ugh, email

Dec. 22nd, 2014 06:05 am
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my email places just did an upgrade.
They told us in advance, it sounded okay, I tried to be relaxed about it.
I emailed on Friday just to be really sure that my mail wouldn't get lost in this process, and they emailed me back to assure me that nope, it was on the new server already, everything would be copied over before they switched, worry not.

Guess what email is missing from my inbox today?

... yeah, so, as far as I can see my mail has been returned to the state it was in on Friday at just about 3pm, when I emailed them. That mail is still in the sent box, but their reply is nowhere.

And my first new email of the week was picked up when I logged on a few minutes ago, about 0600 GMT.

So, anyone who actually wanted me to get a message this weekend?
yeah, that ... that may not work.

I don't know.

I shall try contacting them when there's more likely to be humans around, I just... I'm currently really glad I sent that email on Friday because I don't know what it would look like elsewise.

Also now I am poking it a lot to try and make it behave most like it did yesterday. I liked it yesterday. Today all the buttons are in new places and it several times needs telling to display my folders.
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Longest day or longest night, the year is turning.
May your futures be bright.
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Mum was helpful and we were brave and we did Sunday shopping the weekend before xmas.
There are all the humans. Trolleys right behind me! Trying to go across the center aisle with two lanes of traffic bumper to bumper!
Me in the way of other humans :-(
Maybe grab things other humans were reaching for. Is quite difficult when all the things have multiple humans at them. :-(

But there was also a very small child wearing a Gruffalo suit, so that was nice.

I got snappish though. I dislike it when I do that, yet failed in my attempts to calm down. And then the cheesly turned out to not be sealed proper when I got to the checkout, and I think I was a bit snap about that too. Not awesome. And then I'd bought more than usual so the usual arrangement of bags did not work and the loads were uneven and I had a bit of a flap about it.

But I did it! And xmas meal is definitely achieved! I have quorn and vegetables and microwave chips anyway. Yorkshire puddings and roast potato are clearly superior but I haven't the cooker to make them in. If mum had a keep it warm box she could make them and bring them, but that would be more work for mum and not so great. Mum said she'd bring knorr vegetable stock to make gravy though so it will be fancy eatings.

I don't know how well xmas at my house is going to work, really. But it will have much less cat allergy that way, so I feel it is worth a try.

I shall have to make sure plates and knives and forks are all clean and ready.

Two of my knives snapped today. ASDA knife fork spoon teaspoon set is *rubbish*, the stupid things keep snapping where the plastic meets the metal, teaspoons before and knives today.

... aaaaand I'm still cranky.

(too many humans)

Next year I will have a sensible plan instead.
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My fridge is empty except for margerine which is nearly at its sell by.
I have no drinks except two bottles of lucozade and two cartons of the orange juice I turn out not to like; I don't even have Ribena.
I have no bread or breadlike stuff or breakfast cereal.

Or toothbrushes. Those have run out.

And it is the weekend before Christmas.

Wow, that's totally going to be easy to fix. With no delivery slots available until after xmas. And every other human realising roughly the same thing with more trimmings.

I do have a shelf full of pasta, a cupboard of sauces, and a freezer with both vegetables and quorn. Plus some microwave chips. I should check the use by on them though. There's also soup, but soup without bread is annoying.

I won't starve, basically, I'll just be drinking water and eating leftover surprise.

Except for the Christmas meal, which I invited mum for, which I'm still pretty sure I have all the parts for. Pretty sure. Probably.

... except for also they would be drinking water. And there's no cakelike course or anything.


I will be leaving the house tomorrow to go view a house in Norwich, I shall have to deal with other humans then, possibly I shall go to shops on the way home?

There's going to be a lot of humans around this week whatever I do.

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why do my neighbours suck so much?
it is 0119. in the morning. normal people understand that this is not a loud music kind of hour.

actually sometimes I start worrying they've secretly died and left the stereo on. that would be bad and then I'd feel bad for being annoyed at them. but so far that hasn't happened as far as I know.

on the plus side I've had several hours of sleep already. on the minus side it's 0120 in the morning.
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The line between 'utterly tone deaf to race' and 'actually actively racist' is... I guess more of an overlapping venn diagram thing. But can't they at least see how stupidly cliche the role of Scary Black Man of the Week is? Read more... )
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I'm really bad at quitting watching things.
I watched 2-08 on 4oD yesterday, and it was not boring, but it was still annoying.
Read more... )

Mostly it is not interesting, and it is prioritizing the stories of white guys, even clearly and completely evil white guys, rather than spending time on any of the more awesome cast.

