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Today I have used the phone MANY to a bunch of different places, and also used the vacuum cleaner, and I hate (or fear) the vacuum cleaner, and also I did the usual Tuesday jobs with the Cleaner Day and Shopping Arrives. So today was quite difficult.

But because HabitRPG I get little golds for every bit of that difficult. And I levelled up :-)

I get to choose a class, and I chose Rogue, because I like golds and shiny things.

I think this rewards thing is working quite well. I do difficult, I get a character class. Winning.
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We did Sunday early, so I'm all done 12 minutes before I would usually go out.
Mum and sibling, cafe breakfast, shopping in trolley. Sibling followed me around shop today. I kept asking if there was particular food they wanted, but I think they just wanted to go with.
I got Spiderman DVDs for £3 each. I think they're the ones with Coulson but if not they're ones with Spiderman and they cost very small.
I had to buy a new sort of shampoo because they don't have the other sort any more. I've found the old sort online but only at the one online chemist so I don't think it's mostly made now. Which is annoying. I bought lemon and tea shampoo because it sounds inoffensive. It's difficult when it's all made of stuff you've never heard of. Probably lemon and tea is mostly stuff you've never heard of, but I have to use something, so.

Now I can lie here until moving seems like a remotely good idea.

Summer is not my favourite.
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Norwich Pride parade was today, and I was walking in it, all the way around!
Read more... )

Rainbows day :-)
Parade :-)
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I've been planning to get a map in my phone, or to be precise a phone that could potentially have maps, for plenty long times now, but before when I went to ask about it the shop guy said it would cost money every time I made a map. This time the shop lady explained how to turn off the internet and just use wifi to make the maps, and then the GPS will tell me where on the map I am all the time. I still need to do some deciding about what wifi to use ever, it's confusing what to throw through the air at unsecured networks, but this with the map I can start at home and then it just keeps working.

It is so much harder to get lost and disoriented how. The little maps have a compass and a direction you're facing built in, even. If I'm feeling ill at ease with my place in the world, the phone can now reassure me. Like the way the unlock screen tells me what day of the week it is every time I look, this makes me feel so much better.

... embarrassed that it makes me feel better, but still, on balance, better.

And that's just the maps. There's bound to be bunches of other things it can do more better. Useful apps, if I can figure out how to make it have apps.

I've figured out how to make it have web pages, so I have shortcuts to both HabitRPG and LibraryThing. The Habits game is already working pretty good, and I like how if I set 'eat' as a daily it takes bits of life off if I forget to eat. LibraryThing will mean I can check if I own a book while standing in the bookshop, if they have wifi. That'll be awesome.

Cyborg brain is so much easier than normal brain.

Mum thinks of me as good with tech. Truth is I got the hang of a few things in the 90s and didn't feel an urgent need to learn more. So this is kind of like time travel, even though everyone else has been travelling at one day per day and enthusing about the changes.

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They promise much and deliver, on this occasion, about 5/12 of it. If that.
Instead of a week supply of juice and walking around bottled drinks I have 5 cartons of juice, and will need to shop again on probably Thursday.

Also my apple thing was substituted by something that was not apple.

And Ribena was swapped for citrus drinks of another brand.

I do not understand the logic here.

On the plus side I have sandwiches and juice. For this evening at least I'm good.


Jul. 22nd, 2014 07:10 pm
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I'm reading a book at the moment that's one of those meet the aliens things, and it's making me uncomfortable because it's using a lot of phrasing that reminds me of cliche-China while adding that these aliens have no concept of love. Actually, even without that twist, it would make me uncomfortable to make the aliens Chinese. It's all in the phrasing with words like Auspicious and Heaven coming up a lot, and cities that have to be built in alignment with the land, and obsession with numerology. I'd like to be reading the plot but instead I'm tripping over the fakey scenery, you know? China is not alien, aliens are not china, and it's bothering me.

So I was thinking on why. It doesn't even have to be racism. When we look at other cultures we notice the sticking out parts, the glaring, the obvious. It fines it down to a stereotype fast. And we're usually unaware of the underlying reasoning, the geographic, ecological, historical conditions that made it all make sense. So we get a hollow system of glaring incongruities.

When I did cultural studies we'd look at historical literature, but whatever we learned to spot there we'd bring that to bear on current culture, and lo and behold we'd have a lot in common. So I think there's a better way to write about the Other. Look at what's foreign to you, sure, for a start, find those glaring parts, but then, come back to the familiar and find them at home too. Find the heritage buildings and the lucky numbers and trying to make your phone number spell something, and then use the familiar to make strange. Then, when you're writing your aliens, take those parts of your own culture out of context and defamiliarised. You'll have your strange Other aliens, but you'll have a lot more to draw on. And you'll have a lot of everyday language to draw on, with different social levels and so forth built in, so already it'll sound less fake.

