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Jan. 20th, 2016 02:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethI am a very grumpy human and its pissing me off.
... yes the feedback loop is unhelpful.
I want to like things and be enthusiastic, or at least muster enough interest to bother getting up in the morning. My current menu of options looks ever more like a choice of what to complain about today, and I don't like it. I want the inside of my head to actually appreciate things again.
Yes I know this is called depression. I just... there have been years since college. There have been enough years that I could in fact if I were a full time student be approaching getting a second degree. But I haven't thought of anything to do and the inside of my head remains much like this. It's tedious.
Today I shall go get a breakfast (it never helps to forget until past 2pm) and then read a library book and hope I can just set aside grumpy if I try again.
... it's also not helping that I'd really quite like to watch Star Wars at the cinema but my chances of doing so are dwindling rapidly without my resources for doing so increasing. Boo.
... but I also fear if I did go see it I'd get grumpy all over it instead of the other way around. Most boo.
:eyeroll:
Onwards.
... yes the feedback loop is unhelpful.
I want to like things and be enthusiastic, or at least muster enough interest to bother getting up in the morning. My current menu of options looks ever more like a choice of what to complain about today, and I don't like it. I want the inside of my head to actually appreciate things again.
Yes I know this is called depression. I just... there have been years since college. There have been enough years that I could in fact if I were a full time student be approaching getting a second degree. But I haven't thought of anything to do and the inside of my head remains much like this. It's tedious.
Today I shall go get a breakfast (it never helps to forget until past 2pm) and then read a library book and hope I can just set aside grumpy if I try again.
... it's also not helping that I'd really quite like to watch Star Wars at the cinema but my chances of doing so are dwindling rapidly without my resources for doing so increasing. Boo.
... but I also fear if I did go see it I'd get grumpy all over it instead of the other way around. Most boo.
:eyeroll:
Onwards.
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