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beccaelizabethHave sent today's version of the dissertation to teacher as agreed at meeting last week.
argh argh what a mess argh.
still 16000 words, still no introduction, and the femininities chapter sort of turns into the conclusion without stopping to say so.
also I re-read the instructions and apparently I'm supposed to have given a talk at the start of the semester? I really hope someone formally decided I didn't have to. That's happened before, I have Special Circumstances or something, that would be helpful due to the whole panic and woe thing. But I'd quite like to not fail due to being forgot, so I asked about it.
also today I hung up the laundry to dry, but I think I forgot it in the washing machine for a bit long, cause now it smells funny. reckon I'm going to put it back in and wash it again.
I have covered all the topics I meant to, except when I had to just delete a whole paragraph because you can't possibly go off on that really interesting tangent within this word limit. and it's not even a tangent, because race-and-gender and sexuality-and-gender are like class-and-gender always things that are in a particular performance of gender. It's significant that a character changes when they're played by a black woman and a white woman. Though I'm not so sure how much 'changes' is exactly right, given that girl with a gun is sort of central to River either way. It's interesting that when guys get flirty and use lipstick for evil they're omnisexual guys, not het guys. And the Doctor's status as a Lord is pretty easy to argue as being his most consistent feature, so when he's trying to be a 'normal bloke' that's not just trying to perform gender, bloke, but class, of the day job and pubs and football variety. Eccentric aristocrat investigator scientist is the Doctor, so trying to hide investigator he also hid... well, not eccentric, obviously, but his class he tried to hide. Can't just say 'gender' and not those bits, even if it would help my word count.
I still have nothing to say about The Aztecs I couldn't have got from the summary. If I'm going to delete anything completely it would be that. But then I'd end up with a splodge of information about the creation of the show in teh 60s which I refer to a bunch later but which isn't the most directly relevant thing to the recreation of the show in the 21st century or under different showrunners.
*big sigh*
I don't waaaaant to deletes it! My words mine!
... rubbish words, I know. Must make tidy and academic.
... every single assignment I've ever handed in has come back telling me I need to sound more academic. I'm just aiming for use of full sentences and actual paragraphs. The rest is fine by me.
I'm stuck at the moment between thinking I will faaaaaaiiiiiiilllll completely (arrgh arrgh arrgh)
and getting worried about maybe I will get above 60% (like almost every other unit ever) and then I have to worry if I get 65% and a First or if I've calculated wrong or if I'll just miss it or or or or or
*facepalm*
I have 31 days left. Hand in day is 15th April. I have two more weeks to get feedback from teacher. (I hope he answers his email promptly this time.) I have quite a lot of words that are quite a lot on topic even if I'm having slight problems remembering what I read where, I've got lots of notes I can find it.
Logically I have quite a lot of time.
Logically I should be able to hand in something that will pass.
... logic and brains are only passing acquaintances, aren't they?
argh argh what a mess argh.
still 16000 words, still no introduction, and the femininities chapter sort of turns into the conclusion without stopping to say so.
also I re-read the instructions and apparently I'm supposed to have given a talk at the start of the semester? I really hope someone formally decided I didn't have to. That's happened before, I have Special Circumstances or something, that would be helpful due to the whole panic and woe thing. But I'd quite like to not fail due to being forgot, so I asked about it.
also today I hung up the laundry to dry, but I think I forgot it in the washing machine for a bit long, cause now it smells funny. reckon I'm going to put it back in and wash it again.
I have covered all the topics I meant to, except when I had to just delete a whole paragraph because you can't possibly go off on that really interesting tangent within this word limit. and it's not even a tangent, because race-and-gender and sexuality-and-gender are like class-and-gender always things that are in a particular performance of gender. It's significant that a character changes when they're played by a black woman and a white woman. Though I'm not so sure how much 'changes' is exactly right, given that girl with a gun is sort of central to River either way. It's interesting that when guys get flirty and use lipstick for evil they're omnisexual guys, not het guys. And the Doctor's status as a Lord is pretty easy to argue as being his most consistent feature, so when he's trying to be a 'normal bloke' that's not just trying to perform gender, bloke, but class, of the day job and pubs and football variety. Eccentric aristocrat investigator scientist is the Doctor, so trying to hide investigator he also hid... well, not eccentric, obviously, but his class he tried to hide. Can't just say 'gender' and not those bits, even if it would help my word count.
I still have nothing to say about The Aztecs I couldn't have got from the summary. If I'm going to delete anything completely it would be that. But then I'd end up with a splodge of information about the creation of the show in teh 60s which I refer to a bunch later but which isn't the most directly relevant thing to the recreation of the show in the 21st century or under different showrunners.
*big sigh*
I don't waaaaant to deletes it! My words mine!
... rubbish words, I know. Must make tidy and academic.
... every single assignment I've ever handed in has come back telling me I need to sound more academic. I'm just aiming for use of full sentences and actual paragraphs. The rest is fine by me.
I'm stuck at the moment between thinking I will faaaaaaiiiiiiilllll completely (arrgh arrgh arrgh)
and getting worried about maybe I will get above 60% (like almost every other unit ever) and then I have to worry if I get 65% and a First or if I've calculated wrong or if I'll just miss it or or or or or
*facepalm*
I have 31 days left. Hand in day is 15th April. I have two more weeks to get feedback from teacher. (I hope he answers his email promptly this time.) I have quite a lot of words that are quite a lot on topic even if I'm having slight problems remembering what I read where, I've got lots of notes I can find it.
Logically I have quite a lot of time.
Logically I should be able to hand in something that will pass.
... logic and brains are only passing acquaintances, aren't they?