It's like when you're looking for a Doctor Who plot. You look around your house, your office, your school, your drive in, your supermarket, and then you pick something and say 'what's weird about this'. Well, usually you say 'how could an alien kill us with this', but it's the same principle. And Doctor Who has survived on that for 50 years. So that works pretty good.

Don't present places you don't know as foreign, do it to your home town, and see what the new perspective gives you.
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washing machines are kind of awesome though.
I mean, who thought of that?
Clothes plus water, sure, but who then made the conceptual leap to 'and then we spin them round really really faaaaaaaaaaaaaast!!!
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today proceeds as per plan
*touch wood*

Slight sequence error means washing machine is running while cleaner is here. Cleaner says she don't mind the noise, but I do, so I apologised cause it's not nice to do what you don't like. Also now it is running with the door open. Boo.

Also now I am stressed that cleaner will do things in the wrong sequence and make more messes, even though this is good cleaner who actually makes things clean.


Got the receipt from the mattress back in the post. I shall have to start again with finding a good one now.
On the plus side I am actually sleeping whole numbers of hours in a row on the air mattress now it is not squeaky. So I have time without going steadily more nuts. For that reason. Anyway.

I think my jobs for the day list is down to things other people would need to do their half of first.

Also HabitRPG continues to work. My little dude has a pet fox now as well as a pet desert wolf, and I could have a panda except all my potions now are skeletons and why have a skeleton panda? I mean skeletons in general, yaay, but pandas with no black and white patches aren't much panda any more. I like how pet eggs and potions and food are all random drops, so any task you do might get you an extra shiny thing. Also I like how often I seem to be leveling up and how quick the gold happens. I can have a shiny at nice intervals, feeling like I did work and hence get a reward, but not getting stuck sulking in between. So now I have an axe and a chainmail coif and I'm saving up again. Motivation game of win.

Food delivery is not until 8pm today because it was cheapest then. But now I have no juice, no ribena, and no Tuesday lunch, so I think this was not my best decision. I drink water and try and persuade self to eat food that is not Tuesday. :eyeroll: This is the down side of forming habits. Get stuck in them.

mind, I already had leftover quorn cottage pie and vegetable steam bag for breakfast, some time before 0600 when I went back to bed, so I'm not stuck starving or anything.

... also 'habit' and 'regular routine' are not so much samelike when sleep/wake cycle does not to 24 hours conform no matter what I do.

My life is exciting.

... actually with little RPG dude and a big world boss to slay with usefuls, it kind of is today...
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I bought this anthology because Seanan McGuire is in it, with a story featuring characters I like at a point in their lives I wanted to read about. So, I'm happy I bought it.

But I'm pretty sure now it is entirely not my thing.

'Weird West' sounds interesting enough. Could be steampunk, could be zombies, could be magic decks of cards. I find though that I like all the weird well enough and just cannot connect with the West.

I recognise the idiom, but it's not where my dreams hang out.

Add to that my usual dissatisfaction with the short story, since they're all bite sized and at best leave me wanting a meal, and I think I'm unlikely to re-read this one.

But it's probably good. If the wild west with weird stuff in it sounds appealing to you.
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Take Away Day achieved. I like HabitRPG, I got some armour for doing Take Away Day. I did all my daily tasks, and bonus points for Go Outside and Be Social. And I leveled up to where it starts dropping stuff, so I got a wolf egg and a desert potion so now I have a pet desert wolf. This is much more rewarding than simply having clean and tidy and a life that functions.

It's too hot to actually eat all the food but I already know the little triangle things taste just as good tomorrow so that'll be fine.

The house we were going to view tomorrow cancelled and rescheduled for Thursday instead. Houses are difficult. The other one that mum was enthusiastic about even though I pointed out it had an EPC E rating and said it couldn't be improved, she phoned up and found when there's a viewing, but then she looked at the pictures more carefully and there's the round things on the side of the house that are to hold the wall on, and also places where a wall has been built right next to the wall, also to hold the wall on, and basically that would explain how it's not insulated, if the wall is falling off. So we're not going to go see it after all. Which is what I said in the first place. And then there was another place mum wanted me to send her the link for, and I was explaining how it's Not Good, but she just wanted the pictures of the bathroom. Okay then.

