Brain twirling
Dec. 11th, 2011 02:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethSo, having been awake long long times, I realised it was 10 in the morning and I hadn't talked to mum for a bunch of time. So we talked. I described the flat we're viewing this week, mum forbade me from moving there, which was pretty much what I was thinking only more so. We talked more. We talked more. Mum hung up for five minutes. She called back. We talked more. Mum hung up and redialed because it was nearly an hour. We talked more. It was past 1pm and we were still talking. And we always have the same conversation! We talk how difficult mum's jobs are, we talk housing, we talk government and disability, we talk all the same things all the time. For hours! So that was a long conversation.
Then I tried finishing the reading about Goblin Market.
Theology is complicated. Which, duh. But it seems like all these all essays are getting all technical and complicated, and skipping the thing that seemed interesting to me. I told mum these essays are saying Lizzie was being a Christ figure to Laura and the drinking bit is secretly about the Eucharist, and mum says it can't be because (a) only Christ is Christ and (b) Lizzie is a girl. Before getting into twirly bits about how the whole bread and wine bit is secretly erotic or how communion can be both poison and cure or how the things of the world are maybe fallen and maybe not, I'd kind of like to know how much weird it was that this girl was doing this Christ figure thing for her sister. Do girls usually do that? Do Victorian girls? I don't know. I'm not even a Christian! Why I got to know this all?
Well I don't, I'm just doing reading about a poem.
... and getting a bit sulky about it, because now I'm thinking of more interesting religious bits than of gender bits, and I need to do an exam about gender.
The end of Goblin Market don't make sense if it's about drug addiction. One of these essays saw a drama version by a bunch of teenagers and they made it be about drugs and the ending be about her sister getting her more drugs, with no saving her or anything. The essay thought they'd missed the point of the poem, the theology or whatever. The redemptive bit. I thought the essay missed the point of the teenagers, that being that when you've got some classic addiction and withdrawal stuff going on, going out to buy more of the same is not in fact helpful. However happy it might make your sister in the short term, it's just not going to work. So the poem is just being stupid. If it's about addiction.
Which the essay takes to mean it's not about addiction, which seems fair enough. The other readings are the religious one, with the bringing the bread and wine back, which is only weird in that there's no actual bread, nor wine, and there's a whole bit in the middle where Laura tries to grow her own and it fails, and what are Goblins doing growing that good stuff? So, quite a lot weird really. And then there's the Playboy illustrated reading, where the poem is mostly about goblin MEN leaving women all alone after their first time, and how kissing women can make them feel better. Which, again, certain degree of logic there. But that one doesn't explain how they can has children to tell the story to. *pokes poem* It says they're both wives but doesn't mention men except for goblin fruit merchant men. Still, presumably there's men around somewhere. It's just the poem is about sisters and their daughters.
Mostly though, the more I poke it, the more I find most convincing the assertion of the original poet, who says it's just a fairy tale. It don't mean. It just has a story.
This suggests I'm in the wrong subject again.
I know, I know, everything has a moral or ideological position if you poke it. It's just if you poke them hard enough they don't make no sense.
:-p
Okay, I only have to have a coherent opinion on Friday between 10am and 1pm. It will have to be about self sacrifice as being expected of women, and loyalty to sisters as both expected and as :-p to patriarchy cause sisters help each other, because that's the reading that connects it to the other texts, The Woman in White and the Sarah Stickney Ellis. I have to re read the Ellis, I know it says daft stuff about self sacrifice but I need to poke it a bit to make sure I can explain it proper.
Thing I do like about Goblin Market: It's an adventure story with lives in danger and lives saved BUT it don't depend on hitting to fix it. Hitting is what the bad people do. Good people bring fruit juice. Saving the world with fruit juice should work more often.
Now it feels weird that my studious/puzzled icon is a guy. But my girl icons are either angry or angrier or nice reporter people. Or Zatanna with hugs or bunnies. They are not icons for poking stupid poems unless I'm particularly wanting to throw things across the room.
... some of these essays will probably get the angry icons. very odd mirrors, they are.
okay, I'm done for the day.
Then I tried finishing the reading about Goblin Market.
Theology is complicated. Which, duh. But it seems like all these all essays are getting all technical and complicated, and skipping the thing that seemed interesting to me. I told mum these essays are saying Lizzie was being a Christ figure to Laura and the drinking bit is secretly about the Eucharist, and mum says it can't be because (a) only Christ is Christ and (b) Lizzie is a girl. Before getting into twirly bits about how the whole bread and wine bit is secretly erotic or how communion can be both poison and cure or how the things of the world are maybe fallen and maybe not, I'd kind of like to know how much weird it was that this girl was doing this Christ figure thing for her sister. Do girls usually do that? Do Victorian girls? I don't know. I'm not even a Christian! Why I got to know this all?
Well I don't, I'm just doing reading about a poem.
... and getting a bit sulky about it, because now I'm thinking of more interesting religious bits than of gender bits, and I need to do an exam about gender.
The end of Goblin Market don't make sense if it's about drug addiction. One of these essays saw a drama version by a bunch of teenagers and they made it be about drugs and the ending be about her sister getting her more drugs, with no saving her or anything. The essay thought they'd missed the point of the poem, the theology or whatever. The redemptive bit. I thought the essay missed the point of the teenagers, that being that when you've got some classic addiction and withdrawal stuff going on, going out to buy more of the same is not in fact helpful. However happy it might make your sister in the short term, it's just not going to work. So the poem is just being stupid. If it's about addiction.
Which the essay takes to mean it's not about addiction, which seems fair enough. The other readings are the religious one, with the bringing the bread and wine back, which is only weird in that there's no actual bread, nor wine, and there's a whole bit in the middle where Laura tries to grow her own and it fails, and what are Goblins doing growing that good stuff? So, quite a lot weird really. And then there's the Playboy illustrated reading, where the poem is mostly about goblin MEN leaving women all alone after their first time, and how kissing women can make them feel better. Which, again, certain degree of logic there. But that one doesn't explain how they can has children to tell the story to. *pokes poem* It says they're both wives but doesn't mention men except for goblin fruit merchant men. Still, presumably there's men around somewhere. It's just the poem is about sisters and their daughters.
Mostly though, the more I poke it, the more I find most convincing the assertion of the original poet, who says it's just a fairy tale. It don't mean. It just has a story.
This suggests I'm in the wrong subject again.
I know, I know, everything has a moral or ideological position if you poke it. It's just if you poke them hard enough they don't make no sense.
:-p
Okay, I only have to have a coherent opinion on Friday between 10am and 1pm. It will have to be about self sacrifice as being expected of women, and loyalty to sisters as both expected and as :-p to patriarchy cause sisters help each other, because that's the reading that connects it to the other texts, The Woman in White and the Sarah Stickney Ellis. I have to re read the Ellis, I know it says daft stuff about self sacrifice but I need to poke it a bit to make sure I can explain it proper.
Thing I do like about Goblin Market: It's an adventure story with lives in danger and lives saved BUT it don't depend on hitting to fix it. Hitting is what the bad people do. Good people bring fruit juice. Saving the world with fruit juice should work more often.
Now it feels weird that my studious/puzzled icon is a guy. But my girl icons are either angry or angrier or nice reporter people. Or Zatanna with hugs or bunnies. They are not icons for poking stupid poems unless I'm particularly wanting to throw things across the room.
... some of these essays will probably get the angry icons. very odd mirrors, they are.
okay, I'm done for the day.
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Date: 2011-12-11 03:23 pm (UTC)~