I just feel sad they've chosen to use their hour a week on this. This isn't what I wanted and is frequently what I actively do not want.
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There is wallpaper in the roundels and columns design color matched to the TARDIS console room of the 1980s.
I want.
Rolls are 52cm wide, and the TARDIS console room pattern they demonstrate it with goes like:
column roundel roundel roundel column roundel roundel column roundel roundel roundel column
12 widths of wallpaper, so you'd need 6.24m for that whole pattern.
(Which would need 2 rolls of roundel and 1 roll of column, £35 each, for a £105 wall.)

My long term plan for a house has different folders for Living Room and for Dining Room, because about half the houses I've looked at do that, but the other half are just one long living/dining room.

So the flat I'm fiddling with numbers for today has a living room that both estate agents reckon is 6.40*3.63m

The window is in one short wall, the door and radiators on one long wall.

So that's one short wall and one long wall that are only interrupted by plugs.

I could do the whole console room pattern. With a couple of inches to spare at the edges that could need filling in with color matched paint or could do something colorful or shiny to mitgate the grey.

... that would look grand.

Read more... )

Okay, boring hour before people get to the office is all done, now difficult hours of phoning people shall start.
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It is December, and everyone is shutting down and going on leave for the holidays.
Which is lovely for them, obviously, but it means I have not even the slightest chance of support until January 5th.
I still get the cleaner. This year xmas has not interrupted the cleaner. I am very glad of this.
But everything else? Give up until 2015.

Not that I have 'support' anyway, I have some nice people at a charity willing but not on the whole able to go with me to view houses.

I really, really, really miss when I had an employee.
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Firefox stopped moving, I ended it with the task manager, it came back and said 'well this is embarrassing' but only for like a second and then it went to my home pages instead of letting me get any/all of my windows and tabs back.

So many windows. Soooooo many!

... which, I am aware, contributes to the crashing problem.

So now I'm once again poking around in History, though the tab groups I made last time this happened helped quite a bit. Got my top three always on windows and groups open pretty quickly, it's just finding the things I was planning to read later and just had left open. Like some unread series on Ao3. I know you can bookmark series and tag them as unread, and I know you can subscribe which will tell you any new things, but is there even a way to Mark to Read a whole series? I know I could open the first one and mark it. I probably have for some things. It's just fiddlier.

... so many pages in the history. how do I read so many? ugh, now it's back to looking at all week. I'm sure it doesn't even have half the things. Like my shopping list at the sparkly gloves shop, that was all just open tabs. why so difficult?

The ultimate solution is to get my computers fixed, I do know, but it ain't a great time of year for such endeavours.


Dec. 16th, 2014 06:06 pm
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Reasons I should not answer the phone while I need sleep this much:
I just invited mum & sibling to my house for xmas.
... there is only room for three chairs because I turned the desk around. 'room' is generous. possibly two of those chairs can see the TV? also they had the bolts fall out before. I should check bolts before anyone else sits on them. there is no table for eatings at. maybe for one person? and a tray and my usual board.
All food must be microwavable, since I only have a microwave.
granted last year we more or less microwaved xmas, but the more or less is of concern.
also mum has decided sibling can't eat quorn? all previous data suggests quorn eating has happened. last year I wrote down the xmas meal and quorn was consumed. still, could be problem. also half of quorn not go in microwave anyway.

but the alternative is to go to mum's house, where the cat has learnt to open the doors, so I will be randomly exposed to allergens from the source depending on if it likes our food. also just standing in there on Saturday made my eyes prickle and my throat make little coughs. it is not so much nice. mum said she'd cover the furniture but I wasn't touching anything anyway just standing there. but maybe I'm over reacting and could just ignore it?

except I wrote down about allergic reactions to stuff last year, so possibly not.

so my house is better, except for the thing where I do not own a cooker, and don't quite trust the furniture.

as long as muppet christmas carol happens then christmas has been achieved
this I very probably can do.
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Household tasks achieved. Cleaner Day prepared for. Vacuum cleaning done for my half of the house. I will tolerate the cleaner doing the other half. Dishwasher is emptied and filled, and laundry is filled and running. which is a bit of an error because now it will be loud when the cleaner gets here, but I forgot to pause the routine just before pushing the start button, so, laundry happens.