We watched Agents of SHIELD, the episode with Akela Amador. Read more... )

So now I have to decide between going back to sleep and thinking of something to do. The weather forecasts have a lot of lightning on them so I'm not going to go play on the big computer cause any power flicker makes it turn off. Laptop batteries are better. I'll see if they can make the big one better that way next time I get it to a shop. In the meantime I'll probably just go read a book. I have a whole stack still.

Also reinflate the air mattress. It got better once I figured out how to stop the squeaking problem (use it upside down compared to the instructions), but mostly deflated it's not much use at all.
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I just finished reading The Heir of Night by Helen Lowe. It took a while. I kept stopping at the end of chapters with no particular interest in what happened next. I'm planning to sell the book because boring. Which is sad.

Usually I'd say something about a book not being the one for me. But in this case it's purely the writing. Read more... )

I'm not angry at the book. Which is a bit of a relief, I must admit. It meets the basic criteria I filter books on before I bring them home, those being, by a woman, about a woman, and for a bonus featuring whole numbers of women who all talk to each other and do stuff. I should in fact like this book, just based on how many characters there are that I could live with.

But the writing left me feeling like the book kept shoving me away, and so I went.
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There are a number of people who would make their lives and mine much simpler if, when they phone, they would just leave their contact information.

Do they think it turns up automagically? Are they relying on that thing technology from the actual 21st century can do where it remembers stuff for you? Because mine isn't, so it doesn't.

So I don't know who they are beyond a first name and a promise to call me back later.
Clue: the exact same thing will happen later, just like it has the last couple of times, because I don't answer the phone without a run up.


This is a problem for Contacting People Day. Aka Monday. ... I needed to make a day for not hiding from messages. All days can be Contacting People Day, if I feel like it, but today I have already emailed someone who said they'd do a thing and hasn't, and phoned the mattress place to get them to take it back, arranging to have actual humans visit some time between 0700 and 1900 tomorrow. That is sufficient Contacting People for one Day. So, the rest can wait. But if I feel like that for too many days in a row things tend to go wronger, so, Monday.

I'm really quite frustrated at the moment about how difficult it is to get things to work the way they should do under the rules, the way they in many cases were working until it all went, and the way I did all my half to fix up properly.

One great appeal of hero stories is if they do their half it actually does something.
Often a very messy something involving body parts, but hey, something.

You know that thing where you've been given an assignment and you've got to work in a group and you're the only one that's done the reading, actually read the rules, and started writing your part? And you can't complete it alone? And nobody else bothers to turn up or answer messages? And, on at least one occasion, someone key slopes off with the declared intention of getting very stoned? You know that feeling?

I feel like that all the time lately.

I did my half correctly and yet nothing can happen.

Only it's worse because the people not doing the work are more like teachers, in that they assign and grade and make a vast difference to your future, and do not appreciate it when you point out it would really help if they made said difference now-ish and in a nice direction.

... is actual work like that a lot too?

... all them stories about striking out in your own spaceship and building a planet all alone make so much more sense in this kind of context. That feeling it would in fact work if you could just set it up to not need other humans. Except of course everyone always needs other humans.

Blah. Right. I've been awake since about 0200, I'm going to call that a day.


Jul. 16th, 2014 06:39 pm
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It has been agreed that, since one of the simulated turning over in my sleeps made bits of me go right out the bit for climbing in the bed, the mattress is indeed too high. I need a much smaller one. Much.

So I've learned something.

Mum helped me lift it out the bed again and I've put the air mattress back in.
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a) new mattress has arrived
b) new mattress is an inch taller than the maximum height I told him

I'm currently trying to figure out if the terms and conditions say that's tough cause I bought it in the shop.
but it didn't occur to me to get the tape measure out.

I'm also trying to figure out if it's really an important inch, given how much fuss it has been already
but the line on the cabin bed is there so you don't fall out, so it probably is an important inch, really.
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I dreamt I was in a hotel room with Christian Kane and he got shot in the abdomen by a sniper and I had to run to the reception desk to get them to phone for an ambulance. And then I woke up. Before the ambulance arrived.

And clearly telling myself it was just a dream ought to work, but two hours later, it's still bothering me.


Of such things are plots made. The need to sit down and play through until I get to a place where I can go about my day without the guy bleeding to death. I did that before I got up, leaving him comfortably in hospital while I set out to figure out what was going on with the rest of the Leverage OT3, but it's a lot less vivid than the actual dream parts.

