Dark Matter season one

I watched the first disc, the first five episodes.
I'm... not hooked.
So it's about half a dozen people who wake up without their memories.
That means they want the audience to be playing detective games too. Which means we'll be wrong if we think we know things. And which presents the characters as puzzles, rather than as people to identify with or, you know, like.
Plus I keep feeling squirmy of something like embarrassment and anxiety, because these characters are crashing around the universe blind, they'd probably know as much useful stuff if they were ported in from this universe, and they probably are doing things their earlier selves wouldn't agree with.
So, it's not a comfortable viewing experience.
But it is interesting.

Plus they have three whole women on the crew, and four men, with a mix of ethnicities. And the show is thrifty, they spend a lot of time with just the main cast in their spaceship. So we get women talking to each other. Which beats baseline. So there's stuff to like.

I just feel off balance along with the characters.

Plus I keep dropping out of the story because the whole thing feels like a vaguely cyberpunk rpg campaign. Corporations, androids, mercs, waking up with memories wiped, a ship they haven't fully explored, it just seems like a game setup. Which would have a different set of goals and expectations to a story we're just going to get told.

All in all, I'm not quite into it.

But I'll watch the rest of it, so, near enough.




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I think I have watched too many things with too many internal organs just lately
I been trying to get to sleep but dozing off is hard when it leads to vivid imagery of that particular meaty sort.

Also shows have new episodes again so I'm worried about fictional characters again and cannot see episodes until aaaaaages later again.

I like it when characters get actual mental health care and are not treated as the punchline to a joke because of their neurodivergence. that seems reasonable.

Ugh, too many zombies

My dreams had too many zombies. Usually there are zero zombies, which is the usual and expected number of zombies, but even compared to unpleasant numbers there were too many zombies.

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So yeah, zombies are about mental illness but also physical disability, and it's really gross how the answer is always violence.




But I would very much prefer to not dream about zombies.

That would be better.

And also more likely to result in feeling actually rested.






The annoying part is I went back asleep and dreamt I was published in F&SF, but due to the thing where that is a lot less vivid, I can barely remember it now.

There was also dream being a wheelchair user and doing interesting wheelchair stunts and dances but finding the disabled loos were turned into store rooms and people kept trying to 'prove' I didn't need the wheels anyway, or grabbing bits they assumed I couldn't feel and they didn't have permissions for.



Ugh. Dreams. I need a better set.

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I went to the buddhist centre and did a meditate.
I am not very good at sitting still. And their cushions are the special sort that are harder than the floor. And he said at the start that sitting like I chose was only for very flexible people, and I said it's how I always sit at home, because it is, but then I couldn't sit still and felt like I'd been foolish. But I know I couldn't sit still on the chairs or kneeling neither, so, *shrugs*
I ended up a bit grumpy but I started out anxious so technically that's an improvement.

I liked it well enough to go again, but not to say that goes in the routine.

Also it is less fun going at night, because then all the after dark people are around, and you have to figure out which person sitting on the ground in the cold is a danger, or is in danger, or is about to throw up, or you have to cross the road to avoid the probable puke. Daytimes are a bit simpler. So I still hope we can sort out to go in the daytimes.

It took three hours to do a one hour meditate, because of getting there and back. We got there fifteen minutes early with no traffic no delays easy parking in expected place. So we can probably trim that a bit, but not all fifteen minutes.

This is why I wanted to live in Norwich, all the things are there and take two hours of transport to wrap around anything.