It is a perennial frustration that this with the loud and the yuck and the bending lifting cleaning stupid loud loud vacuum cleaner just remains just as difficult. It is the most difficult regular task I do. And it's just really annoying that difficult is even a word that applies to stupid tiny cleanering.

Also today there is phoning and waiting. If there is too much waiting then it becomes useless to have phoned. But I can't do anything unless they contact me back to say go ahead.

that is true of so many things its epic depressing to think about

I think I like much better the dragons game. Much prettier.


Dec. 16th, 2014 09:21 am
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I hate using the phone, none the words sound right and I sound daft.
Also nobody is ever on the other end of it when they say they are, yet their email works so poorly I'm meant to phone them to tell them I emailed.
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am playing with dragons on
registration open today I think a few more hours

there are shiny things to collect and dragons can make more dragons and also have battles

may be some time
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Note to self: The 'handwash' setting on the washing machine seems to work fine, in that the thing seems clean now and also in one piece and with the colours in their right places, BUT
there's now a big puddle in the kitchen, under where I hung it up to dry.

This was predictable and I am a stupid head.

So I threw a bunch of kitchen paper towels into the puddle, but still, that was not a great plan and could continue to be a not-great plan in an expanding and possibly slippery way.

and this is only 0915, the day has only begun.

I have figured out that washing the thing with mirrors on in the washing machine will only make it an ex washing machine with mirrors in, but I think the alternative is not washing the thing, or putting it in the bath to just be soaking wet forever in there. that seems ineffective.

I should probably stick to my resolve to only keep the things the machine can wash.

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Decide not to watch Agents of SHIELD
realise the recorder box didn't record Agents of SHIELD
... poke the internet for the episode just in case I decide to watch Agents of SHIELD...

... yes I predict the next chapter is 'actually figure out how to watch 4 on demand on the computer hooked up to the big TV, to watch Agents of SHIELD'...

... but I still have reasons to decide not to watch Agents of SHIELD.
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Went to sibling's xmas party.
There was food and humans.
Read more... )

Now I have been awake since midnight on 4 hours sleep, so probably I will go sleep. That will be nice.
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It is frustrating when fanfic has, like, a completely opposites world view of what a relationship is about.

Like, I'm reading for pairings that work together and learn how to fit that way first, with a shared goal and friendship, and then kind of blink and notice the sexy.

But I keep finding fics about these same guys that just throw them into bed together at first sight, and oh, hey, turns out we work together pretty okay too.

Which is kind of boring and feels like a different genre? Like, porn or romance assumptions, not fanfic that has so much everyday life together as canon to work with.

And I know AUs do that because they think it's romantic to be destined to be together and just click like they've been waiting for each other all their lives, but it seems opposite of romantic to me, like, if the characters only know what each other look like, then they're all hollow and puppety and I can only believe in lust at first sight. Saying that every version of the two of them would be together kind of only works if every version has the significant things in common. Or else it's just meat.

I'm sure some people are mostly there for the pretty, but, not my thing.

I mean there's characters where I don't fancy that actor as anyone else they've been, just that one character, so it's totally not about looks. Or I always fancy that character however the comics or TV or movies visually interpret them, even cartoons, so it's very much not about the meat they're wearing. Which is one reason I like text based fanfic.

So I just don't get it when two characters just look at each other and pounce and it's supposed to be romantic. Sexy, sure, but not romantic.
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I'm quite irritated today, or to put it another way, I keep thinking of stabbing stuff.
I shall play a computer game and stab only pixels, no worries, but I am very grrrr.

This morning I got a message the house I was trying to view got sold to someone else. Presumably someone who could actually view it. Somehow.
I am very frustrated because, lacking support, I can't bloody get anywhere.

Also when I phoned mum this morning she explained at greater length the perils of solo house viewing, including but not limited to a dead estate agent one time in the 80s and a weird creepy guy when mum's friend was viewing houses who said he'd been putting that house on the market for five years and wanted to show them things in his wardrobe. It was quite a long explain. But the upshot is that I should not in fact just say sod it and go see houses without another human I trust.

Also there was a detour via only hiring reputable taxis from actual taxi companies.

One of her solutions to this was to just go hire humans from an agency, but even mum swiftly noticed that means hiring humans I've never met before and have no context of and is basically going places with total strangers in the exact way she just warned me off.

It's nice that she notices this now. This is the background noise of being disabled, letting total strangers in my house every week if they're the ones that happen to turn up.