In more reality based news, HabitRPG is already helping. Also I have rainbow armour now. :-)


Jul. 15th, 2014 01:43 pm
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Have started playing HabitRPG. The autistic/depressed version of a Daily list is kind of basic. So far it includes things like Wash, Wear Clothes, Drink Liquids, Eat Food, Brush Teeth. Cleaner Day has a detailed checklist, as does Order Food and Sunday Breakfast. My to do list includes finishing reading this novel I've spent the last week reading a chapter or so of and realising I still can't keep track of all the characters.

The Rewards section has as an example 'watch one episode Game of Thrones' for 20 golds. I don't have 20 golds yet and I just did Cleaner Day. Also I don't think it would work very well to not do fun things until I do the usual things, because thinking of fun things to do is actually something the pshrink was working with me on. The nice things were on the To Do grid as well. So I'm going to keep doing that.

Now I need to think of more things to put in my day so I can get the golds.

... starting by remembering to eat and drink more often would be shiny...
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bought a new mattress, because the old one has springs sprung out on both sides. it will be delivered on Wednesday.

also bought a new phone, because I remembered the other phone was being stupid. but it turns out messages don't transfer between phones, so all the old messages aren't there any more. but I got a new smart phone that can do maps and take pictures, because that will be useful for house hunting and being a tourist. they showed me in the shop how to turn the internet off so I'm only using home wifi and GPS for the maps thing, which is better than the last person I asked. but I haven't tried it yet, so it might not work, I don't know. I can find my house on the map but I haven't tried going anywhere else yet.

it is my first smartphone. it can DO Things, but I don't know what things. Though so far it can send text messages cause I sent one to mum to test it.

Also it can see YouTube. The first thing I've seen on my new phone is the new trailer for Doctor Who. Which will be coming back for my birthday. :-)

When I tried to use the internet though BT tried to install parental controls. Repeatedly. When I clicked the No button.

stupid government is stupid.

I am grownup and wish to search all the words and not have stupid clunky blocking in them.

Probably now I should think about phone security and things I don't want to do with it, but I don't really know how.

Mostly I'd like to use it instead of the big camera and music player and not actually willing to phone the fire brigade mobile phone that I already have. The smarter things it can do I haven't even thought of yet.

I guess I just joined the 21st century, communications wise.

... now I'm wondering how this new small thing compares to my existing computers, and at what point I bought one that was actually smarter, and what that actually means.


my mum still thinks I have the knowing of technology.

and yes, in school, I knew more than the teachers, and in the 90s I read up on things, but once all my equipment did what I wanted it to without me really thinking about it I stopped paying attention. now i've got to pay attention again, cause I'm not even quite sure how to dial this new whatsit.

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a very thin air mattress. it's in my single bed frame and there's still room to fall off.

The mattress which I have needed to replace for about a year now finally had sticky out bits of pointy metal on both sides, so I couldn't just turn it over and hope for the best again. This I discovered half an hour before closing. So mum ran up to the shops, my sibling trailing behind her, and got an air mattress, pump, and batteries. This took two trips because I miscounted batteries. I think I owe my sibling a magazine or something. I said I'd pay them back at Sunday breakfast.

it is squeaky and smells weird but is preferable to impalement.

so, mattress acquisition will occur soonest.

In other news it would really help if, when someone says they will help me look at houses, they in fact do the things. Or if there wasn't such general agreement that me going and doing alone was a Bad Idea.

hopefully the house will still be there on monday.
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Mum is now helping with the house hunting. This seems to consist of walking beside me saying 'you can't afford anything along here' without looking at the listings. but walking beside me is the really useful part.

So we walked from Debenhams where the 8 bus stops all down the Unthank Road up to Colman Road. Which is when I got grumpy and decided it was Too Far. And that's just outside my search radius for houses. So I have been looking in the right radius, I can indeed walk that far, at least with a sit down at the Subway for a sandwich. The roads that go off it all go up a hill so mum says they'll be slip slidey in winter. But there's a bus stop at regular intervals so I could get the 25 bus in, which is what I did on the way back, because Far.

... people who can walk much further than that, yaay you, but I find it quite challenging, which makes house hunting more complex.

Going on the bus makes it seem not very Far at all, but wherever I go I'd still have to walk to and from the bus and wait for it, so I think the edges are still in the right places.

Next Adventure, unless we find a specific house to go view, I can do the same along the other university bus route, and see where is Far along there.

Hopefully we will do the specific house viewing thing. They keep selling and then I have to wait for another one to turn up.

Housing is cool.

Also when we took the bus back we went to the Castle so I could pick my books up from Waterstones. New Seanan McGuire for me :-)

Successful day.


