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I hate how stupid I sound on the phone.
... I also hate feeling stupid, especially on the phone.

I'm supposed to get a bunch of estimates/quotes for house removals. So far I have one (1). It is hard. Because a lot of places have contact forms but they all want my phone number and I won't answer the phone so it's stupid. So now I have to phone them just to be sure they won't phone back.

On the other hand that one estimate matches what I expected / budgeted for, so that's nice.

just sulking at the world, don't mind me

I hate contacting people.
I hate web forms that don't *rudeword* work.
I hate forms that only take your details so they can phone you back later.
What is the point of communicating in writing only to arrange a phone call that they clearly post a number for right next to the form?
Why insist that people make speech noises and understand your speech noises, when that's not easiest for everyone?

I am glad it is past 1700 because now I can sulk until work places open again tomorrow, instead of sulking while making grouchy faces at stupid *rudeword* webpages that won't work.



If I could get the other computer working it's entirely possible they'd work on a newer more updated machine, but that's still not connecting to the internet, and I still haven't figured out how to follow the instructions from the computer shop, let alone fix things. and I spent awake time doing or trying to do this stupid contacting people stuff instead.

boo to everything.

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I watched the xmas Doctor Who. Only a month late.
It didn't suck?
I'm kind of angry at the joke where the elves call things racist that are not in fact racist, it feels like a response to criticism, except some things lately have been actual racist.
I hate when things climb out of the TV, I have that nightmare enough thanks, but that makes it a proper ingredient for story.
it was mostly okay.
I still don't like the Doctor though. He doesn't like people, he 'deletes' them from his memory as soon as he walks away, and he walks away when they're still in trouble. That's not right.

I've been thinking, and I think that nobody writing Doctor Who is really thinking about if they would want to hang around with that guy. Writing it this way only makes sense if they're identifying with him, and if they imagine the audience identifies with him. That's why the companions are mysteries lately, because the writers have put the point of view and identification figure where the alien mystery ought to be. So for them it's a grand lark to be that much of a grumpy pain in the arse and still have the world jump to their tune because they're just that smart. But for people who want to be friends with the Doctor... he doesn't have friends, he treats people poorly and expects them to heel. So it's all gone wrong.

this makes me annoyed at writers who want to imagine a central character that way. same reason I dislike Sherlock and his ilk. Holmes of the books wasn't even like that. But the power fantasy of being just that smart that they can get away with anything, that keeps getting filmed. I don't want to watch it again.



Also, the Doctor comes along being all 'all of time and space!' and people go with him. Well that's not very impressive. If the Doctor, personally, is cool and someone we want to hang around with, there should be other people making similar offers, and the Doctor would have something unique about hanging around with him that would make it appealing. Which, you know, I feel has been true for 50 years and all his previous faces, to some degree. Not so much 6, due to story arc, until his audio adventures. But mostly, the Doctor is interesting even if one could manage the time and space thing independently. That's a tiny bit important that is.

at the moment it feels more like, he's the only one with an escape pod, or the only one trying to save us, so he gets a pass on all kinds of everything. and I have no interest in that.

... maybe I could sweet talk the TARDIS into going for a spin and leaving him on the slow path for a century or two?