Okay, this is getting ridiculous
Dec. 8th, 2014 09:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethToday I woke up, late, got up, eventually, went to do the tasks of the day, failed at Contact People due to people not being contactable, ran into that thing where I have had no help for a really long time and have not in fact been less disabled in that time and things are just not getting done including the things that would mean more things could get done, and just gave up and went back to bed.
Also, with xmas coming, people are going on holiday or leave or whatever they call it, and things are pretty much a bust until January, yet the same usual jobs need doing as ever.
It's not that I resent other people having happy holidays, it's just I'd kind of like it to be less disruptive of routine, but I know not to say that out loud directly to people.
It's just if you add everything together December is basically for hibernating and hoping things work out better next year.
There is a house I would quite like to view. The estate agent suggests tomorrow or Thursday 0900-1400. But no one is available to support me, and people keep telling me it's not a thing that is safe to do alone. I don't understand why. On the whole things are pretty safe mostly. Except for roads. And sometimes humans. And this involves both roads and humans. But nothing thus far that would have been unsafe, that I noticed.
I'd just really like it if I could do things and cope with life. That sounds like more fun.
Or, possibly, get the help I used to get and am still entitled to, which enabled me to do things and cope with life. That was more fun than this.
I think I'm going to have to get stubborn about waking up in the day time and staying that way. Even if I have nothing to do. I shall have to think of things to do.
And I did do the Monday Things, if attempting phones and failing because no one feels like answering any more counts. So it's not like I failed at today.
It's just kind of tiring to have to do the same things every week because they didn't work last week. Since mid 2013.
Also, with xmas coming, people are going on holiday or leave or whatever they call it, and things are pretty much a bust until January, yet the same usual jobs need doing as ever.
It's not that I resent other people having happy holidays, it's just I'd kind of like it to be less disruptive of routine, but I know not to say that out loud directly to people.
It's just if you add everything together December is basically for hibernating and hoping things work out better next year.
There is a house I would quite like to view. The estate agent suggests tomorrow or Thursday 0900-1400. But no one is available to support me, and people keep telling me it's not a thing that is safe to do alone. I don't understand why. On the whole things are pretty safe mostly. Except for roads. And sometimes humans. And this involves both roads and humans. But nothing thus far that would have been unsafe, that I noticed.
I'd just really like it if I could do things and cope with life. That sounds like more fun.
Or, possibly, get the help I used to get and am still entitled to, which enabled me to do things and cope with life. That was more fun than this.
I think I'm going to have to get stubborn about waking up in the day time and staying that way. Even if I have nothing to do. I shall have to think of things to do.
And I did do the Monday Things, if attempting phones and failing because no one feels like answering any more counts. So it's not like I failed at today.
It's just kind of tiring to have to do the same things every week because they didn't work last week. Since mid 2013.