Jul. 5th, 2014 12:40 pm
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someone with a very deep voice is talking in the underneath garage under my bed
a bunch of children are... lets call it 'playing' rather than 'attempting murder', cause they do it every week at least... interacting with their voices in one of the upstairs flats
and I'm sure they're vocalising at reasonable volumes, but I can still hear them.

This still beats the lady who listened to 'no matter what' on repeat. Pretty sure she moved out.

but I still really look forward to the really nice house I'm going to find aaaaaany day now.
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Today I phoned a place, emailed a place, and asked mum if she wished to participate in take away day. There was a bit of confusion where she thought one of my siblings would be there and then he wasn't, but that got sorted out. So I went to the supermarket for juice, then the take away for eggs and noodles and curry triangle things, then to the post office to post two letters, back to pick up the take away, then home again.

I think I made an error on dressing correctly for the conditions. Not feeling well by the time I got home.
It is irritating that Outside requires many adjustments.
Slight pause between arrive home and start food while I waited to stop feeling uck while upright. Mum asked if I'd got my hair redyed lately and when I said no decided I was looking very pale. Super goth.

Then we ate and watched Agents of SHIELD.
It's much easier to watch now I know I can just not like Ward.
Coulson remains fun.

I haven't finished the triangle things. They taste great but I think my eating is faulty this evening. I guess I'll see if they're good to reheat tomorrow.

Mum has gone home again. She took some paperwork to show smart sibling, I must remember to get that back soonest.

Reckon I'm going to have a lie down.
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Orange & Lime juice is quite drinkable. It's not best, but it's closer to the Five Alive I drink.
If the ingredient I'm missing is the grapefruit that would be annoying, since it's grapefruit I'm trying to cut out, on account of it messing with absorption of an ever widening array of meds. I mean, it makes it a very interesting fruit right there, but it also makes it hard to know exactly how much of what will end up in one's system.

So green

Jul. 3rd, 2014 10:42 am
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Dreamed I was magic tripping in this fairy garden that was just so totally itself. Trees! So tree! And the grass, dude! Grass! And it was just, like, green, and totally a garden, right? So I was epic, epic tripping, in love-you-all mode, and it was awesome.

I woke up in the best mood I've been in in months. No chemistry required.

Read more... )

So now I've got a young Ripper in mind looking like Sebastian Stan, and while looking like a young ASH was perfectly fine, this too is no bad thing.

I kind of want to go sit in a garden now. A nice garden. That I am magically not allergic too.

Trees! So tree!
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I had a plan for today, but the stuff I had planned for before 10 am only just got done by 10pm, so even though I woke up at 0500ish , that day was kind of empty.

I continue to await someone wanting to sell me their house. It's annoying, waiting. Things go away quite quickly yet checking ten times a day doesn't make them turn up any faster.

I tried red grape juice in my continued quest for juices delivered by Sainsburys that I can drink. This is not the one, I think. It tastes kind of blah and then I feel peculiar. Or possibly I'm just tired. It's weird.

See this is why I drink and eat always the same things. I try new things and then decide I basically don't like consuming. Yet I am stuck with it.

I will try it again later to see if that was a weird one off or if I like the taste on a different day, but probably I don't like it.

I don't know what is magic about Five Alive citrus juice, but I can't get anything else to taste nice.

So, my plan for tomorrow is to do the things I planned for today, except the NSFG on account of that happened tonight. I might go sit near the book club group in Waterstones. I forgot to read the book though. So that would be mostly unproductive. But I would at least pick up the books I ordered and have those to read.

I need a proper project to fill all these hours in.

Also to communicate with humans more often.

Also to have things in my brain to communicate.
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... in what world does 'one hour delivery slot' equal 'phone an hour early, turn up fifty minutes early, look cheerful as I zombie?'
... Sainsbury world, clearly.
I think they just beat ASDA's record, but they did at least phone first, whereas ASDA just arrived at my front door while I was in the bath.

I would have been awake by the actual delivery time.
By my standards.

okay, Tuesday, I should be able to do this.

Already I did the dishwasher and the putting away of things.

Note to self: Need a bigger bin. Have needed a bigger bin for at least a year. Get on that.

Further note to self: It has been a year since employee left. The jobs list has not appreciably changed, much less shortened. Because it's hard to do things without employee, hence even the government agreeing I need employee.

Now if I could get the social worker to answer at all at all I could try changing this particular impasse.

... this is what cuts mean, invisible help and people even worse off than they were to start with. boo. it is not saving money when it drives everyone nuts. more nuts. including staff.


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