VR and my motivation problems

It took me half an hour to get out of bed this morning. I don't have half an hour, it's a college day. that half hour just ate my first catch the bus point. and now I feel sick enough I can't get around to eating. I tried eating a small square of chocolate cake to kick start but now I feel sicker and vaguely off chocolate. but I'm up and dressed and packed apart from the food so that part is working.

My life is all push and no pull. Nothing I particularly want to do, just a bunch of stuff I'm avoiding.

Avoidy thoughts this morning were compare/contrasting two Rodney/John get stuck in VR fics. in one they do beautiful math together, in the other they surf and write VR. in one they know they're in there, in the other only Rodney knows. The math one is kind of awesome, the other one is the kind of hell that's disguised itself as a heaven. ( Read more... )

See, all Dire Consequences if I Don't, no good consequences if I do.

College. Done. Again.

So, 1130 to 1600 out of the house, in order to study between 1300 and 1430. 3 hours travel to 1.5 hours study. The cost benefit ratio is not acceptable.
Headache. Nausea. Tired.
Bugger all this.

This morning's post was all melodrama. :-p to it.

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