So I'm angry and frustrated and stuck.

So I went to the supermarket to buy my magazine. Which worked. So now I have a couple hours of home decorating to read whenever I'm in the mood.

I think I shall stick with stabby games for a while, I'd just get grumpy all over it at the minute.

I'm in the exact same situation I was this time last year, only it's after an extra year of trying to get people to do things they're supposed to do.

Mostly people don't even answer messages. How can I get things to change if they don't even answer messages?

Mum says I should apply my own money to the problem but I have asked of that in the past and not got useful replies. There's a thing with taxes and a thing with insurance and a lot of things. Also it would be rather a lot of money and would swiftly cut in to what I'm hoping to spend on a house.

When the point of the house is to move somewhere I wouldn't need so much support, it is frustrating that a lack of support is making it bloody difficult to buy a house.

Also, it's possible this plan is only possible until the end of the year, in which case it's already screwed because houses take more than a week to buy and everyone helpful is on leave anyway. Except I don't know, that's not what's been said lately. So I'll just keep doing the plan.

(I'd really like a plan that works.)
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I wasn't exactly enamoured of the first book in the Foreigner series, but I usually like the author, so I've bought more.

Bren is a stupidhead who spends most of his time apologising for being shot at. He makes things happen, but very seldom on purpose. And there's a whole lot of men around, even if the best character is someone's grandmother.

But okay, it's a long series and it's readable. Also I figure it's maybe like one of those series where he starts as an ensign? So maybe possibly he will be less stupid as he goes along?

I would say it would be difficult to be more stupid, except there's a character introduced in this one pretty much to demonstrate what more stupid looks like. Who is unfortunately a woman. A lot of the opposition are women, while current power is male. It's weird and slightly creepy. And quite a lot like a lot of Cherryh's other books. But then the vast majority of them are decades worth of time travel, being written across a long career, so, *shrugs*

Two books in, I'm still hoping it'll get good eventually. I've bought the third already though, so I'll read that too.

Cherryh's thing that she's good at is alien concepts that do not translate. People that stay fundamentally different even after you understand them. So you start out with a word that is crucial to the aliens but baffling to the humans, and the story demonstrates what it means. Aliens are wired different, and that matters. But they're not mono cultures, in this series especially, they also have cultural differences on top of the biological ones, so you get different ways the alien biological imperatives and impulses can play out.

It's just the narrator, on the whole, doesn't understand them, so there's a lot of blundering about making mistakes about it.

The hero of the series is a translator - the translator, the only one on the whole planet the treaty allows. And the untranslatables are key.

Hence looking like a stupidhead a lot.

This particular set of aliens don't have love or friendship. You can't say you like someone, it's the same word as liking a particular food and it sounds really conceptually weird to them. What they have is equally weird and mysterious to humans, including the point of view guy. He sort of blunders about trying to make friends and reminding himself there's no such thing and then still trying some more. Except then at the end whatever social connections he has managed to form end up working real well, so that's just... baffling and odd.

So I guess that's one why I don't precisely like these books. They're all about social bafflement and I can get that at home, so to speak.

But I keep on wanting to like them, because complex political thriller with aliens, and a lot of sequels, that sounds like my kind of fun. Just, so far, it's more of a way to fill in hours without it actively sucking. Which works, but, you know, I kind of keep trying to like it more.
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From the BBC4 Castles documentary series (which is a whole different one to the BBC2 one I've apparently missed most of already, and will need the iplayer for):

Kenilworth castle. Longest seige on English soil. 172 days. They held out against barges across the waterworks, against towers, and against tunnels. Heavy seige engines pounded the walls, to no avail.

And the whole time they left the gates open.

Now that's great big stone ones.
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I did my half of cleaner day again.
The vacuum cleaner is loud and squeaky and annoying and does not make that easier at all at all.
But the whole thing only takes 45 minutes from my alarm waking me up, if I just up and do all the things.
that's including putting away dry laundry, and vacuuming my half of the house (mostly, I still need to do in front of the chair and in the DVD corner but it don't reach easy and I got fed up of the noise, and I did the corner with the radiator in for the first time in memory because I moved all the furniture to leave it accessible the other night, so I win anyway), and putting everything in bins and leaving them in the cleaner's half, and emptying the fridge freezer of all the past date stuff (the weird coconut not-icecream had a best before in September, oops), and emptying and filling the dishwasher. That's all the things. It is not very many things really.
... it's a challenging routine for me, it's embarrassing.

