Doctor Who new series season 1
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beccaelizabethI have watched through The Parting Of The Ways
and now I have Feelings.
Not entirely positive ones, about the episodes.
But all the regeneration Feelings.
The basic problem is I don't agree Rose did the right thing. She did a dangerous, destructive, and entirely hope based thing. Faith hope and love, generally good. The Doctor choosing to be a coward not a killer, I love that, every time. I even love Rose's speech about never giving up and I understand why she wanted to go back for them.
But the Doctor told her the most important thing was the enemy must not get the TARDIS.
And she took the TARDIS right back to them.
And Rose didn't go get allies or resources or anything new.
She just broke the TARDIS and hoped.
And that worked out, but I don't see how it's the right thing.
Also, apotheosis isn't very interesting. I mean, she just goes whoosh and fixes everything? That only got interesting with Torchwood episode one. Here it's just... look at Rose, suddenly the most special glowy person in all of space and time, because she broke things and decided the one was more important than the many.
I understand doing things for love and never giving up, it just seems... empty?
Flat?
I mean if looking in the TARDIS can do that then the Slitheen had the power too.
It do make more sense if read as TARDIS doing stuff while Rose shaped, but that's not the most obvious reading.
And honestly it just loses my attention once she steps out all omnipotent.
Everything was fun when it was pulling together stuff they already had, but then of a sudden she's just... shiny and ending the time war single handed?
Eh, maybe she's the TARDIS and that 'no more' weapon.
... and I keep trying to find more angles, because glowy is just... bzuh.
... I'm just not there for it for a couple of minutes.
And then the Doctor is all 'you looked into the time vortex', but every time kid does that. So 'that's what I see, all the time' pun very much intended. I do love that bit. And the Doctor dying to save his friend, because he can.
The Doctor was fantastic.
So the whole episode was great and full of payoff and feelings, and then lost me for like a paragraph, just, like, the crucial one it thinks it was building up to.
I don't like Rose. It makes me feel petty, but I don't. So then when she does a thing and it somehow beyond all logic works out great for her, I get... meh. Or mildly grr. Eh.
I do like Jack. All the fun with costumes on the Game Station.
But I had to take a minute after the episode to like stitch it back in to the rest of his story and keep going until a bit where he could get hugs.
Leaving him behind was very big feelings, and not nice ones.
Remember when we thought it was on accident and they'd meet up real soon and everything would be okay again?
*sigh*
So: big episodes, big feelings.
Plus I once wrote an essay on this episode, which got a good grade in a unit that more or less saved my degree when they reorganised, so now I'm just... I used to do more and be better at it and assume the future was a long albeit slow and grinding progress towards improvement. I would get my degree and I would write for Doctor Who and all this being disabled bit would be a bit of a setback, is all.
... I got my degree in 2013 and the future did not look like I thought.
And I can hear Rose's speech and look at my life and just... the boring life she dismisses isn't one I have even if I try my hardest. Go to work every day, like that's easy? And yet still I feel like there's a lot of world needs saving, and I'm not doing my part to save it.
And my part was going to be writing, cause you reach a lot of people that way.
So all there is to do is pick up and try again
but
it's a very big set of feelings first.
So that's today.
and now I have Feelings.
Not entirely positive ones, about the episodes.
But all the regeneration Feelings.
The basic problem is I don't agree Rose did the right thing. She did a dangerous, destructive, and entirely hope based thing. Faith hope and love, generally good. The Doctor choosing to be a coward not a killer, I love that, every time. I even love Rose's speech about never giving up and I understand why she wanted to go back for them.
But the Doctor told her the most important thing was the enemy must not get the TARDIS.
And she took the TARDIS right back to them.
And Rose didn't go get allies or resources or anything new.
She just broke the TARDIS and hoped.
And that worked out, but I don't see how it's the right thing.
Also, apotheosis isn't very interesting. I mean, she just goes whoosh and fixes everything? That only got interesting with Torchwood episode one. Here it's just... look at Rose, suddenly the most special glowy person in all of space and time, because she broke things and decided the one was more important than the many.
I understand doing things for love and never giving up, it just seems... empty?
Flat?
I mean if looking in the TARDIS can do that then the Slitheen had the power too.
It do make more sense if read as TARDIS doing stuff while Rose shaped, but that's not the most obvious reading.
And honestly it just loses my attention once she steps out all omnipotent.
Everything was fun when it was pulling together stuff they already had, but then of a sudden she's just... shiny and ending the time war single handed?
Eh, maybe she's the TARDIS and that 'no more' weapon.
... and I keep trying to find more angles, because glowy is just... bzuh.
... I'm just not there for it for a couple of minutes.
And then the Doctor is all 'you looked into the time vortex', but every time kid does that. So 'that's what I see, all the time' pun very much intended. I do love that bit. And the Doctor dying to save his friend, because he can.
The Doctor was fantastic.
So the whole episode was great and full of payoff and feelings, and then lost me for like a paragraph, just, like, the crucial one it thinks it was building up to.
I don't like Rose. It makes me feel petty, but I don't. So then when she does a thing and it somehow beyond all logic works out great for her, I get... meh. Or mildly grr. Eh.
I do like Jack. All the fun with costumes on the Game Station.
But I had to take a minute after the episode to like stitch it back in to the rest of his story and keep going until a bit where he could get hugs.
Leaving him behind was very big feelings, and not nice ones.
Remember when we thought it was on accident and they'd meet up real soon and everything would be okay again?
*sigh*
So: big episodes, big feelings.
Plus I once wrote an essay on this episode, which got a good grade in a unit that more or less saved my degree when they reorganised, so now I'm just... I used to do more and be better at it and assume the future was a long albeit slow and grinding progress towards improvement. I would get my degree and I would write for Doctor Who and all this being disabled bit would be a bit of a setback, is all.
... I got my degree in 2013 and the future did not look like I thought.
And I can hear Rose's speech and look at my life and just... the boring life she dismisses isn't one I have even if I try my hardest. Go to work every day, like that's easy? And yet still I feel like there's a lot of world needs saving, and I'm not doing my part to save it.
And my part was going to be writing, cause you reach a lot of people that way.
So all there is to do is pick up and try again
but
it's a very big set of feelings first.
So that's today.
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Date: 2019-08-18 01:37 pm (UTC)