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I knew I would hate the ending. I had read the spoilers, so I knew I hated the ending. So the mood I am now in, having watched the ending, is of my own choosing.

But seriously, I hated that ending.

And it's not the god stuff. I resigned myself to ignoring the god stuff before I sat down to these last two. The god stuff is annoying and boring because it takes all emotional/rational cause and effect out of the story and just leaves the whole thing being Because God. Boooooooring.

What I hate?

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I might possibly be stroppy about this for a while.
... okay, less of the might.

And this is annoying, because I already knew the ending, so I guess I figured I wouldn't have a feelings about it again. Except I just watched these people for long and long and long, and then all that happens?

stupid.

*sulks*




So, hey, surprise, I care enough about the characters to be annoyed about the ending, yet liked basically none of the writing choices the further along it went, or the particular things that happened to most of them. I just get attached and then sulk.

I don't think I'm attached enough to go seek out fanfic, but, as with many stories before it, it would be fix its all the way.




Having seen the whole box set now I'm actually glad I gave up on the show when I did and waited for the set to be as cheap as it was. If I'd been watching one episode a week I would have had a very long time to be in a bad mood. As it is I'm likely to have forgotten about it by Monday.



Other things I kind of hate about BSG, much of which is potentially triggering: ( Read more... )

So I don't think it was much good, in the end. It made me care about everyone enough that the ending hurt and made me sad. But from maybe as far back as second season every time it made a choice it chose the things I found least interesting, or most annoying, or possibly actively evil, sometimes.



And that is frustrating, because I liked so many of the parts at the beginning.



I guess I'll just have to write. Then I can choose the ways I'd like better.

Have been listening to Prodigy while thinking about martial arts movies.

One of the Highlander characters with the same name as me tells her student "Choose your ground, choose your weapon, and face what is to come."

I think a lot of people skip over step one. But the ground is key.

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well that ramble wasn't much about what I started out thinking on. I'll go do something else instead.

Having bought the whole 5 seasons for £29.99 I have been watching them, starting where I left off, with season 3. I just finished it and... I'm feeling kind of like I paid the right price for these? I mean, ( Read more... )

So, the thing where I stopped watching? I'm agreeing with earlier me.

Hence the feeling like I spent about the right amount on these discs.

But, I'm going to go watch some more tomorrow. Now I have them they may be depressing and... well, other kinds of depressing... but unless I have to bail out for my own mental health then I might as well watch. Bits of it are even interesting.

I went to Sunday breakfast on my own and bought juice and ribena and bread and some more music. I win at Sunday.

... my world is really small. The 3D one anyways. Online is very much bigger.

... I am so glad of the internet.

I've been playing Sims 3 with the World Adventures expansion. My big box computer can't quite keep up, it seems, despite what it said on the game box. Or possibly I misread the game box, I don't know, computer is its own language. It keeps being stuttery and getting stuck, and this morning I played about six hours before it crashed and turned out not to have saved the game at all at all. You have to go and press save. It's annoying.

I looked at the task manager while the game was stuck and the CPU graph was all squished flat against the top of the box. Too much busy. So maybe I need more computer? But I bought it to play games on. Boo.

Maybe I should get a games console? Do they get stuck?

Mostly though I should do things that involve leaving the house. That would be more better.

Sims is fun when it works. I like going digging through tombs. Also I like that if you mourn at the tombs then secrets show up. Like, be decent human, get shiny.

I like the gardening and nectar making and fishing and cooking. The martial arts is a bit limited though. Like, you can use it for formal sparring, but not when fighting a burglar. Also the sparring is weird, I went to do a tournament and the sims kept going in the bathroom to fight. It's weird enough that they'll go to the base camp but not the martial arts academy, but once there, bathroom.

So far I have only one sim in a house and I'm not spending much time on making friends when it's not required for an adventure. Last time I played Sims I got depressed cause they have a better social life than me. :eyeroll: Mostly though I just get bored with telling them to go chat when I could be making things.



Today was cleaner day and I did my half of the jobs and ran the dishwasher and right now the laundry is running. Yaay for accomplishments.


I'm also vaguely watching some Musketeers. It's very brown, isn't it? I mean, it's like they don't know colors happen. Brown and black clothes and more brown and also some black. And even the blue musketeer uniform cloak is a mushy boring blue. History was not washed out. It should have some zing. Plus they were red team and blue team, not brown and also brown. Blergh. I'd worry my TV was busted but it's fine for everything else so they must have just decided to muddy up this one show and make brown things that clearly should be colors.

Mostly though I'm bored of the stories and characters. I keep watching the first twenty minutes while I eat and stopping to put the plates away and then not really caring enough to watch the other half. I do watch it, because it's not like I've got anything else to watch, but blergh boring.

Also they're all stupid. Stupid to make the plot work. One wonders why these particular musketeers keep being picked to do things when they're such stupid heads.


Bored.



