beccaelizabeth's dreamwidth journal

a determination to answer my comments just rebounds into not updating until I've answered my comments. *sigh*

they are good comments but I've been having some
answer with 🖖👍🌞
kinds of days.

so, answering comments is likely to wait a little more.

Today I had a 12 minute 'walk', marching on the spot while I watched three vids.
youtube shows ads in between every single vid, usually more than one ad.
that has passed the point of Useable.

I got grumpy because I forgot the last day of November was the last so I ended up in the region of ten minutes activity short of achieving my monthly challenge on my watch.
frustrating.

I have been re-reading fic...

I wrote some paragraphs that boil down to
why are no stories like this exact story I have in my head?
which, obviously, is because I did not write it

or find the fandoms that write similar stuff.

why if high school and university age people having all the adventures makes me so grumpy
do I watch and read
high school and university people having adventures?

an mystery.


Also most tv shows just have a very different idea of what they should be about than I do, so the longer they exist the less I click with them.

Except for, usually, Doctor Who

and Legends of Tomorrow, but I'm quite a bit behind on that due to waiting for DVDs.



For obvious reasons, most fic keeps the story 'verse the same, and just moves the characters around in it. They want to hang out in the world of the story they cared about enough to write it, but they also want these two guys in particular to kiss.

And cool, I have read so much of that. So so much.

But.

I keep getting frustrated because a lot a lot a lot of story 'verses have set ups where
the characters are fine, ish, doing their best
but the whole set up around them is wrong.

Like, I dont want to follow characters around while they do law enforcement,
I want them to get stuck in and fix the laws.

Which is... some of why I fixate on villains?

The ones with a plan to change things and shake things up tend to be villains
while a hero defends the status quo
or some idealised status quo ante that they never quite restore.

It's like, so many stories are about the proper use of power, but then they show people who actually use their power are always doing it wrong. Like the story wasnt about how to do SHIELD right as an international agency, it's about breaking it down so it's a Plucky Band Of Heroes again. Like being hugely out pnumbered is a moral necessity? Which seems rather anti democratic to me.
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So for someone who sat down thinking I did not have many words I wrote a whole lot of words right there.

But it's frustratingly difficult to get them to add up to good story, rather than ongoing grumble.


I shall think more.