My head is being Wrong. Usually when it does that I go read something good to hide in. Actually I tend to end up re-reading
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cesperanza in fandoms I'm remotely interested in. I started with just re-reading Due South but now I seem to read Atlantis fic. I don't watch Atlantis. I didn't think I liked any of the characters. And yet, interesting fic happens.
Written by the Victors is awesome, I keep wanting to show it to random people. Or teachers talking about heteroglossic texts and stuff.
Trouble is there's an upper limit to how many times you can read something and still have it be completely absorbing. I know, I was surprised too. ANYway... anyone got some good recs? Long complicated plotty interesting fics? I've read Highlander, Due South, Sentinel, Stargate, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Torchwood and Doctor Who, as well as a lot of Yuletide one offs and some Bujold and Dianne Wynne Jones stuff. Reading Torchwood fic feels like treading on bruises still, and I haven't read Highlander or Sentinel for ages, and I'm weird about reading Doctor Who cause I'm so picky about Proper and Not Proper, fanfic versions are almost invariably Not Proper and then I sulk. Hmmm, that's probably something to do with why I end up reading Atlantis, I have no attachment to Proper versions of these guys so if a writer wants to pick them up and run with them I'm happy with it. Also I like the math geek warrior and the physicist that makes things go boom or shield. Internal contradictions that harmonise for the win.
Weirdly lately I spend most time in my head hanging out on the Enterprise NX01, but I don't read fanfic for it. I think this is because I will not be in the fanfic. I like the Enterprise just enough to want to be there and not so much I worry about bending it out of shape when I set out to Save the Day a lot.
... most of the time in my head I'm not thinking stories that could turn into fanfic. Different constraints. I am the center of my own universe, and it's fun that way. For me.
I feel sort of peripheral to fandom lately. I'm not really watching stuff, I'm not really going to conventions. I don't feel like I'm a fan of much. I mean I buy and watch and listen to everything Doctor Who, but somehow that's different, that's just part of how the universe works, I don't do deliberate fandom about it.
I can't figure out which is the chicken and which is the egg of my head feeling Wrong so often and me not feeling fannish about anything. I just kind of stopped liking stuff. All the stuff. It's a bit of a problem, really.
So I'm looking for new fandoms, new shows, and new fanfic, in the hopes it will be interesting again.
I haven't had actual fanfic ideas of my own for ages. I want to change too many things to keep them fanfic. I get so frustrated I want to write the All Women All The Time versions or at least the 50/50 with lots of people of color versions. Can't do that and keep the canon characters, a lot of the time. Though Doctor Who has so many people by now you can pull a team together to do that. And The Sarah Jane Adventures has that in the core team, which is why it remains awesome, if sad now.
My plan for the summer is to sit down and write my book. I don't know which book yet. I have a bunch of summer to pick one and write though. My book will have all the ingredients I want. Unfortunately it will also be me writing it, so it will never be as good as in my head, plus it's a bit difficult to suprise myself, though sometimes I make myself cry and stuff.
Rec me some interesting things please. I would like to be proper interested.