I turned up. That means I win.
Oct. 19th, 2011 04:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethI went to college. I've been awake since midnight, so turning up for 1pm lessons was quite good going. Still being awake and not run over is good too. the bus now drops me off at my building on the correct side of the road, though I have to go up and down the building again because there's no door on that side. it makes it much easier to get home when very tired.
Lesson had lesson in it. Fellow students had saved me a seat next to the plug. Is good. but new computer is proving quite useful, it has more than three hours battery and I only need two at a time. Of course I thought the thing said eight hours when I bought it, but who knows, batteries are weird. (or possibly I got the wrong computer) (I don't know and no longer care).
I spoke out loud and think I was stupid out loud a couple of times, but in the process learned I do not have so much of a grip on what is metafiction as I thought, because I tried to apply the category to other works we are not studying and teach didn't sound like what I was describing was what it meant. Okays, I study and try again.
There is still no adjustable up and down computer chair in the room. All my joints hurt. A lot. I'm quite fed up of it. But all I can do is mention it again and be assured once again that it has been ordered and know once again that I can't access whoever it is who isn't bringing me the stupid chair. :-p to them.
We are done studying Maus. I am happy. I put it back in the library. No more studying the very upsetting stuff. Now moving on to a different set of upsetting stuff. *sigh*
(I want to invent a college curriculum where students can study all these fancy words we look at without ever once reading about suicide. A non depressing version! Is that really so hard? Is it really impossible to study all U rated source texts? I had read so much less about prostitutes and serial killers before this degree! And I'm counting the rentboy AUs! I'm pretty sure there are topics other than genocide and mass murder and serial killing and murder and doing crime until death by cop and suicide. I'm pretty sure there are stories where nobody dies at all. Also, I have heard, in some stories, people only have sex because they want to, out of positive emotions, and it works quite well. Even in dramatic stories. Even in stories with plots. I'm pretty sure some of them could contribute to a curriculum that did not include seriously studying scenes of wanking in front of the television! Also, more than one text we've read involved sex with farm animals. Why do any texts involve sex with farm animals? Why are we reading them? And, okay, I never did write on a course feedback form that there was too much farm sex involved in the assigned reading, and neither did I object to the prostitutes and serial killers, or the ongoing suicide theme in too many units, but really, they're all like this. Granted I liked it when Shakespeare and the Greek dudes did it, but, *wavey incoherent hands*. You know? Argh! Just... me and my happy U rated DVD collection could fill up a lot of hours. Are they seriously telling us there's nothing of academic value in there?)
(And, okay, if we were analysing Batman there would be just as much violence and violence against women and misogyny. But notably less farm animals. Just people in animal costumes.)
(*sigh* and *facepalm*)
I have built up a few frustrations over the years with what is considered worthy of academic attention.
But closely examining my categories does tend to make it difficult to make rules without ruling out all the stuff I like too. I mean, Highlander involved following around a guy who killed a different person at least once a week, and Amanda was never cheap, and yet watching it never creeped me out the same way. Probably I should poke that a bit. There's ideology stuff in how we get comfortable watching a 'hero' doing stuff that's creepy and violent but apparently justified. Definitely an essay in there.
Maybe it's not so much the sex and violence I'm objecting to as the particular presentation thereof.
But there are other topics than those. Some of the poems is nice lately. Some of them were about birds or food. Of course when you analyse the poem about food it turns out to be a poem about sex according to lots of people, but that's humans for you.
I don't know. I think I'm sulking because life should be less upsetting. Or because I don't want to look at the upsetting bits.
And, okay, I can see why we've studied all the stuff we've studied, I just... blergh. Once I get done with this degree I will keep reading/watching the Shakespeare and the stuff from Myth & Medievalism and reading like Byron and all from Revolution and Reaction and maybe reading detective stories except I'd already read the Sherlock Holmes and didn't like anything newer than that and ... oh, my list stops there, I think... er, that's not a very long list from that many years studying, then. But I can see the value in having read widely from lots of different times and of seeing films from a bunch of different eras and all that.