Not even bored in a way that can be bothered to do better things with the characters. Pretty though Aramis is. I'm just bored.


Back to reading Avengers fic then.

Random thought about my Stargate space colony: it's supposed to be funded mainly by mining.
And I have decided that any story that could involve giving actors jobs should have at least one character of restricted growth.

... 7 mining technicians just introduced themselves, and I can't decide if it's a terrible idea...

see I decided to make more roles for short actors after I saw a documentary that featured some people who have spent their entire careers in Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. Years and years and years. In the same panto. Sometimes playing a different dwarf. I cannot even imagine how tired you get of the hi ho song. ... actually that probably applies even without being an actor.

... but, mining, and my current approach to characters of 'fanfic all the things'...

also, if I'm playing with the sarcophagus, there's plots about what constitutes healing and how disability is constructed and how it impacts / interacts with identity. Like, there's some ways of ending up short that might be 'healed', and others that would not, if the sarc takes a pattern from genetics and then resets everything to that specification. so a group of people to have different experiences would be helpful.

... but possibly still *facepalm* of me for thinking of it...

It's a story I was going to do in the Rhodri 'verse, only if you start with 200 colonists you can bring more variety from the get go and do the same story lots of different ways at once.




There's the thing where any story I sit down and make words on is a better story than the ones that never get made, but that only applies to the making of them, not the releasing them into the wild.

My brain is super helpful. So I end up with weird math in the space tag. Possibly also rhodri or stargate tags? I should have thought of a consistent tag if I ever wanted to find it all again.

So I worked out that a single stargate activation could easily let through 200 standard shipping containers, the artics carrying them, and whatever passengers fitted in the cabs. Or, of course, a shipping container full of people, but I'm making lines to color inside, so say each colonist brings one container and a theoretical 25 tons of cargo plus their personal backpack load. Then the lorries unload, turn around, dial home, and drive back.

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200 people with stories that hook into sarcophagus use and leaving to build a new world.

Who would you bring?

... and how many others would they bring, on ice, on the hope?

Annoying game keeps telling me I won.
I didn't want to win, I wanted to build.
*sulks*


... also, wants the alien planet Stargate style version...


... except I also kind of hate this game. I think I just played it for ten hours in a row, but, I don't think I like it. Stupid thing made of fiddly buttons. Can't get the soldiers fighting bit to work properly. I know what I want them to do - archers protect the artillery advance, spears protect both from cavalry charges, roll forward slowly while building lots of auto firing watchtowers behind them, find the enemy keep and kabooms it. What I can actually get them to do? Make as many soldiers of all types as possible, select them all, send them to vaguely the right map area, hope they don't all die. They have all sorts of clever options supposed to change their behaviour, but they're too busy dying for me to learn what they are, let alone set them right. Stupid things. Also, they should cost more the more you have to recruit the same sort, because it would take either greed or idiocy to fling themselves into combat where their predecessors had been spent as profligately as I can manage. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Also I can't figure out how to select just the serfs, to make them build more stuff or to make them run away, so they just die a lot because they get muddled in with the soldiers. That's not really a mistake they would make, if orders involved shouting at them rather than trying to select them with stupid clicky buttons.

The 'hero' abilities are rubbish too. Can't get them to actually do anything noticeable anyway. Boo.

I like making the pretty buildings, but that's about it.


... this probably won't stop me playing it some more.

... I need to do things that are far less boring.



On the plus side I'm back round to being awake in the mornings, so shortly the doing of things will get far simpler. Seeing as there isn't much to do at 0300 around here.



Also, I think 100% of the playable characters are blokes.
There's one girl in the story parts so far, but that was his mum, and she was only there so she could die.
That's pretty pathetic.


Maybe I should go back to playing Sims but buy the newer version with more pretty things.

Building characters in GURPS is so frustrating. It kind of has to be, because to be proper generic it has to have All The Options, which means fiddling around for half way to forever trying to pick out specific options. Also I can never resist trying to use the martial arts rules and then remembering there's too many billions of options for me to ever get the hang of the martial arts rules.

Today I re installed GURPS Character Assistant and built two characters. Like, I've been awake a whole day, and that was what I did. Two. Characters.

Also, since I only use them as inspiring templates for characters I never end up actually writing, and since one of the characters was basically trying to be generic Hawkeye in medieval world, that was kind of pointless. *sigh* But he ended up different because I got frustrated over how much his bow would cost. I can't figure out if I bought him any actual arrows, the equipment list is too long, but if I didn't I certainly did buy a tool kit and the parts to make more arrows, so he can stop off and do that. But to get him a decent bow I had to buy signature gear, only I couldn't find the button so to start with I was just trading points for money which works out far more point expensive, so eventually I had to buy him an Enemy just so I had the points to get him a bow. And then I had lots of spare points, so, a bow and a decent horse and some light leather armour. So his enemy, his brother, is somehow connected to the acquisition of horse, armour, and bow. Reckon there's story in that.

There's story in everything, I just never sit down and write them.

