own. The flick back and forward style of 'reading' necessary to play isn't half hard on the paper. All squished around the edges they are.

Seeing how they're designed is interesting. There's a lot of wandering around and a couple of nodes everything comes back to. Also, in this one, no insta-kills. Fights and losing money and plenty of chances to lose, but no 'you picked a bad number, splat, dead' paragraphs yet. Cool.

DW audio... 6 and Peri "Her Final Flight" with the TARDIS nearly getting killed. Slightly odd because the whole adventure was happening in the Doctor's head, and we knew it was, so either you could listen to it solely with an ear for when he figures it out or you could try and get invested in an adventure that within the DW 'verse isn't actually happening. And I don't think it said much about the Doctor's personality that isn't in every other story ever. And apparently I can get Very Worried about the TARDIS even when I know perfectly well how things work out.
... well there's always the TARDIS. Is important.

the other one was 5 and Peri and Erimem and an adventure I'd previously given up on because on MP3 player I couldn't figure out if I'd got the chapters muddled. It was another dream world. It was a bit more interesting because it spun different dreams based on personalities so there was an ordinary adventure, a politics one, and something very domestic and soap opera, all tangled together. And they said something about the characters, that they'd dream such things and want to stay there. So I kind of liked it. But since it's the first I've heard of Erimem who I might not be getting her name right and since I never much paid attention to Peri before it's, well, an odd introduction.

Teach me to try and read the back of the CD before I buy them. But trying to figure out what goes where was why it took so long to get started with Big Finish audios. Lately I just figure they happen, sort of, in a floaty kind of way that probably sticks together somewhere. Web of time is right - there's lots of strands you can put in a row and a general structure from knowing which Doctor but it loops back in on itself and just gets complicated. It's like the audios are inherently more timey-wimey than the TV series because that kind of happens all in a row for the Doctor but you never really know if these do.

My scripts aren't working. I'm kind of out of ideas right now. I've decided I'm not a writer really. Plot bunny generator, character generator, even world generator, but writer? Apparently not. *sigh*


Oh botheration, I just ran out of juice and there isn't any more for... 29 hours until Tesco delivers. I'll have to leave the house. I'm getting somewhat out of practice at that.