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Today was cancelled on account of I maybe might have a cold.
As in I used up most of the tissues last night, I'm coughing a bit, and I feel all flat to the point I got an extra afternoon's sleep in.
But I cannot have a cold this week. This is the week there's an Expedition planned that I have been planning for literal months. Rearranging all the people so the Expedition is possible takes aaages, and budgets need sorted, and besides it's only Expedition season for a few weeks between Too Many Children and Too Much Cold/Rain.


... huh, Cold/Rayne, now there's an image...

I have read all the fanfic above a couple thousand words. Or possibly above a thousand words even. And most of it is episode responses that are no longer relevant by the end of the season.

Also, why do people be fans of bad guys and then make them all cuddly and, you know, not bad?
I mean these two beat the crap out of each other in canon and on screen, and say it isn't the first time, so why is so much fic all made of food and snuggles?
... actually that answers itself, but, you know what I mean.

I feel about much of this fic rather the same way I did when fic about Giles had him gain a sudden interest in bodybuilding and cut his hair and somehow look younger. Or just straight up youth him. Older is the point, antagonistic is the point, why are all the edges smoothed off without even the work going in?


... actually I'm just cranky today cause my nose aches and the plans for the week seem likely to be messed up and now I've run out of reading and must return to my regular Marked to Read list which is full of pairings now relegated to second place in my obsessions list.


It's frustrating though, reading fic and it all being domestic snuggly stuff, when canon leaves so many meaty philosophical issues. I mean, dating anyone involved with SHIELD (in some eras) or the Arrowverse means dating people who are putting people in prison with no records and no possibility of parole. Ignoring that because they're cute is kind of a problem.

Frustrating also that Steve/Tony fic seems to have ground to a halt, partly because Bucky, but quite a lot because how depressing is where they were left? And putting the work in to make them work as a couple means fixing their universe and coming up with workable legal compromises. Or, you know, ignoring everything. But the needs work must fix is why they were interesting in the first place. Instead all is AUs or threesomes and *sigh*

I mean a lot of that is we don't want what canon is serving, but, *sigh*



Is nobody else into fanfic for the philosophy?



I should eat a food and go do something other than whine.

But hey, I have found a new set of canon which makes me want to read all the fic and whine!

... new to me. The other other thing about reading through all of it is finding this whole fandom chatting amongst themselves who were getting the episodes as they aired (and feeling left out). Only getting them once they're on DVD is going to be a bugger even if I only follow fic.



Eh, I'm going to grab something and go back to bed, this feeling blah is annoying.

Just got all the way to the end of Flash season 2.
... I can tell where my fannish attention is focused, I immediately started figuring out how this would effect Mick and Len...

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So I saw a whole season of Flash and basically wondered what it would do to the Rogues and how I could use it to sort out the end of season 1 of Legends.

Pretty clear which show I'm actively fannish about.

today kind of didn't happen
like, I woke up and was Brave and went to get my blood taken all on my own and didn't faint
so that was sufficient task for one day
but then I went back to bed
so then it was now.

I can now check tumblr from my tablet computer in bed though, so I didn't sleep, like, 100% of the time. or any useful percent really. just kept dozing off enough to tangle myself in pretzel shapes or curl up in a really small ball and then wake myself up with the discomfort.

did dream of being driven in a getaway car by (DC Legends) Mick & Len. Who had carjacked Mark Hamill on accident. And then we were dodging sheep. Bantha sized sheep. and then when we finally parked Len propositioned me but involving that one really specific kink I'd never thought about before so, mostly blinky in response. So that was... *blinks*

things I could usefully have done today involved getting together quiz questions for the pub tonight.
not that I'm enthusiastic about either the pub or the sci fi quiz.
but I'm going, because I only get so many opportunities to talk to humans at all.

so. shall go eat and get ready to go.

Am on season 2 disc 2 of The Flash
and the subtitles for the deleted scene from episode... 5? The first one on the disc. The subs are completely unrelated. Actually might be from season 1. so, you know, slight error.
so I'm writing this here and vaguely wondering where one would report a slight error of subtitle.


In other news, I have it bad for Captain freaking Cold. I keep on not paying attention because it is not a Captain Cold episode. FFS self, whyyyyyy... you know, aside from being the morally ambiguous criminal one with the twisty plans and deep yet conflicted history with someone who is clearly his other half yet canon refuses to acknowledge it, and the whole opposite sides of a line Thing he has with Barry that I suspect I would ship a lot if I could perceive Barry as anything other than Too Young.

... yeah, if I'd done any research, I could have predicted this.

*facepalm*

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And that turned into a big ramble about legends even though I'm between two episodes of Flash.
Clearly this show has my attention.
... if I look up which episodes have Cold in them I'm going to be tempted to skip, and that won't help at all.
... *sigh*
*looks up*
... only one more episode. boo.
... but the actor thinks the character is pansexual, so, there's that...

Finished watching Arrow.
The only feel Arrow gives me anymore is anger when it screws things up in unexpected ways.
I'm bored with their idea of how relationships work, romantic and familial. I'm bored of where they get their drama from. And I'm bored of the grimdark world where the good thing is never the thing that works.
Also? Under the rules of magic they'd just explained? The ending purely shouldn't have worked at all.
Blah.
To all of it.