Sometimes I like the fiddly numbers and other times I just get annoyed that I can't make them dance in that particular program. ... and yet I'm sitting here planning to write up a third character next.

I have no idea how it plays. Haven't had a group to use it with.

But with enough bending the edges I can indeed invent any character I can think of with accompanying chances of success, which is pretty cool, and doing what it says on the tin.

It is chinese food delivery friday, but for a few weeks now that routine has not quite worked because Agents of SHIELD isn't on TV, and this week it's even worse because my TV reception is busted. According to the loud dude on the landing outside the aerial is busted or rusted or (rudewords) and the people who came out to see it can't fix it without permissions from somewhere. He had a lot to say about that. A lot. I had my door closed but I could hear him having a lot to say. So I'm just going to guess that everyone's TV is screwed and they'll all be grumpy for the forseeable. Lovely.

Also the front door lock is busted again/still, my cleaner noted it on Tuesday, I should remember to phone that repair in again.

BUT, today, I had a plan: The Hobbit Extended edition, with mum. Because I have two recliners now, even if one is the one I replaced for being a bit busted, mum says it's very comfy. So we can sit and watch things. And mum went with me to see the part in the cinemas right now without mentioning she hadn't seen the first part until we were on the bus. So that was easy to fix. And I got the extended edition at the supermarket and hadn't seen it yet. So I could watch new bits and mum could watch new film and we could have fun.

So that took from 7pm to 11pm. :-)

The food delivery did not quite work right. I phoned, and then it was more than an hour, and so I phoned again. The food was ready but they were waiting on a driver, they said. So it was time delay food. But it was still food, so that was okay by me.

Also I had to go to the supermarket just to get the cash so I can pay for the food delivery. It is a cunning part of this plan, to make a routine that requires cash, so I have to leave the house to keep supplied. So I went to Morrisons and bought bread and juice and frozen vegetables. In the dark. And cold. But thankfully it wasn't wet, so that was nice.

... I just did the tags on this entry and I guess that was quite a busy evening.

Yaay.

:-)

Have been playing Fate and listening to Doctor Who audios.
Have been a bit bored, actually.

It's not that the Doctor Who was bad, mostly, it just wasn't especially good. Possibly I am bored of all the things again? I do like Turlough though, when he gets to do anything.

Last one I wrote about was 159 The Emerald Tiger. After that there was 160 The Jupiter Conjunction, ( Read more... )

161 The Butcher of Brisbane was also fun for Turlough. ( Read more... )

In conclusion, Turlough is best. ... this is not a surprising conclusion and is an opinion I have held since he was first on TV.

So when the next few stories had not only no Turlough but no regular companions, it lost like 60% of my interest at once. The Burning Prince, The Acheron Pulse, and The Shadow Heart. 5, 6 and 7 successively sort out the same empire, and same prince. ... they don't do it very well, obviously. I kind of liked that ( Read more... )

So I decide on balance they were just okay. Not bad, not good, not... likely to be re-listened-to any time soon.



Today's listening was 168, 1001 Nights. 5 and Nyssa. And... some of it was actually bad. Nobody was very interesting. Screechy voice sound effects were boring. And I know the beginning bit is supposed to be Nyssa telling a story badly, but it kind of seems like the simplest explanation for some of the later bits too. So now I'm bored and grumpy. I did like ( Read more... )

The thing where I'm sitting here trying to disassemble the stories for parts does kind of show how I felt about them. One big 'could do better'.



So now I'm wondering if I'm in a bad mood, if I've stopped liking Doctor Who, or if I just wasn't impressed with this handful of stories.


... I was very impressed with the Ace and Hex stories, so I guess it's either my mood for some days now or just these few stories.



Also, possibly, it might help to mix my media consumption a bit more. Listening to so much Doctor Who in a row might not be the best way.



But most of the TV channels are too weak to actually receive, something is busted, probably not something in my flat because it has done this before and swapping things didn't help but it did fix itself eventually, so now I'm wondering how the TV gets to my flat and if that bit is busted. But, it makes things boring. More boring.

There is quite a lot of boring lately.



Also I was grumpy because I didn't go to Norwich for the science fiction group, again, because... well this time it was less because going out is hard and getting home is harder, though that does still always apply, it was more that I started doing paperworks things and didn't catch the bus. I should probably have tried anyway. I been annoyed about it all since.
... but it still would be quite hard going out in the dark cold rain to catch a bus and phone for a taxi home when the pubs close and all that stuff as usually defeats me.

I need to start doing things. Interesting things. Almost anythings.

Ever since yuletide I've been meaning to post my favourites here, but instead they lurk over on my tumblr only. This is because it takes one button to put them on tumblr. (One). Which then makes it feel like two or more buttons to put them here as well is just many buttons.

... and yet, tumblr, still made of annoying and why...


but, link to many yuletide things I liked: http://beccaelizabeth315.tumblr.com/tagged/yuletide