Awake?

Yesterday someone offered to drive me to Birmingham, if we started at 0500.
And I was planning to sleep until 8, and it would involve 3 hours driving and I usually feel sick after one hours, and then I'd arrive at the hotel at 8 and not be able to check in until 3pm.
So I said no thanks.
In no small part because it takes me longer than that to change plans even if said plan involves what to have for breakfast.
But they said to text at 0430 if I changed my mind.
This morning I realised even if I take the bus and train like usual I'll still be sitting around in public between maybe 8 and maybe 3, and doing that at the hotel wouldn't be so very much difficult.
But that still left the 3 hour drive so I was all no, go back to sleep.
But no, I woke up at about 0415, and I have stayed that way. So now it is before 6am, I'm not getting a free lift to Birmingham, and I'm not asleep.
Lovely.
:eyeroll:

Think I'm going to try again, having complained to the internet at large. Clearly that will be helpful. And there's still two hours before the alarm goes off.

Prepared

I'm up, I'm dressed, and I'm up to 'urgh, I feel ill. what if I'm really ill this time? urgh.' in the ritual of trying to leave the house.
I should have taken that lift. Granted, travel sick would have happened, but I had not factored in to the calculations that it happens anyway when nervous enough.
Urgh.

Have packed clothes and also more clothes. Have backpack of reading, drinks and snacks. Also my clock and lots of new batteries. Have decided which coat and cardigan and waterproof combination to wear. Have done this exact same journey before. Many times.
... still urgh.

Am going to attempt to eat. Then at 0915 I'll go out and catch the 0935 bus. I have decided.
(urgh)