Sometimes I wonder if America knows how weird it is.
Like, it considers itself baseline, but wow is the rest of the world faaaaaaaar from that line.
I'm playing a sort of politics game where you choose between options and get consequences, but their problems all sound like America, and even when you choose something that other countries do successfully, their consequences sound like America's nightmares.
Which is really just that one person or community making up the politics game.
But still.
I wonder if America knows how weird it is.

I try not to wonder for too long, however, because they have a lot of kinds of power and it's scary.

Today I had one appointment Outside and another I had to make by going Outside. And I did both. Mission accomplished.
So I have an appointment also on Wednesday, all the way into the center of town. Hundreds of yards away.

... that might not sound like it was Quite Difficult but believe me it was sufficiently difficult for me.

I went on my own because I am brave and mighty.

... not very brave, sort of proportionally brave, in that it used up a large proportion.

But now I get to go have a normal monday, which means I have to start laundry and more laundry and probably some other laundry. Life is rich and full.

Also I should probably eat a food. Eating a food is recommended for humans.

I am in a good mood today
and started following tumblrs from more fandoms
but so far ones that show up on the sides of the tumblr recommended, because it's still puzzling and weird about boundaries to actually go find fans on tumblr

I actually like two current ongoing shows!

Supergirl
and
Legends of Tomorrow

they're both fun to watch!

I was wondering if that was going to happen again, like, ever.

I liked quite a lot of Lost Girl but then got very annoyed with bits of it. But that was pretty good. But not ongoing by the time I got it.

And on my To Watch pile there's all of Leverage and two seasons of The Librarians, so that's a bit promising.

Also there's Dark Matter, which has been recommended to me by the guys at the pub, because there are women in it.

Lots of things to see and stuff I'm not annoyed with and shows I'm looking forward to.

:-)



I would also like to watch season 2 of Agent Carter, but it doesn't appear to be DVDs. How do you see it if it isn't DVDs? Okay so i know a bunch of answers but none that my equipment is set up for. stupid multi level no ease of access boo. maybe it is DVDs later?



But today I am feeling more cheerful about media.




Also last night I read the latest Tanya Huff book about Torin Kerr, space marine gunnery sergeant: An Ancient Peace. It was why I didn't go to sleep until four in the morning. Excellent book, proper amounts of whoosh and boom and funny that shouldn't be funny and horror and eventually hope.
The only problem with this series is that humans can only write so fast.
:-)



and next week I shall order more new books
and get to leave the house at least twice
life is pretty good :-)

whenever I find a place that seems full of interesting story
and is not fandom
I try reading a thing at random
and get one or more of the Big Warnings (usually underage noncon)
and decide all over again to just stick to fanfic.

I mean with AUs you have all the genres all the time, and things are actually tagged, so if you didn't want to be really upset before you fully woke up you don't have to be.

mainstream science fiction thinks it is being Clever and Edgy and so much of the time it's just, like, mentioning bad stuff happens, and really, we know. we. know. enough already. move on and have an actual idea.

We went to Bollywood Dancings :-)
I have not been for aaaaaages, since August 2012 my tags says, because it moved and I stopped going in to college and I didn't have transport, but now I can get there again
and it is Fun.

... many parts creaky crackled that probably should not have, and there's no way I'll remember much of the dance for next week, but basically it is fun.

And I can go again later :-)
This having an employee again thing is most excellent.

Went and talked again. Some of it even on topic. Winning.
Also played Munchkin for like half an hour. Because when I asked driver if we have one hour she did not understand that is what I was asking. I shall be more clear next time.

The Ribs is quite nice and I brought as many warm things as needed so the basement on the river was nice to sit in.

Today I have mostly been reading Diane Duane ebooks on the new tablet computer.
The new thing is excellent for reading books on, but absolutely mind numbingly frustrating for trying to copy paste bits of them into a txt file for typo collection purposes.
It just won't highlight the bits I want it to. And it keeps trying to change pages, because the edges tell it to forward and back on that app, but I can't see how to tell it not to while I'm highlighting. And then when I try and get it to copy half the time it unhighlights and I have to start again.

Change in process not going smoothly.

But the stories were good. Except for the script bit at the end, that I kind of want to send concrit on, except for that being arrogant given my current zero scripts made. But it's just not very satisfying to defeat a villain you only met a couple of pages ago.

I should do some writing.



I put the discs in for to start watching Legends of Tomorrow, but then I finished the ebook instead.

Also I just remembered this week's topic at science fiction group is Star Trek, and the only Trek I've watched this year is Beyond. Mostly because my nice new Enterprise DVDs are in the big pile waiting on the new shelving, but, still. Possibly tomorrow watch something I can make conversation about in the evening?

I did all the cleanering but today feels annoyingly unfinished because I also tried phoning the same people as yesterday and they still have their answerphone on. Do they just use their answerphone all the time? Must I leave a message? Or I could try phoning someone else entirely. Eh, maybe if they don't answer next Monday neither. But the actual today jobs: accomplished.

finished watching Arrow season 3

still blergh

still too dark