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I have been being boring lately. Also bored. These things go together. If nothing interesting goes in, no interesting comments come out.
I tried playing minecraft, got bored and nauseous, discovered how to turn off some of the motion and got less nausea but still felt pretty ill, then found that as long as I move the minimum amount I dont feel very ill just a little. ... and yet I keep playing it. But because the button that says unlock does absolutely nothing - an error I have no idea how to fix - I keep doing this by making a new world and starting again. Which might contribute to the boring, but I do find something else to do moat times, so I think it's just the stupid camera and the way I keep dying a lot even on easy, often because I cant see the problem, ans peaceful is okay but nothing happens, and today I kept mining down until I discovered mostly bedrock but I did not discover enough iron to make all the tools and armour, and I found redstone and made some things with it but those things seem really pointless, and I cant get the hang of the controls and keep hitting villagers when I'm just trying to find the button to trade with them, and whatever this game is for I am bad at it. So I'm bored. When many people like this game and I usually like games of making things. So then I feel like I fail at games.
So that's ... boring.
I have also been making inroads in my 31 page Marked to Read list on Ao3, but that means I've been finding a lot of stuff where the pairing was right but the rest was... not what I was looking for. As well as the perils of kidfic I already mentioned, there are a lot of 'bdsm doesnt work like that, no even for aliens' and whole heaps of 'humans dont human like that' and the standard amount of out of character, except I already read my favourite authors so possibly slightly more than that even, and quite a lot of OOC, and then a few where it would be okay episode gen but it was marked as / and I was looking for my romance good stuff, not just an episode with the assumption they're dating outside of subtext. There needs to be tags for that. Though some of these there are precisely zero tags and I only found them because I went through the author's whole page. Others of course there are so many tags I get to the part that makes me think they should have tagged for it and lo, they did, just in a forest of freeforms.
Finding the good stuff is hard.
And then of course there are fics that would have been the perfectly perfect thing when they were written but make me realise we have moved on since then, often to our great good fortune. I mean DADT fics had the requisite starcrossed feel until quite recently, and now it's like, yeah, but when are you going to deal with your actual relationship problems? Or actual space adventure problems. Or both. Both is good.
Also the baseline assumptions about how angsty and difficult it is to realise you are bi, or even the presence of the concept bisexuality, have drifted substantially in twenty years. Yaay, but, leaves some of these fics with not much to say.
Also also if the only thing in the way of a relationship is simply not asking each other out or expressing your own feelings, I see how that is anxiety inducing, but I do not see how it can adequately fuel a fic that long.
Add to this a frustrating sprinkle of fics not on good terms with the english language and the usual (always to be encouraged) steady supply of new writers or those with more enthusiasm than skill...
Fic is worth the reading, but some days does not generate recs, or comments, much less interesting meta writing.
But many cheers for anyone who ever makes fic, and bonus cheers for finishing. It has been more than eight years since I managed, so I'd not criticise.
... just vaguely whine... :eyeroll:
Add to all this the usual problems with being awake at the people sort of times and the ongoing shortage of leaving the house and the thing where my life doesnt have many things in it and a lot of them are being suspended until January because holidays...
I am bored and boring
and need to start doing something more interesting.
... that last has been true for all the years since college though so I'm not holding my breath...
I tried playing minecraft, got bored and nauseous, discovered how to turn off some of the motion and got less nausea but still felt pretty ill, then found that as long as I move the minimum amount I dont feel very ill just a little. ... and yet I keep playing it. But because the button that says unlock does absolutely nothing - an error I have no idea how to fix - I keep doing this by making a new world and starting again. Which might contribute to the boring, but I do find something else to do moat times, so I think it's just the stupid camera and the way I keep dying a lot even on easy, often because I cant see the problem, ans peaceful is okay but nothing happens, and today I kept mining down until I discovered mostly bedrock but I did not discover enough iron to make all the tools and armour, and I found redstone and made some things with it but those things seem really pointless, and I cant get the hang of the controls and keep hitting villagers when I'm just trying to find the button to trade with them, and whatever this game is for I am bad at it. So I'm bored. When many people like this game and I usually like games of making things. So then I feel like I fail at games.
So that's ... boring.
I have also been making inroads in my 31 page Marked to Read list on Ao3, but that means I've been finding a lot of stuff where the pairing was right but the rest was... not what I was looking for. As well as the perils of kidfic I already mentioned, there are a lot of 'bdsm doesnt work like that, no even for aliens' and whole heaps of 'humans dont human like that' and the standard amount of out of character, except I already read my favourite authors so possibly slightly more than that even, and quite a lot of OOC, and then a few where it would be okay episode gen but it was marked as / and I was looking for my romance good stuff, not just an episode with the assumption they're dating outside of subtext. There needs to be tags for that. Though some of these there are precisely zero tags and I only found them because I went through the author's whole page. Others of course there are so many tags I get to the part that makes me think they should have tagged for it and lo, they did, just in a forest of freeforms.
Finding the good stuff is hard.
And then of course there are fics that would have been the perfectly perfect thing when they were written but make me realise we have moved on since then, often to our great good fortune. I mean DADT fics had the requisite starcrossed feel until quite recently, and now it's like, yeah, but when are you going to deal with your actual relationship problems? Or actual space adventure problems. Or both. Both is good.
Also the baseline assumptions about how angsty and difficult it is to realise you are bi, or even the presence of the concept bisexuality, have drifted substantially in twenty years. Yaay, but, leaves some of these fics with not much to say.
Also also if the only thing in the way of a relationship is simply not asking each other out or expressing your own feelings, I see how that is anxiety inducing, but I do not see how it can adequately fuel a fic that long.
Add to this a frustrating sprinkle of fics not on good terms with the english language and the usual (always to be encouraged) steady supply of new writers or those with more enthusiasm than skill...
Fic is worth the reading, but some days does not generate recs, or comments, much less interesting meta writing.
But many cheers for anyone who ever makes fic, and bonus cheers for finishing. It has been more than eight years since I managed, so I'd not criticise.
... just vaguely whine... :eyeroll:
Add to all this the usual problems with being awake at the people sort of times and the ongoing shortage of leaving the house and the thing where my life doesnt have many things in it and a lot of them are being suspended until January because holidays...
I am bored and boring
and need to start doing something more interesting.
... that last has been true for all the years since college though so I'm not holding my breath...
