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Mar. 13th, 2018 12:52 amReading old fanfic is weirdly like time travel.
There were all these things that were Most Important
and all the corners they'd got into we needed to help them out of
but also all the happy bits that we know... well, we know what happened next
and sometimes it's the reason we quit the fandom
or just what all the next round of fixit fic is about.
And it's weird because we can still write fic about any of it - if I want to reread Extreme Justice and write fic set there, tada, it is possible - but it also feels
like stuff we can't reach
or I can't.
I can do stuff for the characters but the Me that felt those feels is... whole decades away. No fixing any of that.
Can still make presents.
Though I am finding it is really weird to read about teenage heroes, and my long term feeling that they were my age so they kind of always are is instead giving way to an urge to feed them and make sure they wrap up warm
which was not what I was looking for in reading a fic of that rating
but now? every teenage hero feels like an adult failed. like someone should look after them better than that.
not least because when I left off reading at least half of them were dead.
... why do I even this genre anyway?
And why are so few stories about actual adults
... okay, i mean actual middle people like me.
feels like everyone in that age bracket is either mentors to be sidelined and exceeded or actual bad guys to be opposed. i know sometimes they're playing entrenched systems that have failed to solve the problems but i dislike the narrowing of roles.
though there are a lot of aging white guy action heroes.
and i cold watch Agents of Shield.
And Iron Man and Rhodey and...
... okay, I've been reading in DC too long, and somehow leaving out the Justice Society. I miss stories where everyone has a part.
I shall go quest for more stories.
There were all these things that were Most Important
and all the corners they'd got into we needed to help them out of
but also all the happy bits that we know... well, we know what happened next
and sometimes it's the reason we quit the fandom
or just what all the next round of fixit fic is about.
And it's weird because we can still write fic about any of it - if I want to reread Extreme Justice and write fic set there, tada, it is possible - but it also feels
like stuff we can't reach
or I can't.
I can do stuff for the characters but the Me that felt those feels is... whole decades away. No fixing any of that.
Can still make presents.
Though I am finding it is really weird to read about teenage heroes, and my long term feeling that they were my age so they kind of always are is instead giving way to an urge to feed them and make sure they wrap up warm
which was not what I was looking for in reading a fic of that rating
but now? every teenage hero feels like an adult failed. like someone should look after them better than that.
not least because when I left off reading at least half of them were dead.
... why do I even this genre anyway?
And why are so few stories about actual adults
... okay, i mean actual middle people like me.
feels like everyone in that age bracket is either mentors to be sidelined and exceeded or actual bad guys to be opposed. i know sometimes they're playing entrenched systems that have failed to solve the problems but i dislike the narrowing of roles.
though there are a lot of aging white guy action heroes.
and i cold watch Agents of Shield.
And Iron Man and Rhodey and...
... okay, I've been reading in DC too long, and somehow leaving out the Justice Society. I miss stories where everyone has a part.
I shall go quest for more stories.