Later will be Cleaner Day but I don't know when exactly because the usual cleaner is having a week off. Sometimes unusual cleaners arrive at unusual times. Also sometimes they don't clean very well, so I hope it's one of the nice ones. I don't know why anyone would be a cleaner and not clean things but they do. I guess money. Probably nobody likes the job. Hmmm, no, humans are many and varied, some of them will like cleaning, there's a rule.

And in about 6 hours the new food arrives. Until then I have hula hoops and dry cereal due to a slight food flow error on account of not shopping on Sunday. December is awkward.
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I got the dry cleaned coats out of their bag and I am impressed. They've got the hair dye out of the best coat. Granted its a bit white around the collar now, but that beats a red coat being very black around the collar. That was just embarrassing. Goth hair does that though, that wasn't just my neck in general.

The winter warm rainbows coat is still mostly rainbows too. Given that it had no label or care instructions I'm calling that a win.

I also ran the dishwasher. Woohoo, excitement.

... okay, so, being nocturnal is calm, but not interesting.

All the jobs for the day are noisy. I can't do the vacuum cleaning or run the washing machine at three in the morning. Not after 11, meaning no starting the laundry after 9 or it'll spin loud late, or before 7, I reckon, and even then I suspect neighbours would consider that really very early.
Probably I'll go to sleep again anyway.

I ate the quorn shepherds pie. Now I'm imagining a quorn shepherd, with a flock of weird fungus shapes. It's very Doctor Who.

New food is being delivered at 6pm, because I keep on not ordering until the lunch time slots are gone.

I played 'My Kingdom for the Princess 4' some more. any given level looks like it takes about a quarter hour at most, but then you want to replay it to get the gold stars, so its rare it takes less than an hour. I have one level left to get a star on. I can't currently see how to do it any better, so I'll keep trying things randomly until it works.
I like the games with building things and making things better. Much better than killing things games, generally. Though with this one you get to do both, cause there's dragons and ghosts and golems and stuff. It's all clicky timing and chosing the right sequence though, not very combat looking. You just pay your knights to go do the thing and get on with collecting golds and so forth.
I found a way to get the workers stuck. Actually it took a while to figure out that they were stuck, let alone why. There's a fixed pile of resources behind a timed pile, so you can click on the fixed pile when there's a path to it, and then the timed pile pops up in front of it, and your workers can no longer do the next thing in the sequence. And you can't click on the thing that's stuck, because it's blocked. Everything else needs unclicking and doing again to get them going. And you've still lost time you can't afford. So I started the level over again and now I have to be careful about not trying to take that pile before everything around it is cleared.
That's very irritating.

But I do like almost everything else about the game, except the rescuing princesses thing, though you do also rescue princes and kings too, so I guess that's fair, just overly traditional.

I am so bored.

I'll go be bored without telling the internet about it.
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Today I woke up, late, got up, eventually, went to do the tasks of the day, failed at Contact People due to people not being contactable, ran into that thing where I have had no help for a really long time and have not in fact been less disabled in that time and things are just not getting done including the things that would mean more things could get done, and just gave up and went back to bed.

Also, with xmas coming, people are going on holiday or leave or whatever they call it, and things are pretty much a bust until January, yet the same usual jobs need doing as ever.

It's not that I resent other people having happy holidays, it's just I'd kind of like it to be less disruptive of routine, but I know not to say that out loud directly to people.

It's just if you add everything together December is basically for hibernating and hoping things work out better next year.

There is a house I would quite like to view. The estate agent suggests tomorrow or Thursday 0900-1400. But no one is available to support me, and people keep telling me it's not a thing that is safe to do alone. I don't understand why. On the whole things are pretty safe mostly. Except for roads. And sometimes humans. And this involves both roads and humans. But nothing thus far that would have been unsafe, that I noticed.

I'd just really like it if I could do things and cope with life. That sounds like more fun.

Or, possibly, get the help I used to get and am still entitled to, which enabled me to do things and cope with life. That was more fun than this.

I think I'm going to have to get stubborn about waking up in the day time and staying that way. Even if I have nothing to do. I shall have to think of things to do.

And I did do the Monday Things, if attempting phones and failing because no one feels like answering any more counts. So it's not like I failed at today.

It's just kind of tiring to have to do the same things every week because they didn't work last week. Since mid 2013.


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