I'd just kind of like to be less creeped out for my grades.
Lesson had lesson in it. Fellow students had saved me a seat next to the plug. Is good. but new computer is proving quite useful, it has more than three hours battery and I only need two at a time. Of course I thought the thing said eight hours when I bought it, but who knows, batteries are weird. (or possibly I got the wrong computer) (I don't know and no longer care).
I spoke out loud and think I was stupid out loud a couple of times, but in the process learned I do not have so much of a grip on what is metafiction as I thought, because I tried to apply the category to other works we are not studying and teach didn't sound like what I was describing was what it meant. Okays, I study and try again.
There is still no adjustable up and down computer chair in the room. All my joints hurt. A lot. I'm quite fed up of it. But all I can do is mention it again and be assured once again that it has been ordered and know once again that I can't access whoever it is who isn't bringing me the stupid chair. :-p to them.
We are done studying Maus. I am happy. I put it back in the library. No more studying the very upsetting stuff. Now moving on to a different set of upsetting stuff. *sigh*
(I want to invent a college curriculum where students can study all these fancy words we look at without ever once reading about suicide. A non depressing version! Is that really so hard? Is it really impossible to study all U rated source texts? I had read so much less about prostitutes and serial killers before this degree! And I'm counting the rentboy AUs! I'm pretty sure there are topics other than genocide and mass murder and serial killing and murder and doing crime until death by cop and suicide. I'm pretty sure there are stories where nobody dies at all. Also, I have heard, in some stories, people only have sex because they want to, out of positive emotions, and it works quite well. Even in dramatic stories. Even in stories with plots. I'm pretty sure some of them could contribute to a curriculum that did not include seriously studying scenes of wanking in front of the television! Also, more than one text we've read involved sex with farm animals. Why do any texts involve sex with farm animals? Why are we reading them? And, okay, I never did write on a course feedback form that there was too much farm sex involved in the assigned reading, and neither did I object to the prostitutes and serial killers, or the ongoing suicide theme in too many units, but really, they're all like this. Granted I liked it when Shakespeare and the Greek dudes did it, but, *wavey incoherent hands*. You know? Argh! Just... me and my happy U rated DVD collection could fill up a lot of hours. Are they seriously telling us there's nothing of academic value in there?)
(And, okay, if we were analysing Batman there would be just as much violence and violence against women and misogyny. But notably less farm animals. Just people in animal costumes.)
(*sigh* and *facepalm*)
I have built up a few frustrations over the years with what is considered worthy of academic attention.
But closely examining my categories does tend to make it difficult to make rules without ruling out all the stuff I like too. I mean, Highlander involved following around a guy who killed a different person at least once a week, and Amanda was never cheap, and yet watching it never creeped me out the same way. Probably I should poke that a bit. There's ideology stuff in how we get comfortable watching a 'hero' doing stuff that's creepy and violent but apparently justified. Definitely an essay in there.
Maybe it's not so much the sex and violence I'm objecting to as the particular presentation thereof.
But there are other topics than those. Some of the poems is nice lately. Some of them were about birds or food. Of course when you analyse the poem about food it turns out to be a poem about sex according to lots of people, but that's humans for you.
I don't know. I think I'm sulking because life should be less upsetting. Or because I don't want to look at the upsetting bits.
And, okay, I can see why we've studied all the stuff we've studied, I just... blergh. Once I get done with this degree I will keep reading/watching the Shakespeare and the stuff from Myth & Medievalism and reading like Byron and all from Revolution and Reaction and maybe reading detective stories except I'd already read the Sherlock Holmes and didn't like anything newer than that and ... oh, my list stops there, I think... er, that's not a very long list from that many years studying, then. But I can see the value in having read widely from lots of different times and of seeing films from a bunch of different eras and all that.
I'd just kind of like to be less creeped out for my grades.