Exhaustion
May. 27th, 2011 01:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beccaelizabethYou know that dream where you wake up and you wake up and you wake up?
I have not only been having that dream all morning I've been explaining to other bits of the dream that I was having that dream.
And I know it was all morning because the first person to interrupt it was the postman ringing to be let in, and that's at nearly 0900, and the second person was a parcel man knocking on the door, and that's at 1300. I have never been so glad to see a bendy keyboard in my life.
To start with the dream was the one where you wake up and you cannot move, and people break in to the house. I hate that one. Later I could move, but various things were Not As They Seem. And walls and windows and doors and locks were all entirely useless at keeping people out.
At one point I was sitting on the old rose patterned sofa (can still feel the texture, weird) in the old living room at the old house watching the old TV with no remote control and the channels still kept changing. And this was particularly annoying because we'd sat down to watch a Doctor Who special. There was going to be lots of the Doctor all wearing swim costumes. And then there were swim costumes on a beach and noises of someone jumping in the water from a height. And then it changed channels.
Since this was the old series of Doctor Who I'm, erm, not entirely unhappy it did that. Now I'm awake. I was cross as anything in the dream cause there was a Story and I was missing it.
Only then the lady who had been out in the garden spraying roses stepped through the wall and blocked the view of the TV anyway and said it was time to sleep again. I said it was time for Doctor Who and could not be time for sleep. She changed to be wearing red scrubs, which I told her were from an episode of Doctor Who, and then she had a great big needle and injected my arm, and then I was waking up again. Again. Again.
All those people in stories who pinch themselves to see if they're dreaming - doesn't make any sense, I hurt in dreams. I can feel injection ouch and large teeth biting ouch and hitting my head ouch and also pins and needles and that weird twitchy pain I got sometimes when my arm just wouldn't stay still. Dreams just replay things and it has plenty of many things to replay. Can also be cold and have the wind whistle through clothes. Mostly though can feel that horrible creeping terror of not being able to shut things out. Or get up and do anything about it.
Last bit of the dream made a narrative out of all the previous bits - there was a five headed demon monster that had combined all the powers of five beings to become super powerful but also secretly super vulnerable because say the vampire's sunlight aversion wasn't cancelled out by invulnerability from the other bits it just stacked all their flaws together. So five headed demon was using all its powers to hide itself as five seperate beings. But it had one human part that didn't want to be a five headed demon so to keep itself secret it had to keep that part unaware. So every time she woke up something else put her back to sleep.
Note to world: If I am a five headed demon thing just take me sunbathing and the other parts will go up like camera flash powder. And possibly me too but if it's that or that dream where I wake up again again again again then sunbathing it is.
I don't know how long I've been asleep. Longer than 8 hours. The last post I read was after 0100 but before 0200 so it could be 12 hours even. But I'm still absolutely steamrollered. I think I got stuck dreaming for most of them, and it isn't restful. But I went back to bed after the postman and really regretted it, so this time I'm staying on the recliner.
... I typed 'sofa' at first and had a panic I was still stuck in the olds and not awake again. So I checked the textures on everything (consistent with reality) and then realised my new bendy keyboard is new and not a replay of any texture or behaviour from before today's dream. So I am not dreaming. :-)
I love it even more now and I don't even know if it works yet.
I have not only been having that dream all morning I've been explaining to other bits of the dream that I was having that dream.
And I know it was all morning because the first person to interrupt it was the postman ringing to be let in, and that's at nearly 0900, and the second person was a parcel man knocking on the door, and that's at 1300. I have never been so glad to see a bendy keyboard in my life.
To start with the dream was the one where you wake up and you cannot move, and people break in to the house. I hate that one. Later I could move, but various things were Not As They Seem. And walls and windows and doors and locks were all entirely useless at keeping people out.
At one point I was sitting on the old rose patterned sofa (can still feel the texture, weird) in the old living room at the old house watching the old TV with no remote control and the channels still kept changing. And this was particularly annoying because we'd sat down to watch a Doctor Who special. There was going to be lots of the Doctor all wearing swim costumes. And then there were swim costumes on a beach and noises of someone jumping in the water from a height. And then it changed channels.
Since this was the old series of Doctor Who I'm, erm, not entirely unhappy it did that. Now I'm awake. I was cross as anything in the dream cause there was a Story and I was missing it.
Only then the lady who had been out in the garden spraying roses stepped through the wall and blocked the view of the TV anyway and said it was time to sleep again. I said it was time for Doctor Who and could not be time for sleep. She changed to be wearing red scrubs, which I told her were from an episode of Doctor Who, and then she had a great big needle and injected my arm, and then I was waking up again. Again. Again.
All those people in stories who pinch themselves to see if they're dreaming - doesn't make any sense, I hurt in dreams. I can feel injection ouch and large teeth biting ouch and hitting my head ouch and also pins and needles and that weird twitchy pain I got sometimes when my arm just wouldn't stay still. Dreams just replay things and it has plenty of many things to replay. Can also be cold and have the wind whistle through clothes. Mostly though can feel that horrible creeping terror of not being able to shut things out. Or get up and do anything about it.
Last bit of the dream made a narrative out of all the previous bits - there was a five headed demon monster that had combined all the powers of five beings to become super powerful but also secretly super vulnerable because say the vampire's sunlight aversion wasn't cancelled out by invulnerability from the other bits it just stacked all their flaws together. So five headed demon was using all its powers to hide itself as five seperate beings. But it had one human part that didn't want to be a five headed demon so to keep itself secret it had to keep that part unaware. So every time she woke up something else put her back to sleep.
Note to world: If I am a five headed demon thing just take me sunbathing and the other parts will go up like camera flash powder. And possibly me too but if it's that or that dream where I wake up again again again again then sunbathing it is.
I don't know how long I've been asleep. Longer than 8 hours. The last post I read was after 0100 but before 0200 so it could be 12 hours even. But I'm still absolutely steamrollered. I think I got stuck dreaming for most of them, and it isn't restful. But I went back to bed after the postman and really regretted it, so this time I'm staying on the recliner.
... I typed 'sofa' at first and had a panic I was still stuck in the olds and not awake again. So I checked the textures on everything (consistent with reality) and then realised my new bendy keyboard is new and not a replay of any texture or behaviour from before today's dream. So I am not dreaming. :-)
I love it even more now and I don't even know if it works yet.